What's Bothering You?
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VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
Last Friday, I went to see my Primary care Doctor. It was 2 PM when I arrived. The whole thing took nearly 2 hours, and they didn't do blood work even though they made me do a Urine sample and checked my A1C. They made me go to a different place to do bloodwork. Then by the time I got to the other place these nurses were telling me how they were closing even though I got then by 4:00 PM and it cearly said it was going to be closed by 4:30 PM. I had a mental breakdown since I haven't eaten all day, since I've been fasting. So I went to this company by the name Any Lab Test Now, and there was a big caveat that they charged me $129.00 just to do simple blood work, and they would not take my health insurance. I had no anger left in me, so I used the Credit Card just to pay for this. By the time I was done, I binged ate McDonald's up until I got sick and threw up. I mean, that is how bad this whole thing went.
ZeldaCrossing64
Sugary Cynic
**** everyone and everything. There's no way you can be happy in life when the world is full of negativity/misery. I'm certainly not and I never will be. I try so hard to better myself, but it's useless efforts. I can't take this **** anymore.
chocovelvetcake
(CURRENTLY ON HIATUS)
Sorry I haven't really been active here lately. This is mainly due to me being really busy with work and family problems, not to mention my mental health hasn't been doing so well. I also recently signed myself up for therapy and I can't wait for my first therapy appointment (I regret not getting therapy sooner). Hopefully, things will get better soon.
Cetoddle769
Naydra Reincarnate (On Hiatus)
Going through a lot right now. Life can be really rough sometimes.
No comments, questions, or replies please.
Also: I was looking forward to seeing Alice In Chains, but they cancelled their entire summer tour. Really dissapointed.
No comments, questions, or replies please.
Also: I was looking forward to seeing Alice In Chains, but they cancelled their entire summer tour. Really dissapointed.
lasagne_of_death
intangible.
I think I'm going to fail or get really low grades on my IGCSEs. I was wholly unprepared for them lol (if you are a teacher reading this, for the love of all things good please give your students mock exams <3)
Dunquixote
No dms and discord messages
I’m feeling troubled and frustrated
Sometimes I really hate having OCD because it makes things so much harder to cope with and move on from and at least twice as stressful.
No replies or comments or dms/discord messages please
Sometimes I really hate having OCD because it makes things so much harder to cope with and move on from and at least twice as stressful.
No replies or comments or dms/discord messages please
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VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
I don't know anymore 
Cetoddle769
Naydra Reincarnate (On Hiatus)
I’m a very friend worthy person, but nobody sees that. Nobody wants to be friends with me. They don’t see my value, which is very sad. Those people are missing out. I’m smart, kind, and funny. Most people would rather not give me a chance. This makes me feel worthless. It’s hard to find people who get me and like what I like. Most people choose to ignore me. They act like I don’t exist. I feel like an extra in a movie. That’s basically what my existence is to most people. I’m just someone who’s ‘there’. Just another random person in the world.
I relate to this meme: (Pink blob coming out of a box meme I found on Pinterest. Idk what meme it is or what it says at the end.)
My social life in a nutshell.
I relate to this meme: (Pink blob coming out of a box meme I found on Pinterest. Idk what meme it is or what it says at the end.)
My social life in a nutshell.
Mimi Cheems
you make me wanna make you fall in love ♡
Worried my vertical labret piercing will either reject or get infected 
I had it pierced with surgical steel this time instead of titanium; despite reminding my piercer I needed titanium. I think we both forgot in the moment bc of how nervous *I* was, and how much of a hurry she was in to get somewhere after me :'3
I will say, compared to the first time I got it pierced; there is absolutely no bruising or even swelling?! If anything, this time the swelling is so minimal I barely notice it. But when I got it done for the first time 2 years ago, my bottom lip was purple for like two weeks
So.. maybe it won't be so bad after all? But.. my skin is so sensitive
I had it pierced with surgical steel this time instead of titanium; despite reminding my piercer I needed titanium. I think we both forgot in the moment bc of how nervous *I* was, and how much of a hurry she was in to get somewhere after me :'3
I will say, compared to the first time I got it pierced; there is absolutely no bruising or even swelling?! If anything, this time the swelling is so minimal I barely notice it. But when I got it done for the first time 2 years ago, my bottom lip was purple for like two weeks
So.. maybe it won't be so bad after all? But.. my skin is so sensitive 
VernalLapin
🩵pfp by woudim🩵
I wanna crawl in a hole.
