What's Bothering You?

[Giddy]

My eye is still really bothering me, and my doctors and Opiticians have just been fustrating. I dunno what happened between the referal, but it's just been one thing after another.
Because it's been itchy, its extremely dry and bad around my eye. Been trying to use certain creams to lightly dab my eyelids. Have to get my prescribtion tomorrow, but I'm just so tired of dealing with this already.

It;s also just made it harder to get on with things when one or both eyes are just aggitating me DX

 

[Romaki]

I just started playing Fortnite with my niece and if I spend like 23 bucks on that option I'm still 100 vbucks short of buying her and myself a skin. Why are the options so bad, I don't want to spend 30-40 bucks just for something that's worth like 25.

 

[Dunquixote]

I’m worried about things with my sister and her family. My mom told me she asked for a separation and I really am upset. I really like my brother in law and the way she screams at him reminds me of how my dad screams at me and my mom. My brother in law does need to do things she ask him but I know her screaming doesn’t help. I also don’t want my nieces to go through this either.

 

[Awesome Gamer 2009]

the feeling that im not a great friend and that im too clingy towards my friends

 

[Dunquixote]

I saw on Pokemon home people had shiny miradon and koraidon up for trade but asking for something that isn’t possible like alolan golem in legends arceus. Really bothers me when people do this

No comments or replies please

 

[Neb]

I realized I am trans again, and now I refer to myself as genderfluid. Having random bouts of dysphoria with no consistency is awful. I never know when the dysphoria comes and even if I medically transitioned I'd still feel the dysphoria when I feel like a man.

I also hate the extra attention I've gotten since I opened up about my gender identity on my Discord account. I get way more messages and friend requests than when I presented as a cis man and it's obvious they're only talking to me because of my gender. If it were because of my vibe or personality the amount of attention wouldn't have gone up after my pfp and the gender on my profile changed.

It felt nice to be seen as worth interacting with once I opened up about my gender at first, but now I'm aware that it's not from a place of sincerity. Women and feminine nonbinary people are texted by strangers online often simply to date them. I'm aware of that since I did the same thing when I was a teenager (18-19). If I still presented as a man those people wouldn't have looked at my profile twice. I suppose it's karma I'm being subjected to the same kind of attention I used to give people because I had no romantic luck in real life and hoped to get that kind of connection from people I met online instead.

I don't want people interacting with me privately online simply because I am someone to potentially date and not because they actually like me as a person. I dated someone who confessed to me online after I opened up about my gender struggles and I know she only saw me that way because she realized I was closeted. She said she had a history of dating "eggs" (closeted trans people) and admitted to dating someone else in the past because she thought they were an "egg" too.

The relationship went poorly because, by nature, online relationships don't usually work. Starting long distance makes it harder to keep the relationship going and the other person can easily hide their real personality. You also have little to no information on what the other person looks like and if you start dating before seeing a photo, you may realize you aren't attracted to them in terms of appearance until it's too late. That's what happened to me and I don't want a repeat of it. I felt trapped with that person and when her true colors showed she insulted my trans experiences so much it pushed me back into the closet (hence why I said I wanted to by he/him on here again)

It will take months or years to get the therapy I need to get over the trauma from that online relationship and now I don't trust to date online again. Whenever I see those insincere friend requests or messages from strangers I get a pit in my stomach because it would just be another repeat of texting or dating someone for my gender identity and not me as a person.

The only silver lining is it gave me a window into my past mistakes and now I understand why it was harmful. You should never start texting people for the sake of potentially dating them. It is insincere and the other person will see right through it and (rightfully) ghost or block.

 

[-Daydream-]

Not much is bothering me at the moment but I do feel a little bit cold. the air conditioning is blasting because my mom feels hot like she has a fever.