What's Bothering You?

[themysterybidder]

Today would have been my Mum and Dad's 47th Wedding Anniversary. I have a card and a gift for my Dad and a little pocket card from Blossom. I've included my Mum on the card as I feel if I don't it's as if she didn't exist. I'm sure my Dad will like that, but I hope it doesn't upset him.

 

[nightglow]

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[SkyKnight03]

I went to an exhibit for the Holocaust yesterday. I'm not the most educated on this stuff I will admit.

But geez. Man it hit hard seeing the victim memorabilia. The most depraved and brutal things the human imagination can conjecture really did happen to millions.

Spoiler

There was account of them taking a group of 90 people and forcing them to drink ocean water until they collapsed.

It's rare for stuff like this to stick with me. I came out with a different point of view and newfound respect for the importance of history. I'm glad for taking a walk through it.

But even as 'history'. It's just all so recent. I had grandparents alive at the time of this.

 

[Doo]

Really minor but the heat just makes everything difficult

 

[Chris]

I went to an exhibit for the Holocaust yesterday. I'm not the most educated on this stuff I will admit.

But geez. Man it hit hard seeing the victim memorabilia. The most depraved and brutal things the human imagination can conjecture really did happen to millions.

Spoiler

There was account of them taking a group of 90 people and forcing them to drink ocean water until they collapsed.

It's rare for stuff like this to stick with me. I came out with a different point of view and newfound respect for the importance of history. I'm glad for taking a walk through it.

But even as 'history'. It's just all so recent. I had grandparents alive at the time of this.

These are definitely times that it's important to sit with your discomfort than ignore it. And the Holocaust is certainly one of them.

I'm actually planning a trip to visit the site of the Bergen-Belsen concentration camp, as I knew a man (now passed) who was there as a child and thankfully survived long enough to see it liberated. His story has always stuck with me.

 

[jiny]

i’m getting very annoyed w school problems; i changed my major to nursing which required me to change my schedule to fit the prerequisites i need but it won’t let me register for them
usually i wouldn’t be so stressed out but the one class i really need only has one seat left, so i’ve contacted my advisor who told me to contact the it help desk, who then told me to contact the registrars office they told me to send an email with the classes i need and they’ll manually register me for them, but they haven’t and i’m just getting more stressed thinking about not being able to get the class i really need

 

[Chris]

Spoiler: Work vent

Had a rough couple of days at work. Won't go into details about each individual thing but there have been issues with my pay, false long-term absence letters (I was off 3 days) threatening to cut my pay issued by someone outside the service (only senior management or the head of service should issue me this type of letter if one was required), internal dept issues, I found out I'm being relocated for a few weeks in the summer but don't know when or where, my health issues are causing me fatigue and pain, aaaand my CBT got cancelled last minute on a day it could have really helped to talk to someone.

Upside, due to my mental disability my employer implemented a "buddy system" for me a couple of months back. If I feel overwhelmed I'm to call him. I felt it was silly at first, especially as my assigned buddy is on annual leave and my back-up buddy is a senior manager, but I emailed him and he came and sat with me for 30 minutes in my office while I vented. And he related. And it helped a lot. Executive dysfunction is a ***** but he helped me work through the stressors contributing to it today. He told me to take a 10 minute break after he left, then to find a small job that felt conquerable. After that I was able to tackle some of the bigger dept issues.

He told me he'll handle most of what has happened this week on my behalf. And gave me a strategy plan for tackling the dept issue. And that the issue with this false letter has been escalated to the head of service. This senior manager has seen me every day while my line manager is on AL and knows I've taken no LTA, so I have someone reputable to vouch for me and say, "yep, Chris has been at work everyday for his full hours."

He absolutely saved me from a spiral today. But I did have to correct him that my name is Christian not Christopher.

 

[SkyKnight03]

These are definitely times that it's important to sit with your discomfort than ignore it. And the Holocaust is certainly one of them.