Cetoddle769
Naydra Reincarnate (On Hiatus)
Just now in Breath of the Wild:
I was quickly passing through Hyrule Field, when a Guardian KILLED MY BELOVED HORSE, Nayru. Nooo!!!!
I can't believe this happened. She didn't deserve that AWFUL death. I need to find the horse god so I can revive her.
But for now, I SHALL AVENGE NAYRU. Anger, greif, sorrow, and guilt are what describe me right now. I loved her sooo much.
I was quickly passing through Hyrule Field, when a Guardian KILLED MY BELOVED HORSE, Nayru. Nooo!!!!
I can't believe this happened. She didn't deserve that AWFUL death. I need to find the horse god so I can revive her.
But for now, I SHALL AVENGE NAYRU. Anger, greif, sorrow, and guilt are what describe me right now. I loved her sooo much.
trying my absolute best to stay off twitter once i see unnecessary discourse
fandom people on that site are absolutely mean for no reason and it's extremely tiring. do people not get tired of being haters i dont get it their stances are so unserious that it's MUCH easier to just scroll past the nonsense. best example of "dont like it, scroll away". & the discussions are often very hostile that honestly i can barely call it a discussion lmao
like i would understand if it's some serious topic but no. almost always the discourse is because "i do not like this thing because it doesnt align with my preference so i will send hate." like goddd people are gonna like and dislike things!! it's NORMAL!!!! stop forcing people to like things you like and vice versa
there's a short of ProZD about "opinions on the internet" and it is so SPOT ON. the video is so funny that it hurts. really restructured my view and made me realize what a waste of time it is arguing with people online on simple preference. i'd link the video but it has curse words so just search it up, it is worth your 15 seconds i promise
fandom people on that site are absolutely mean for no reason and it's extremely tiring. do people not get tired of being haters i dont get it
their stances are so unserious that it's MUCH easier to just scroll past the nonsense. best example of "dont like it, scroll away". & the discussions are often very hostile that honestly i can barely call it a discussion lmaolike i would understand if it's some serious topic but no. almost always the discourse is because "i do not like this thing because it doesnt align with my preference so i will send hate." like goddd people are gonna like and dislike things!! it's NORMAL!!!! stop forcing people to like things you like and vice versa
there's a short of ProZD about "opinions on the internet" and it is so SPOT ON. the video is so funny that it hurts. really restructured my view and made me realize what a waste of time it is arguing with people online on simple preference. i'd link the video but it has curse words so just search it up, it is worth your 15 seconds i promise
VernalLapin
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I have a bit of a reddit addiction.
I refuse to post or comment on that site anymore. And though there are some very interesting and non-toxic comments on there, deep down it stings because I got mass downvoted for saying the opinion that I don’t like emojis and explaining myself thoroughly. No politics, no religion (topics that get super controversial and heated), just a random opinion. I could understand a couple downvotes for people disagreeing with my opinion, but I was mass downvoted more than I’d ever seen someone downvoted on that subreddit, and it genuinely makes me think that they hate me and wish me unwell.
I refuse to post or comment on that site anymore. And though there are some very interesting and non-toxic comments on there, deep down it stings because I got mass downvoted for saying the opinion that I don’t like emojis and explaining myself thoroughly. No politics, no religion (topics that get super controversial and heated), just a random opinion. I could understand a couple downvotes for people disagreeing with my opinion, but I was mass downvoted more than I’d ever seen someone downvoted on that subreddit, and it genuinely makes me think that they hate me and wish me unwell.
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Mondays are gonna be such a pain now that my boss wants me to also do afternoons as well as opening in the mornings on Monday, something I only done on a Thursday.
What's worse is that Monday, I'll be with my boss and this afternoon really showed how unhelpful she will be when I work there in the afternoon as she did absolutely nothing, she was on her phone watching stuff as I washed up, went upstairs and cleaned the kitchen- how she cooked food for people when it was just her working today, I don't know - and I hardly had any tine to rest. My feet are knackered.
