What's Bothering You?

[daringred_]

seriously need this country to full-on riot and get our unelected leader and his party the hell out. wdym actual doctors will no longer get to decide if you're sick enough to be given time off of work ???

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

I'm upset that I didn't see my psychologist today. Usually I get called down during a period (even when I'm not expecting it or I wasn't notified) to meet with someone, so I figured that would be the case today, but nope. I haven't seen her in two weeks, since I wasn't at school (sick) the one day she was. I can't say here why I'm seeing a psychologist, but that thing has been getting worse and I would've really liked to have help with dealing with it. I sorta talked to my friend about it, and it didn't exactly go well.

Also feeling tired and agitated after having a terrible week - Y'know, dealing with the stupidity and intolerance of almost everyone around me, amongst other things. It really sucks, but it is what it is.

 

[Soigne]

Spoiler: health stuff

having a bit of a scare lately with my heart. my family has a history of heart problems, but i didn’t really think it would hit me this early in my life. hoping everything turns out for the best. may need a pacemaker. i’m not sure.

 

[jiny]

genuinely just wanna bawl my eyes out because i can never have a good birthday i hype it up so much in my head and when the actual day comes it’s not even anything how i wanted it to be. my so called best friend posted me on her story and then deleted it once i replied, some of the friends i talk to pretty often havent even wished me a happy birthday yet i know it’s such a stupid reason to be sad but i wish i wasn’t surrounded by horrible friends

 

[Xara]

Snip

i hope it’s okay if i reply, i just felt it important to since i felt the exact same on my birthday. this isn’t a stupid reason to be sad at all. i’m so sorry, jiny. you deserve to feel special, important and loved every day, but especially on your birthday. i’m so sorry you don’t have people who do that for you. but please know it isn’t a reflection of you, it’s a reflection of them. they’re your friends, and no friend should make you feel like this. you and your birthday are important, and it’s a reflection of them if they don’t want to treat you like you deserve. it’s their loss.

i hope you have people in your corner one day who make every day special for you, not just your birthday. sending you so, so many hugs.

 

[-Raven-]

I get depressed so easily. Feelin PMS or something. I put my energy in and today’s been a letdown. Dunno.

 

[.: Meri :.]

God I hope whatever's been kicking my butt today is just nasty pollen allergies... the tree pollen is going absolutely wild here rn (600+ grains per cubic meter) so hopefully?? but man the past few weeks have been A Lot and we've only just gotten to the point where we don't have to do anything extra for a short while, so I really would rather not wake up sick tomorrow on top of everything else hhhhhh

 

[Chris]

Minor but it's the first day of my week off work and I woke-up at 7AM.

 

[Giddy]

Just wanna put this here, so I can not think about it till I can actually do something about it.

But my mum told me she came down the stairs to see like, so some was hair balls, but another patch was like a watery possible blood thing?
Thing is, we have no idea out of the four cats we have, who it is. I don't think it was completely blood, as said it was like a watery thing with fur, but really unsure.
We're hoping that the blood is just them having too much hairballs, and like how we bleed after blowing our noses too much sorta deal? I think it's either my youngest cat or oldest cat - both males. But again, I have no idea who it was. :/

I just really, really hope it's nothing really bad,
They took their time eating different today but I think thats just normal, unsure if my youngest had biscuits in the night so didnt eat as much - he has had some stuff just not much. The older cat too. They're both sleeping now. I just don't want to over worry myself.

If it does happen again, here's hoping I would be there to see it. :/

 

[daisyflowers]

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[jiny]

Spoiler

another petty complaint, but the guy i really like didn’t text me all day yesterday which was so out of character of him because he’s always texting me in paragraphs and in general he’s really sweet especially in person, so it kinda sucked that on my bday of all days he didn’t text me at all my mom told me she was sure there was a valid reason … i had seen him in the morning because we have a class together, and he hugged me and everything so idk he finally had texted me around 12 am, telling me he hoped i had a great birthday and we exchanged numbers LOL this is so confusing and ik it’s petty pls don’t come for me

 

[-Raven-]

First server I joined from Disboard after years I’ve been waiting literally 10 hours to get the verified role so I can actually read/post on the server And I’ve seen like five mods online

 

[spawnpoint]

I feel like I can't do anything right .. I'm trying my hardest but it doesn't feel good enough no matter how much I'm told otherwise and I don't know what to do about this because it's killing me

 

[boring]

i was cleaning the kitchen and suddenly there was a very close explosion, i look outside and its a parked car on fire??? never a boring day in london

 

[Dunquixote]

My dad treats my middle niece worse than the other two just like he treated me differently from my sister. She just threw a fit over what we had for dinner and it is easy to tell he is irritated (also that he is anxious since he doesn’t treat it) by his tone and pretty much screams at her or has an attitude. He is a bit more patient with her older sister.

