Shawna
AroAce, ASD, and Proud ^^
This is something I am very...passionate about, for lack of better words. I am not saying my life/present is bad, but I just yearn for the future...2 years from now? 5 years from now? 15 years from now? I can't even say.
In a year or two down the road, I will be getting into programs for people with special needs, on the spectrum, etc. From what my dad said, this will be like a volunteer type thing and/or something that is basically my job. I am skeptical, of course, but I also can't wait. Even though school was boring and stressful for me at times (NTM, a lot of the stuff we learn is useless in the long run), I still miss it dearly. It was nice to go out and have things to do on a regular basis and to be with friends. I am still very unsure about what my programs will be about, but I am excited all the same! I want those days back. I want to have a daily thing to go to and to make in-person friends again. :,)
(I had friends in school, don't get me wrong, but we all have gone our separate ways).
And do not get me started on my hopes as an author...
![Two hearts :two_hearts: 💕](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f495.png)
I don't think I have ever been more passionate about anything...![Heart on fire :heart_on_fire: ❤️🔥](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/2764-1f525.png)
I want to write books that spread awareness on topics that pertain to me (whether directly or secondhandedly) and that I feel people lack knowledge, information, awareness, and understanding about. I will not get into all of them in this post, but to name a few: Self-shipping, Autism & Neurodivergence, LGBT+, Mental Health, and the School System (how it is flawed and whatnot). Unfortunately, ignorance can turn into insensitivity, inconsideration, and even things like hatred and bullying. It is normal to be ignorant and to lack knowledge and awareness, but some people tend to think the worse of certain people because of it. Not only do I want to spread awareness, kindness, and world peace with my books, but I also want to teach people to handle their lack of knowledge and whatnot better. Just because a person has/does something that you do not understand, that doesn't mean that person is a bad person or deserves to be bullied. I know I will not be able to eliminate bullying, ignorance, etc. 100%, but I want to at least alleviate it to a considerable extent and to make an impact in some people's lives. :,)
And I mean no hate towards my dad and my brother, but I am looking forward to getting my own place later on down the road. I can live however I please without worrying about getting mixed into my dad and my brother's crazy stuff (and vice-versa). Plus I can get out of certain **** I don't want to do (at least more easily) like taking vacations. They are just not for me. I can make my life as comfortable and convenient as I possibly can. I am not saying I am gonna avoid my family all together. In fact, I love the thought of going to a restaurant I like with my dad, my brother, and if she lives close enough by that time -- my mom, on a regular basis once we are all living on our own. However, it will be nice to have my own house and my own control. Despite being younger, though, my brother will probably move out first. Don't get me wrong, it will be sad in a way, but I can't help but look forward to it. We don't have to share a bathroom. I hate it when I have to...ya know, go, but my brother is in the shower. At least we have our own bedrooms (granted, they are right next to each other)...but still. I also dread the thought about my brother bringing his friends over to the house we currently live in together with my dad (which I have overheard discussions about). I just worry about it being obnoxious and inconvenient... .-. Once my brother has his own place, I will not have to worry about that BS anymore, as that commotion will be over there and not here. But it will be even better once I also have my own place. That way, me and my dad don't have to worry about (unintentionally) inconveniencing each other either. Plus we can all eat whatever whenever. ^__^
But yeah. I just love the thought of making an impact through doing what I love most (writing) and to live on my own with as little worries as possible. :,)
This is just one of those things that is just always on my mind. I know I probably think about this too much. People always say things like "carpe diem", "no time like the present", and simply "Stop focusing too much on the future!", but I just cannot help it. I am not saying the present can't be full of wonderful times...but I just cannot help but compare the future favorably to the present. Thinking about my ideal future puts a smile on my face. Looking at the other side of the coin, I believe it is harmful to give little to no thought about the future. It is a good thing to set goals and think about your hopes for the future, whether it be YOUR future, or the future of the world in general.
What about you guys? How do you imagine your ideal future to be like? What are your helps for the future in general?
