What's Bothering You?

[Chris]

Headache persists and painkillers left me so nauseous last night I couldn't even enjoy being at home.

Can't face today but no choice not to - there is no one to cover me. So glad it's Friday. Just need to get through one more day.

Edit: wish I'd stay home. Have a technical issue isolated to my office that has left me without access to the phone or internet. I get a huge influx of reqs on a Friday (colleagues deadline) and the IT technician isn't back in until Tuesday.

 

[jiny]

Spoiler: rambling

i honestly don’t know if im overreacting, but i just cut off one of my closest friends because she’s associated with my ex (who emotionally abused me for over a year before i finally got the courage to leave).. her other close friend also hates me? for some reason (reason being that i “stole” her away from my friend), and that friend decided to start dating my ex lol!!!!! i just felt so uncomfortable with everything. my friend has been weird for a while anyways, but the whole thing with my ex bothered me from the beginning i just never said anything bc i thought my feelings would go away. today my friend decided to post her friend and my ex together, while he’s holding flowers for her (something he NEVER gave me lmao). i honestly just felt like she posted that cause she wanted me to see it? she knew i could see it. she knows how badly my ex treated me. i started shaking so bad when i saw that post. i called her out, i sent her a message saying i couldn’t be friends with someone associated with my ex anymore, and blocked her on everything. i forgot that my macbook doesn’t block people, i have to do it on there manually. she responded and from there we started arguing about it, she basically invalidates my feelings. she tells me that i shouldn’t stop being her friend because of that, since she’s not the one dating him and she can’t control who her friend dates. but it just feels so absolutely weird for her friend, the one who hates me, to get with my ex? and she knows that’s my ex? and why didn’t my friend warn her friend how horribly he treated me??? idk how i always end up with these horrible people as “friends” im honestly so over everything right now, i have trust issues for life i feel like i have no real friends at all

 

[Midoriya]

Minor bother, but this Quaquaval raid in Pokemon Scarlet/Violet is so annoying, lol. Like I don't think I even had this much trouble with the Mewtwo Mightiest Mark raid from awhile ago. I've attempted this **** over a dozen times now. Kept getting paired with bad teams, and the few times I was paired with a good team, something happened to make us lose. Like in one of the raids we were about to win, but the game decided to give Quaquaval a critical hit at probably the worst possible time.

 

[-Raven-]

I guess no matter how I say this it’s going to seem like begging for attention which bothers me in itself. I’m not trying to. This is something I’ve alluded to before and I’ve never really been able to examine myself on it or write it down properly. The last week has made me think a lot about what I’ve done on this website and I wish a lot of it had been different and I was truly able to grow close to people. It’s very strange to be here and never really have fostered talking with people here much outside of random brief chats on the forum. I can’t force being close to anyone and I can’t force myself to put in energy but in most places I feel like I don’t know anyone. I’ve had some luck with some people reaching me more on Discord and I truly thank for that regardless of my own shut-in nature. Nobody did anything wrong to me. I just feel a lack of many close friendships in my life. I hate that I was never good at this. That’s what being isolated for a decade and a half does I guess. And I hate that I have so many viable scapegoats for my victim mentality because it’s not helping me.

 

[AccfSally]

Spoiler: Rambling

I hate these fake indie book publishers/marketing accounts. They're all over the place just trying to get a quick buck off of people. I know it's not a new thing, but I still hate it.

Some guy in his basement playing with ChatGPT and thinks that just because they got these tools (that are clearly being abused), They think they're part of the industry now. This is just hurting the actual companies even more.

There's this person on another site I hang on. I'm very suspicious of them after they were clearly dodging my questions (not only that, but their account is private.You can't search for them) and then blocked me.

 

[SkyKnight03]

I wish I could just close all of these loud heart disease ads that play when my mother is watching TV.

I find them to be so unsettling and anxiety inducing.

 

[sleepey]

i really dislike feeling like i am irrational. maybe that’s self-imposed, but, at the end of the day, i just don’t get putting up the front of neutrality or composedness for the façade of “maturity” in any given situation. not anymore, at least. even when i try, i always seem to break

 

[Yoshi155]

**** my life. I’m fine and I’ll probably delete this later but I’m just mad about something that happened earlier.

 

[-Raven-]

I don’t think I can do it with drawing. Honestly the lack of anywhere I want to post it (yes that includes here) has a lot to do with it. But simply put the process of trying to improve is not fun anymore. Really sucks because if I actually make something that looks good to me it feels good but I start to autopilot, I start to get worse, I can’t draw the things I want that others aren’t drawing or that I can’t necessarily commission / afford. Then drawing isn’t fun anymore.

Also, spelling necessary is very annoying. I always need help on that one word.

And I absolutely hate pitbulls, speaking with a friend who has a similar dog yesterday, the whole topic bought back a lot of panicky feelings and trauma… I’m not scared of a lot of things when it comes to physical danger but they are absolutely one and I felt a kind of fear I haven’t in years just from the topic being discussed for a little while. It kept me up more. I normally don’t care because this is an open forum and I post with the mentality that people could respond to anything I put up even in this thread but no opinions on that in response please, that’s how much it upsets me and how set I am on my opinions of it.