This is part of why I want less and less to do with him. He always had a bad temper and treated me weird because of my issues (even though to other people he openly acts like he knows i have anxiety, depression, and am on the spectrum; he really doesn’t understand or try to understand me at all). He still does. whenever i say something that might not be normal to bring up or ask a question, he treats me like i’m stupid. Or when I have a panic attack he screams at me what my problem is instead of being supportive. He never has been supportive when I show any anxiety.

To some degree i think he treats my nieces better, but when any of them cry or has fits he gets hysterical and freaks out.

 

[Snap Crackle Pop]

I am tired of always being anxious about work, even though I do not work tomorrow I am already stressed about Monday. I'm always afraid I am going to get in trouble or something even though I feel like I haven't done anything wrong. I'm trying to change my mindset but it's a struggle. I really hate having anxiety and OCD. It's an awful combo.

 

[-Raven-]

I’m friends with someone that I do what I can to hang out with, but they don’t do much for my suggestions or join my interests. We naturally have pretty opposite interests, but when I find some that partially align, they don’t care. We had a little debate about it today and I’m sick of it. It’s not like I put the most effort ever into that friendship, but I’ve tried to keep up and it’s after learned experiences of putting in too much for people who can’t reciprocate. I JUST thought I got out of this kinda thing.

I deserve to be a bit selfish here, considering how much I try to do for people. When everything I really care about is niche, this sucks. I don’t know what this friend expects from me, this is just how I operate. This is something I do for my own mental health/knowing my limits and debating with people about it makes me feel like a jerk. I am getting so depressed about dealing with this specific kind of thing, it’s crap. The more this happens the more I’m just going to be stubborn about it.

And I don’t expect 1:1 effort or the same kind of friendship from everyone but hell… every suggestion bounces off and their suggestions are not tailored for me. It reminds me of the guy I cut out where it felt more like “let’s do my thing, you can join for the ride”. I do care about this friend but it’s been this way for the longest time. I’m tired of hanging out for its own sake with people who don’t put in a bit more effort. It honestly doesn’t have to be ostentatious but something as simple as including my interest like asking if I wanna stream my game or something they know I love, or hell joining me and my other friends in voice chat, would go a long way.

Hell man. Having flashbacks to some other failures of mine. But I know I’m doing good enough. Just wish I felt it.

 

[Chris]

I got up at 5AM. I'm doing great at this whole vacation thing.

ADHD brain is in charge today. Took me three attempts to remember to go back and actually make the coffee after boiling the kettle.

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler

Last night, two of my nieces spent the night—the youngest and the middle child. And the middle niece threw up. I was in the kitchen when I heard him ask her if she was done throwing up? If i sad something like that, my dad would act like I’m the ******* or not normal one and if I say anything back he would freak out and ask what my problem is. But when i said to my mom quietly (but not quiet enough) what kind of question is that? He says pissy oh because you two are perfect. Okay i realize i shouldn’t have asked that (since I’m on the spectrum, couldn’t he just say nicely you shouldn’t say things like that. and nicely i mean sincerely nice and not passive aggressive) Still kinda odd to say instead of, how are you feeling? Are you still sick?

His temper always scared and intimidated me when I was little and it still does now. He makes me hate myself the way I am even more since he freaks out whenever I show some of my symptoms whether it is anxiety or something else. He never acts this way with my sister or at least not as bad.

My mom wants me to go to a dance recital or something that is coming up for my oldest niece but i really don’t want to go anywhere with him anymore. it is stressful enough leaving the house but being around someone who treats me like i’m stupid and not normal makes and who doesn’t treat his anxiety makes mine 10x worse. I’d honestly leave if I could but i’m still dependent on my family. I know I’m being selfish, but at the same time, the more they push me to leave the house, the less i want to :/.

 

[Halloqueen]

I'm back with another minor complaint. More of a first world problem annoyance than an issue akin to the usual bad stuff reported in this thread.

I found out that AMC is going to be introducing ads and ad tiers to their streaming services, which includes the streaming service I'm subscribed to the most often throughout the year: Shudder. Which, as I've seen from other services I've subscribed to on shorter term bases, like Hulu for example, will mean there will probably still be an ad-free tier but it will be way more expensive to try to encourage the ad tier. I don't like ads in general, so I'll have to fork out extra for the ad-free tier whenever these changes come into effect.

Bleh.