We also have a local festival in the local park so that's bringing MORE people and I'm just so tired working at a coffee shop. I'm tired for working fir a boss that doesn't put in such an effort or complains or talks or mocks customers behind their backs.
I really hope that I can find something that isn't coffee. Food or retail. My creativity is dwindling, my passion for it is fading and I feel like I'm gonna snap.
This week is just worse because on Wednesday u have to go to that stupid job fair that I guarantee won't have anything for me. I went to that one before.
I told them I couldn't stay the full day as I had to go to work and they ignored me? Expected me to apply to jobs I had no experience or passion in.
I need a shower and rest my feet, maybe then I won't feel so icky and depressed with life.
I could write a book about all the bad stuff I've dealt with in both shops I honestly could.
What's worse is that Monday, I'll be with my boss and this afternoon really showed how unhelpful she will be when I work there in the afternoon as she did absolutely nothing, she was on her phone watching stuff as I washed up, went upstairs and cleaned the kitchen- how she cooked food for people when it was just her working today, I don't know - and I hardly had any tine to rest. My feet are knackered.
We also have a local festival in the local park so that's bringing MORE people and I'm just so tired working at a coffee shop. I'm tired for working fir a boss that doesn't put in such an effort or complains or talks or mocks customers behind their backs.
I really hope that I can find something that isn't coffee. Food or retail. My creativity is dwindling, my passion for it is fading and I feel like I'm gonna snap.
This week is just worse because on Wednesday u have to go to that stupid job fair that I guarantee won't have anything for me. I went to that one before.
I told them I couldn't stay the full day as I had to go to work and they ignored me? Expected me to apply to jobs I had no experience or passion in.
I need a shower and rest my feet, maybe then I won't feel so icky and depressed with life.
I could write a book about all the bad stuff I've dealt with in both shops I honestly could.
. Rarity .
revirevision on Discord
A member of my family keeps pulling herself into various issues/problems. But whenever she tells us, she gets annoyed or blames us for reacting to said problem. She shares her problem in away that she's expecting us to give her advice. But then she blames us for how we react.
Shes gotta stop projecting her guilt onto us. We're just helping, and I'm so sick of me, and my parents being the targets.
Im so tired of it. So emotionally drained by it.
Shes gotta stop projecting her guilt onto us. We're just helping, and I'm so sick of me, and my parents being the targets.
Im so tired of it. So emotionally drained by it.
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Despite having voluntarily estranged myself from her due to how she treated me, I found an active social media account belonging to my mom, and it's hard not to give into the temptation to take a peek here and there even though there's nothing to be gained from it. It's just a morbid curiosity of sorts, even if she mostly just rants about politics. However, the other day she posted something about my youngest sister having just gotten out of the hospital. For reference, I'm unfortunately largely estranged from my sisters as well, mostly because I couldn't maintain contact with them if I was going to avoid my mom due to them all being much too young to themselves have any independence from her, and I've been told she used that to turn them against me anyway by saying I hated them all and that that's why I left.
Anyway, I unfortunately have my suspicions as to why my youngest sister was in the hospital. A year or two ago she managed to find a way to email me and mentioned struggling a lot with depression (as well as confirming that my mom did convince them I wanted away from them too by opening with knowing that I "don't want to hear from her"), but she never replied to me after I tried to clarify things as well as try to encourage her that things can get better and that I hope her situation improves. Mentioning my sister having just left the hospital is just about the only reference to her that I have seen my mom post, short of a vague request if anyone knew of a good therapist for a young teenager. In comparison, she's posted about taking the oldest sister on a trip overseas (just the two of them, from the looks of it), and threw the middle sister a nice baby shower when she was having a child, now regularly gushing about the baby inbetween political posts.
She then, yesterday, posted some photos of her with the three of them. I didn't notice it right away, but taking a second look (mostly because it's been so long since I've seen any of them that I would never have recognized them as my sisters without the context) I spotted marks all over my youngest sister's arms...