I'm actually planning a trip to visit the site of the Bergen-Belsen concentration camp, as I knew a man (now passed) who was there as a child and thankfully survived long enough to see it liberated. His story has always stuck with me.

For me - I've never actually gotten to see anything holocaust related outside of school textbooks. (and maybe the occasional film like Schindler's List). So it was my first time morphing those textual images into reality.

The disturbing part sank in with seeing just how effectively systematic the extermination process was. They had videos of the victims being stuffed into the trains. If I'm not mistaken, around 90% of Jews in Poland were wiped out. I envisioned the Holocaust as a messy affair, but not like a cognitive machine.

That doesn't even get into the live human experiment stuff. As if it wasn't enough to wipe them out. They turned children into science projects.

It was a learning experience though.

 

[Yoshi155]

I didn’t have to drive at all last week, which was kind of relieving, but I have to actually do it now. Anyway, today, unlike before, my dad got the son of one of his friends to help me. I’m always stressed when I’m driving with my dad or especially my mom, because they always get at least a little pissed every time I make a mistake, especially if it’s something I did correctly before. But this guy didn’t ever do that. For the first time, I felt relaxed while driving. Idk is it normal to feel calm while doing that? It was kind of weird but I liked it

Well, yeah, I thought that, but today I had to go driving again, and he did get a little annoyed that I kept messing up on relatively simple things, like staying in the right lane. Not as bad as my mom or dad, but still.

I feel like all I ever do is just piss people off. And these are people I know, not random strangers on the road.

 

[Croconaw]

I wish I was less approachable. So many people talk to me, and 99% of the time I’m okay with that, but there is that 1% of the time I just want to be left alone.

Don’t quote this, please. I’m just thinking out loud.

 

[-Blue-]

I went to an exhibit for the Holocaust yesterday. I'm not the most educated on this stuff I will admit.

But geez. Man it hit hard seeing the victim memorabilia. The most depraved and brutal things the human imagination can conjecture really did happen to millions.

Spoiler

There was account of them taking a group of 90 people and forcing them to drink ocean water until they collapsed.

It's rare for stuff like this to stick with me. I came out with a different point of view and newfound respect for the importance of history. I'm glad for taking a walk through it.

But even as 'history'. It's just all so recent. I had grandparents alive at the time of this.

People can just be horrible. The war crimes committed by many during WW2 is very haunting. Some of the stuff the Japanese military did isn't as well known, but is very messed up. Sadly it's what happens when you get a bunch of young unsupervised soldiers who won't suffer consequences for their actions and things like this can happen. Don't look up the Massacre of Nanking. The Japanese soldiers did horrible things to the civilians, even babies. And treated it like it was a game.

War is horrible, but it is the right thing to do to remember all that happened regardless of how horrible those atrocities are and how horrible and irredeemable those people were/are.

 

[SkyKnight03]

I went to the store and got a soda and snack.

Well, on the way out I tried to open the wrong car door. I tend to walk and daydream. So I wasn't exactly aware of what I was doing.

Nobody was around. Saved me from a cringe worthy moment.

... Aside from that, there are people in this world who will use any excuse to hurt others. I realized after that moment I could have easily ended up on the wrong end of someone's temper.

There was a girl who was shot for making that exact same mistake. He actually followed her across the parking lot.

I was thinking about that a lot today. I told my mom who actually wasn't upset at me. She said it's a very easy mistake to make.

But those kinds of scenarios can go wrong very easily.

 

[Midoriya]

I'm sick and tired of life. Feels like people look outside of themselves rarely. Only when it affects them. And then they impose their will or control until they're in a good position again. No one actually truly cares about anyone else anymore, or at least that's the way it feels. Family imposes restrictions and changes saying they're for the better good, when in actuality they're not. And it goes beyond that too. Schools, organizations, governments, and nations do the same thing. Can't remember the last time someone genuinely cared about me outside of a handful of instances. Hard to tell when people are being genuine these days too.

I've grown sick of it all. I miss how things used to be, when my mom was alive.

I don't need hug reacts for this. Just needed to state how I'm truly feeling.