In a year or two down the road, I will be getting into programs for people with special needs, on the spectrum, etc. From what my dad said, this will be like a volunteer type thing and/or something that is basically my job. I am skeptical, of course, but I also can't wait. Even though school was boring and stressful for me at times (NTM, a lot of the stuff we learn is useless in the long run), I still miss it dearly. It was nice to go out and have things to do on a regular basis and to be with friends. I am still very unsure about what my programs will be about, but I am excited all the same! I want those days back. I want to have a daily thing to go to and to make in-person friends again. :,)
(I had friends in school, don't get me wrong, but we all have gone our separate ways).
And do not get me started on my hopes as an author...
![Pleading face :pleading_face: 🥺](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f97a.png)
![Two hearts :two_hearts: 💕](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f495.png)
![Two hearts :two_hearts: 💕](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/1f495.png)
I don't think I have ever been more passionate about anything...
![Heart on fire :heart_on_fire: ❤️🔥](https://cdn.jsdelivr.net/joypixels/assets/8.0/png/unicode/64/2764-1f525.png)
I want to write books that spread awareness on topics that pertain to me (whether directly or secondhandedly) and that I feel people lack knowledge, information, awareness, and understanding about. I will not get into all of them in this post, but to name a few: Self-shipping, Autism & Neurodivergence, LGBT+, Mental Health, and the School System (how it is flawed and whatnot). Unfortunately, ignorance can turn into insensitivity, inconsideration, and even things like hatred and bullying. It is normal to be ignorant and to lack knowledge and awareness, but some people tend to think the worse of certain people because of it. Not only do I want to spread awareness, kindness, and world peace with my books, but I also want to teach people to handle their lack of knowledge and whatnot better. Just because a person has/does something that you do not understand, that doesn't mean that person is a bad person or deserves to be bullied. I know I will not be able to eliminate bullying, ignorance, etc. 100%, but I want to at least alleviate it to a considerable extent and to make an impact in some people's lives. :,)
And I mean no hate towards my dad and my brother, but I am looking forward to getting my own place later on down the road. I can live however I please without worrying about getting mixed into my dad and my brother's crazy stuff (and vice-versa). Plus I can get out of certain **** I don't want to do (at least more easily) like taking vacations. They are just not for me. I can make my life as comfortable and convenient as I possibly can. I am not saying I am gonna avoid my family all together. In fact, I love the thought of going to a restaurant I like with my dad, my brother, and if she lives close enough by that time -- my mom, on a regular basis once we are all living on our own. However, it will be nice to have my own house and my own control. Despite being younger, though, my brother will probably move out first. Don't get me wrong, it will be sad in a way, but I can't help but look forward to it. We don't have to share a bathroom. I hate it when I have to...ya know, go, but my brother is in the shower. At least we have our own bedrooms (granted, they are right next to each other)...but still. I also dread the thought about my brother bringing his friends over to the house we currently live in together with my dad (which I have overheard discussions about). I just worry about it being obnoxious and inconvenient... .-. Once my brother has his own place, I will not have to worry about that BS anymore, as that commotion will be over there and not here. But it will be even better once I also have my own place. That way, me and my dad don't have to worry about (unintentionally) inconveniencing each other either. Plus we can all eat whatever whenever. ^__^
But yeah. I just love the thought of making an impact through doing what I love most (writing) and to live on my own with as little worries as possible. :,)
This is just one of those things that is just always on my mind. I know I probably think about this too much. People always say things like "carpe diem", "no time like the present", and simply "Stop focusing too much on the future!", but I just cannot help it. I am not saying the present can't be full of wonderful times...but I just cannot help but compare the future favorably to the present. Thinking about my ideal future puts a smile on my face. Looking at the other side of the coin, I believe it is harmful to give little to no thought about the future. It is a good thing to set goals and think about your hopes for the future, whether it be YOUR future, or the future of the world in general.
What about you guys? How do you imagine your ideal future to be like? What are your helps for the future in general?