I guess my mom is at least bothering to get her care. Obviously, I wish my sister was doing better to begin with, but when I was struggling with mental health problems myself prior to severing ties with my mom, she was aggressively unhelpful. She brushed off my concerns both leading up to, and during, a mental health crisis. She stood by her then-boyfriend who admitted to having to keep himself from physically assaulting me after I brushed off his completely dismissive and halfhearted attempt at "cheering me up", saying that had he done so I would've deserved it for how I was acting. Decided to try to snap me out of things with ice cream despite me saying that I wasn't hungry, and then chewing me out when I put mine in the freezer instead of eating it because I at least didn't want to waste it if she absolutely insisted on buying it. The morning after all this happened, I overheard her joking with the oldest of my younger sisters about me hurting myself while she thought I was still sleeping, and then while I was on the way to work she soft-evicted me (basically gave me an ultimatum regarding continuing to live there that spat in the face of the established arrangement and made leaving the only choice that made any sense).
She at no point seemed even vaguely concerned about my wellbeing and would continue to be manipulative even after I'd moved out, but before I fully cut ties and also physically moved far away without telling anyone. Frankly, I think that had I done anything drastic, she would've just milked it for sympathy instead of mourning like a normal parent. So, at least my sister isn't going through this. I can't really tell if my mom maybe learned from how she treated me and doesn't want to lose another child, or if my youngest sister is just higher on the totem pole. Mom absolutely plays favorites, and I'm pretty sure the rankings are oldest sister > middle sister > youngest sister > me (her firstborn).
My mom just really sucks as a person.
Anyway, I unfortunately have my suspicions as to why my youngest sister was in the hospital. A year or two ago she managed to find a way to email me and mentioned struggling a lot with depression (as well as confirming that my mom did convince them I wanted away from them too by opening with knowing that I "don't want to hear from her"), but she never replied to me after I tried to clarify things as well as try to encourage her that things can get better and that I hope her situation improves. Mentioning my sister having just left the hospital is just about the only reference to her that I have seen my mom post, short of a vague request if anyone knew of a good therapist for a young teenager. In comparison, she's posted about taking the oldest sister on a trip overseas (just the two of them, from the looks of it), and threw the middle sister a nice baby shower when she was having a child, now regularly gushing about the baby inbetween political posts.
She then, yesterday, posted some photos of her with the three of them. I didn't notice it right away, but taking a second look (mostly because it's been so long since I've seen any of them that I would never have recognized them as my sisters without the context) I spotted marks all over my youngest sister's arms...
I guess my mom is at least bothering to get her care. Obviously, I wish my sister was doing better to begin with, but when I was struggling with mental health problems myself prior to severing ties with my mom, she was aggressively unhelpful. She brushed off my concerns both leading up to, and during, a mental health crisis. She stood by her then-boyfriend who admitted to having to keep himself from physically assaulting me after I brushed off his completely dismissive and halfhearted attempt at "cheering me up", saying that had he done so I would've deserved it for how I was acting. Decided to try to snap me out of things with ice cream despite me saying that I wasn't hungry, and then chewing me out when I put mine in the freezer instead of eating it because I at least didn't want to waste it if she absolutely insisted on buying it. The morning after all this happened, I overheard her joking with the oldest of my younger sisters about me hurting myself while she thought I was still sleeping, and then while I was on the way to work she soft-evicted me (basically gave me an ultimatum regarding continuing to live there that spat in the face of the established arrangement and made leaving the only choice that made any sense).
She at no point seemed even vaguely concerned about my wellbeing and would continue to be manipulative even after I'd moved out, but before I fully cut ties and also physically moved far away without telling anyone. Frankly, I think that had I done anything drastic, she would've just milked it for sympathy instead of mourning like a normal parent. So, at least my sister isn't going through this. I can't really tell if my mom maybe learned from how she treated me and doesn't want to lose another child, or if my youngest sister is just higher on the totem pole. Mom absolutely plays favorites, and I'm pretty sure the rankings are oldest sister > middle sister > youngest sister > me (her firstborn).
My mom just really sucks as a person.
Reginald Fairfield
Senior Member
Dolphin assisted child birth is a thing?
