What's Bothering You?

Got another phone call from a different doctor. It was about my thyroid this time. Now, I have problems with my thyroid levels, sometimes they are high and sometimes low. So, now he wants me to get another blood test to see what the results are. I don't mind blood tests, but in my experience with my Rhuematology bloods, they never actually do anything to try and increase my levels, just keep getting me to go for bloods.
 
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it's weird because I've actually been feeling okay recently, but there are just so many little bothers that I can't get over in my mind that sometimes bring me down a bit. having issues with my car, being tight on funds because of that and other things, dealing with my parents, dealing with this psoriasis and the struggles that come with it, my PS2 and N64 refusing to read games, not having much time or motivation to draw, needing to clean and not having much time or energy for that either. just small bothers that accumulate and weigh me down a little. 😔

also just woke up like 10 min ago and I haven't even left my bed yet and mum is already calling for me. like, not to be rude but please leave me alone. 🥲
 
Have a blood test this morning so I should've been able to have a lie in until 8am!

Instead I woke-up an hour before my alarm, at 6am, with stomach pain. So rather than sleeping I'm on the couch with a hot water bottle. 😒

And had to go home sick from work by 1pm. :cry:

Treatment on Tuesday can't come fast enough. I always feel better within 24-48hrs of them administering it.
 
my parents are making me rehome my cat, and honestly it just pisses me off because why agree to get a cat if you’re just gonna end up hating the cat later on. the same thing happened with my first cat, i had to rehome him to my ex-bf because of the same thing. they agree to get us a cat, then later on start to nitpick on things that the cat does, and just hates its presence. now it’s happening with the cat we have now, and i can’t help but feel so miserable about it because i’ve seen videos about cats that get taken back to the shelter or given to a new home after being at one home for so long and i feel so guilty about it 😕 idk what to do lol
 
my parents are making me rehome my cat, and honestly it just pisses me off because why agree to get a cat if you’re just gonna end up hating the cat later on. the same thing happened with my first cat, i had to rehome him to my ex-bf because of the same thing. they agree to get us a cat, then later on start to nitpick on things that the cat does, and just hates its presence. now it’s happening with the cat we have now, and i can’t help but feel so miserable about it because i’ve seen videos about cats that get taken back to the shelter or given to a new home after being at one home for so long and i feel so guilty about it 😕 idk what to do lol
If this is a recurring issue, do they just have a problem with cats being cats? 🐈
 
If this is a recurring issue, do they just have a problem with cats being cats? 🐈
I’m sure they do lol, it just makes me mad because at first they were fine with the cat, and they literally had no problems but in the back of my head I was still scared to get comfortable with having the cat we have now because of what happened with our first one. lo and behold it did happen again lol
 
I was so excited to play Stray Gods but immediately turned it off when it was like... stop motion? not-animated?
I know it's my fault for not even looking at a gameplay trailer but it just feels like a storyboard meant to be animated.
 
So many things are bothering me. I was awake for more than 24 hours yesterday (finally got sleep though) and I feel horribly unwell (half the reason I struggled to sleep) and my mind went through too much during that time period. I don't really feel any better and I keep thinking about the same couple of topics that are bothering me.
One of them is my fear of death. I wasn't sure if I should say this but I'm already crying over it.
 
it's that time of the month again yall :,,,,,,,)

my back/shoulder muscles hurt for actually no reason and I can't even run my hands across my upper back without hurting, like ??? what did I do lol?? also been dealing with weakness in my right knee and a mild tension headache all day. my body is just not having it today haha.
 
A sort of friend (she used to be a very good friend) has suddenly started "being interested" in my favorite series, but I found out it was only for my attention, specifically because she wanted me to follow her insta and give her more clout
she then admitted that she actually doesn't care for the series too much, and was forcing herself to play it, but she's doing an AU for her characters completely based on the series

I got so excited because I thought she was actually interested and wanted to talk to me and stuff, but it turns out i'm only worth what I can do for her
 
it's damp outside (it's not even really raining so idk why) which means it's damp in my room, and my AC unit is good at keeping the room dry, but it's also good at keeping my room cold so I can't turn it on to dry out the room or else I'll freeze. and even though it is already pretty cold in here, I woke up multiple times during the night in a sweat because, I guess, my comforter is made of the least breathable material ever. I've had this issue before and it's annoying. so I can really only cover up with throw blankets right now, but because it's kinda cold in here and it's damp, even that is uncomfortable. I'm lying here, half under the comforter against my better judgment, and I feel simultaneously warm and cold, dry and damp. I imagine this PMS is exacerbating my physical discomfort right now, but regardless it's just mildly annoying enough that it's bothering me. 😭

on the plus side I do have my kitty Feef here, providing me some gentle and genuine comfort. he's so sweet. 🥺💗🐱
 
I was driving home and there was just a little dog randomly running around one of the perpendicular streets in our neighbourhood, so I stopped and went over to a neighbour's house to see if they knew whose dog it was. it was a really frustrating experience.

*main door is wide open, I knock on screen door*

man: "I'm not interested in what you have."

me: *not understanding what he said* "is anyone home?

man: "we're not interested."

me: "I'm not a solicitor, I have a question!"

man: "I told you we're not interested!"

wife eventually came out, I explained to her that there was a dog running around, and she told me that it belongs to the neighbour across the steet, and he gets out occasionally, and he can be hard to catch. I thanked her for letting me know.

how hard was that? I clearly needed help and this man just kept telling me to shoo. I'm willing to give the benefit of the doubt and say that he's dealt with a lot of solicitors in his day, but this whole interaction came across as very rude and distant. I'm already very moody today because of PMS and this made me sob as I was driving home. there's no reason for that guy to be so rude. he could've taken 5 seconds to get up and see if I needed help.

whatever, I'm getting coffee and food omw to work so I hope being at work improves my mood (I love my job so I think it will). just can't get over how rude people can be sometimes.
 
Minor work frustration
So at work we lost our assistant manager at the beginning of the month. Nice guy but didn’t always know what he was doing. I figured it wouldn’t take that long to get a new assistant. Found out today we are not getting one anytime soon. They said we can borrow one every once in awhile if we really need to . I don’t see how that will work since my manager can’t work 7days. It’s always a pain when we don’t have a manager and have to find one from another department if we need anything. We have basically been on our own the last few days since our manager is on vacation.
 
I’m starting to get really creeped out by the amount of times I’ve had Deja vu this week. Every person I encounter, every image I see, and every message I see online right now feels like something I’ve seen before in the exact same way I saw it previously. Deja vu is something I normally feel a few times a year, but right now it’s several times a day.
 
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