I don’t really bother with New Year’s resolutions anymore since I never follow through with them, but I’m loosely setting some for myself for 2024. I don’t expect to accomplish all of them, but at least a few would be nice!
- Get my anti-anxiety medication refilled now that I have health insurance and coverage again, and take my meds regularly. Keep going until I find medication(s) that work if this one doesn’t. I’ve been putting this off also because my doctor is on maternity leave, and having to talk to the new doctor that’s covering for her makes me anxious (go figure lol), but this is the most important resolution for me, and will be the one I do first once the holidays are over.
- Learn to become more comfortable with making necessary phone calls for myself, and leaving my apartment by myself. My anxiety and paranoia right now are debilitating, to the point that I hate talking to people irl or going out by myself because I’m so convinced that something bad will happen and/or someone will hurt me, but I deserve to live my life just as much as anyone else does, and it’s important for me to learn to overcome these fears. There are ofc evil people out there, but I can’t live my life in fear of encountering one of them.
- Continue prioritizing my hygiene and self-care. Taking care of myself is rough when I’m almost always lethargic and mentally unwell, but I’ve been doing my best to overcome that these past few months, and I want to continue working on it in the new year. Basic hygiene stuff like brushing my teeth, washing my face, moisturizing, showering etc, and I also want to start putting more effort into my appearance again. Making sure that I’m wearing nice, comfortable clothes, painting my nails, doing my makeup, accessorizing, etc.
- Tidy my room and the rest of my apartment more often. Like with taking care of myself, making sure my room and my apartment is clean is also hard with the way I feel most of the time. I live with my parents, but cleaning is hard for my mom due to her mobility, and my dad honestly just doesn’t want to, so I want to be able to do more around the house. Regularly vacuuming, sweeping and mopping, dusting, reorganizing, going through pantries to get rid of expired food and/or anything we’re not eating, etc. I don’t want
all of the housework to fall on me, but I also want to do more than I already do. I also want to get into the habit of vacuuming, mopping, dusting, doing my laundry and reorganizing my own room as well.
- Read more. I read a lot of fanfiction as is, but I want to start reading more fiction books again. I also would like to start journaling again! I think it would be really therapeutic for me, as well as helpful for my memory.
- Worry less about what others do or think of me. My value isn’t determined by how many likes I get or others’ opinions of me, and I really want to start believing that for myself. No matter my struggles or shortcomings, I have worth and I deserve to be kinder and more patient with myself.
- Exercise more, even if it’s just going for a walk or climbing the flights of stairs in my apartment building each day, or exercising in my room.
- Stop picking at my lips.
- Finally hang up the posters and wall decorations I bought for my room years ago. I’ve been hesitant to decorate my room because my room and this apartment honestly don’t feel like my home at all, but it’s likely going to be a while before I can find my own place, so it’s time to make the best out of what I have and put some of my personality and interests into my room.
- Try more new things, whether it’s experiences, food, etc.
- GET A JOB!!
- Improve my art and writing skills.
I might edit this later if I can think of any others, but I think these are the gist of it!