 

[ShadowLelouch97]

I'm sick and tired of life. Feels like people look outside of themselves rarely. Only when it affects them. And then they impose their will or control until they're in a good position again. No one actually truly cares about anyone else anymore, or at least that's the way it feels. Family imposes restrictions and changes saying they're for the better good, when in actuality they're not. And it goes beyond that too. Schools, organizations, governments, and nations do the same thing. Can't remember the last time someone genuinely cared about me outside of a handful of instances. Hard to tell when people are being genuine these days too.

I've grown sick of it all. I miss how things used to be, when my mom was alive.

I don't need hug reacts for this. Just needed to state how I'm truly feeling.

Piggybacking off of you, it really is hard to tell when people are genuine these days. It feels like you can't trust someone anymore, since you never know what kind of intentions that someone will have.

 

[Suguri]

Piggybacking off of you, it really is hard to tell when people are genuine these days. It feels like you can't trust someone anymore, since you never know what kind of intentions that someone will have.

Maybe that's why I feel so anxious whenever I'm in love.

 

[ShadowLelouch97]

Maybe that's why I feel so anxious whenever I'm in love.

And maybe that's why I feel like I can't really trust anyone with anything these days.

 

[SkyKnight03]

People can just be horrible. The war crimes committed by many during WW2 is very haunting. Some of the stuff the Japanese military did isn't as well known, but is very messed up. Sadly it's what happens when you get a bunch of young unsupervised soldiers who won't suffer consequences for their actions and things like this can happen. Don't look up the Massacre of Nanking. The Japanese soldiers did horrible things to the civilians, even babies. And treated it like it was a game.

War is horrible, but it is the right thing to do to remember all that happened regardless of how horrible those atrocities are and how horrible and irredeemable those people were/are.

I think there are atrocities that are at a higher level of barbarity. Although the Holocaust was methodical mass murder produced over years of time. Human genocide turned into an intelligent scheme with layers. People sought to die sorted into categories, extermination camps, contraptions built to eliminate huge numbers at a time such as the gas chambers. Rather than sheer savagery, it's evil behavior that was thought out. And for the most part, successfully eliminated specific large groups of people in what is now considered a modernized society.

I'm respectfully going to leave this thread to those who need to vent. Rather than drag it into an off topic conversation.

Thank you for the reply and discussion.

 

[-Lumi-]

I can't sleep. Sleeping with my broken ankle has been really hard - especially as someone who sleeps on their side and rolls around a lot. I'll be really tired but I can't seem to actually fall asleep and when I do it doesn't feel like long continuous sleep.

Genuinely I want to cry. I hate this so much.

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

Someone's hissy fit outside sounds like an angry chicken.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler

day off from work today but I still gotta drive all the way down to that area because I've set up an appt with my family doctor again. I've been trying to get treatment for this psoriasis for weeks now, over the last week and a half it's gotten really bad and nothing that my doctor prescribes seems to be helping at all. it's still scaly and itchy and painful to the touch. I can't wash my dishes or take a shower because my hands hurt so much when touching any water that isn't cool/cold. I pretty much have to keep an ice pack on me at all times so I can use it to numb the pain. literally doing basic things, like typing on keyboards and housecleaning, hurts because of it.

I have a feeling that I may have developed staph infection on my hands, it's happened before and is unfortunately usually the cause when my psoriasis is painful and steroids don't touch it.

when this eventually subsides, I guess I need to see if I can find some sunscreen to protect my hands from sun/UV exposure, since that's the allergy which triggers my psoriasis. I didn't really deal with this last year because the mild summer combined with the wildfires in Quebec made it so that my sun exposure was pretty minimal. the sun has been out full force this summer, especially during that heat wave, and I'm just miserable. I think that sunscreen has worked in the past, I really don't want to resort to wearing cotton gloves outside.

I just hope that my doctor can help me without having to perform steroid injections directly onto my hands. I have a pretty severe phobia of needles (made worse by a dentist visit from last year, threw me into a horrible panic attack).