 

[Dunquixote]

I’m feeling uncomfortable. Also a bit freaked out since a bug just landed on me. My mood is stable and I think might be improving a tiny bit, but still am depressed. I’m trying to focus on positive and fun things and be optimistic about some stuff, but it is really hard. My air conditioner is making a really high pitched annoying sound; everyone is sleeping so I have to just deal with it. It’s probably something to do with either being cold outside or the wind.

 

[azurill]

Not feeling all that great today. Also tired and sore. Worried about something and it won’t be until the end of next week before we find out the results.

 

[Seastar]

I'm not going to be able to sleep tonight because I'm worried about the weather.
The worst part is I can't sleep during the day or even tomorrow night because the weather will still be going on.
If the predictions are correct, I might be sleeping Sunday morning...

 

[themysterybidder]

There are so many things worrying me right now, that added with my physical pain and lack of sleep, etc, is not a great combination. I've had a headache now for several days and can't shake it. I think it's lack of sleep that's causing it. My Dad always tells me not to worry and that he's always there for me, but I can't help it everything is constantly in my mind.

 

[Devicho]

Trying to stabilize my mental health since the start of the year has been really exhausting. I seem to have bouts of anxiety at total random now. Worse yet is that I’m feeling more depressed than I did before the start of the year, but it mostly feels influenced by the state of the world which isn’t something I have any control over. I can try to limit exposure to the news, but nowadays I can’t even take a walk in my neighborhood without passing by intentionally-provocative political nonsense. Part of me wants to snag all these signs and flags and tear them apart, whether I agree with what they’re saying or not, because everyone being needlessly antagonistic towards each other for the past decade (if not longer) is why everything involving having to interact with other people is such a drag now.

 

[nightglow]

i think I tore my arm the other night. I was hoping it was just a sprang, but with the type of symptoms and it still continuing today, I am thinking I tore it a little This is either from it not being supported in my sleep or from an aggressive cramp in my sleep. Either way, it is intense and highly inconvenient. I won't go into details of its pain sensations and arm operation as it may bother some, but it is pretty useless and swelled.

 

[mogyay]

the heating system in my flat is so old that it's basically random at this point if it decides to give me hot water or not I've been waiting on it being hot enough for a shower for like 20 mins and I need to leaaaaave soon

 

[Giddy]

Yesterday was such a rollercoaster of good and bad things, it's crazy to think I have to sorta seperate things that happened in two posts.

At work I burnt my hand fully with hot milk, was multitasking as I held the milk jug, and I forgot that heat pole thing was chaotic and randomally heated it to a point that it spilt everywhere, so quickly put it under water before finishing off the drink. Stung for a few hours after. I don't think anyone noticed it happen either.

After work, me and my mum travelled out the city to go visit my cousin's grave, as it was my aunt's birthday yesterday and aparently my aunt's ashes were put there with her son who passed.
But when we got to the gravestone, it was hard to tell if my other cousin was lying to us about that because my cousins grave was in such a bad way as if they haven't come to see him in YEARS. (Either my cousin or their dad, who is the one who owns the gravestone hasn't seemed to been there in ages.) You couldn't even see anything, so me and mum had to stay longer and remove leafs, rubble, dead flowers and took over nearly two hours. The ground was really wet as well. So we were really angry and fustrated that it was left in such an awful state, my aunt would've been so angry. It was definitely an emotional situation. Luckily we bought a lot of waste bags to remove everything. And then finally added the flowers we bought.

Couldn't help but look over at the other graves, and how sad it must've been. Some old, really old graves were covered in ivy, on grave had a whole tree growing from it, and I kinda wished I could help clean some old graves that had no one visiting them; you know?

My cousin called my mum as she planned to call today, but obvs didn't know we were going to the grave, until my mum told her just then.
My mum's water bottle leaked and my sandwiches were ruined. :/

I also had my UC call that day at 3pm, but stayed so long at the graveyard, my phone was off because the phone they had on my details is old and likes to waste its battery so I turned it off, I only remembered an hour after. :/ Hope this doesn't affect me, I had to explain why I missed the call and explained as much as I could.

Such a tiring day, my shoulder blades, feet and ankles were in so much pain and I had to sleep early that night just to heal.

 

[bestfriendsally]

AGH!!!!!

LIGHTWORKS! PLEASE STOP FREEZING ON YOUR OWN RANDOMLY SOMETIMES & CLOSING YOURSELF!! WHY YOU DO THAT?! > <


(sigh~ sigh ~ .... i'm sorry for the caps/shouting.... it's just REALLY frustrating....

but i can always go back in & everything is fine, somehow

)

 

[Tude]

@Zerous hope everyone is okay

 

[VulpineVengeance]

Whenever I'm sick I get panicky and anxious from being alone and not feeling well. I'm feeling a lot better today but I'm mad that even walking around for a few minutes makes me nauseous