What's Bothering You?

I don't know what happened, but I feel like sometime around late March and early April I went through a torrent of changing mindsets, working through trauma and evaluating my current relationships and going through waves of depression/hypomania and trying to figure out what it is that I want to do with my life. I've been stagnant for a long time, and now a lot of stuff is hitting me all at once. I've been feeling really tired lately (as in, I could fall asleep right now) and my energy for socializing is even less, I thought it was already pretty bad last month. I don't know. 😞
it's because I feel like I need a change in my life--getting out of this house and starting a life of my own and advancing my career--and I need to put in the effort to make my change because my parents sure as hell won't do it. but I sometimes forget that I'm autistic and I'm very sensitive and I get overwhelmed easily, so I've been dealing with that a lot. 😭

as a side note, I'm supposed to be working on an art commission for a friend, it's been due for like a month, and I haven't done anything with it. and it's absolutely haunting me because I know I need to do it, but I just... I can't right now. I can't even finish stuff that I've barely started recently. I wish I could just take commissions like a normal artist, but no. this is why I very rarely open art shops, and they don't stay open long. I'm not consistent and it ends up being overwhelming and, as a result, not fun.

hopefully my friends and acquaintances can understand that I've been very inactive, not because I don't care, but because I'm really struggling to take care of myself right now. just don't have that energy at the moment. 😔

jiny said:
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I hope you don't mind me responding, but it may help to remember that, even if he's not around and can't always talk to you, he still cares about you a lot. people get busy sometimes and that's okay. as long as he knows how you felt about that and understands it and still tries to do his best then it'll be okay. 🥺
 
Now that it's spring, my plants are super happy and thriving. I have close to 100 plants and growing. However, for the life of me I can't get my two alocasias and two caladiums to come out of dormancy. My Silver Dragon alocasia came back with one leaf then died back again. I moved it outdoors to my porch where the humidity is more favorable. After weeks with no more luck, I bought a pop-up greenhouse on Amazon to help with humidity but both it and my Black Velvet alocasia won't wake up! There's no root rot, the base on both of them are hard, the soil isn't soggy, there are no parasites. I'm just at a loss and I really want to see new growth. I took them out of the greenhouse for now as I'm worried it's too much humidity. As for the caladiums, I thought they were dead but I found tons of healthy bulbs in the soil. They're not pushing leaves either. I'm not sure what else to try and it's disheartening.
 
I hate coming to this thread but leave it to that one neighbor to be  the annoying loud neighbor whose stupid bull**** keeps you from going to sleep.... This person sounds like they're dying almost every single night. AND sometimes during the morning, too. Idc if that sounds harsh.

Or maybe I'm to blame for letting every little disturbance, every little sound get to me, rip me.... ****ing brain, just turn off already.... I can't stand dumb crap like that.

Edit: fixed a typo because I was too angery to notice it lol
 
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Dim said:
I've been feeling so tired and uninterested in things. I was feeling like a million bucks last weekend and it feels like it all fell apart for no reason. Maybe I just need to relax or something.
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I hope replying to this isn’t out-of-line but if I can get rest when I’m in that mood it does. Or if a friend is there. Just when I get something I’m missing. The question for me is always how.

Do you feel like you’re missing something tangible right now or the apathy is there for vague reasons?
 
Drawdler said:
I hope replying to this isn’t out-of-line but if I can get rest when I’m in that mood it does. Or if a friend is there. Just when I get something I’m missing. The question for me is always how.

Do you feel like you’re missing something tangible right now or the apathy is there for vague reasons?
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I don't know... maybe?
 
This is very minor. the other night i tried to play some HSR. I even tried pulling for a character. Still definitely not feeling it and am leaning towards deleting it and being done with it as much as I liked the game and liked what i had pulled. Just feeling really frustrated still about the customer support. a lot of times i do come back to gacha games, so part of me thinks I should take a long break as I was going to. I haven’t been thinking too much about it, just sad that this happened and i feel guilty about it for the people that added me.

Mood has been a bit down today since I had a dream about another friend; she used to be another best friend but i stopped talking to her because of something that happened at an arcade bar and how she and the other “friend” acted.

Noticed too i still haven’t gotten a response from my friend. Part of me is nervous and rather not hear from him yet; but for the most part it makes me really sad.

Today was still a pretty good day even with my mood feeling icky, but I feel a bit off
 
Xara said:
logically i know that it more than likely wasn’t the pasta + meatballs that made me sick because my parents also ate it and they were fine. and tonight’s dinner was fine, and yet here i am. struggling to breathe, nauseous and trembling because i’m so anxious

and the worst thing is is that even if i don’t get sick again, i’ll never be able to eat anything i ate that day without being scared again because i don’t know what made me sick. 2 of my favourite snacks and one of my favourite meals ruined for me forever. fun. awesome.
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Been there friendo, so I empathize. I think it’s only natural to feel the way you do.

I’ve had food poisoning twice, and both times it was hellish.
The first time, the very last thing I ate before I started throwing up was a Smarties McFlurry, so I blamed that McFlurry to anyone that would listen…completely ignoring the pulled pork sandwich I had at a fair the day before lol
 
I can’t try for the gold rose because I only have one black rose, I can’t afford the golden watering can, and I’ve already plundered my inventory for desirable collectibles that I’m willing to sell to make more bells ;< not a giant gripe or anything, just kinda wish I wasn’t totally blocked from even attempting to get it through sheer brokeness haha
 
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