VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
I know things in the world have been pretty rough these past couple of years. With the whole pandemic crisis going on, everything on the news just seems to be so negative these days, getting a job is a lot of harder these days I just feel stuck right now. There are things I had planned before the pandemic even happened, but I just don't wanna do it. Maybe because I'm experiencing like emotional exhausting where sometimes whenever I try to find stuff to do, I tend to feel nothing. One moment I'm enjoying myself doing my favorite the thing and next thing I feel bored. I do things around the house but even that doesn't make me feel any better.
I tell myself "You have to take it easy, you can't be forcing yourself to do everything at once" but I just can't help it. I'm the type of person who tends to get stuff done a lot quicker and then I realize I have a lot more time to spare, but even that doesn't help. I know people always tell me "If you do this it will make you feel better" but to tell you the truth I don't feel anything. I don't know its maybe because I've grown up in such a toxic environment and I've become numb to everything. Sometimes forcing myself to be happy only damages my mental health and it just makes me feel miserable. The point I'm saying is that I feel bored everyday and I know stuff that is going on is out of my control and there is nothing I can do about it, but it sucks how this is making me feel right now.
Before anyone asks I'm 26 years old, I suffer from autism, I'm stuck living with my parents, and of course I have to always take care of them because they are getting old. I just wanna know if you guys feel the same way that I do, sorry if this got personal, but this is just what my mindset is these days.
I tell myself "You have to take it easy, you can't be forcing yourself to do everything at once" but I just can't help it. I'm the type of person who tends to get stuff done a lot quicker and then I realize I have a lot more time to spare, but even that doesn't help. I know people always tell me "If you do this it will make you feel better" but to tell you the truth I don't feel anything. I don't know its maybe because I've grown up in such a toxic environment and I've become numb to everything. Sometimes forcing myself to be happy only damages my mental health and it just makes me feel miserable. The point I'm saying is that I feel bored everyday and I know stuff that is going on is out of my control and there is nothing I can do about it, but it sucks how this is making me feel right now.
Before anyone asks I'm 26 years old, I suffer from autism, I'm stuck living with my parents, and of course I have to always take care of them because they are getting old. I just wanna know if you guys feel the same way that I do, sorry if this got personal, but this is just what my mindset is these days.