Been not feeling great for a couple weeks; generally haven’t been really feeling like myself for a couple months now. Might be a combination of things.
My dad hasn’t had work so I’ve been waiting longer to go downstairs to go eat and take my medicine because I can’t be around him without him shooting me looks like I’m stupid when I am talking to my mom or talking to me like I am stupid. Today I kept waking up because he talks so loud because he needs hearing aids but he won’t get them; no concept of common courtesy either. I used to use a white noise machine but I didn’t like it and I think it may have bothered my cats too.
Also I think I really don’t like this house and miss our old house; the only thing I like is having privacy and my room, and the fact my cats like the house and running up and down the stairs. The people we bought the house from lied about so much. The house wasn’t taken good care of at all. There are so much bugs too and my mom can’t get rid of them (might also be because of my mom’s plants but she refuses to get rid of them since they are like her hobby) and that my dad leaves food out uncovered and fruit (including butter).
Sometime soon I need to spend the night away from home to watch my sister’s kittens while she and her family are out of town. I am so happy about seeing the kittens and helping my sister; at the same time I’m anxious about being away from home even though it is one night and even with my mom with me. Any change to my routine and leaving the house really stressed me out. I know everything will be fine and I’ll enjoying being with the kittens but I’m going to miss my girls too (also I don’t trust my dad at all since both of them got outside once because of him).
I’m still really angry about the distribution problems with the pokemon codes and while I’m excited about the acnh update, seeing there probably will be more new amiibos, I’m anxious about the distribution problems and scalpers for that too.
A lot of other things have been on my mind or stressing me out a bit too. Been worrying that my mood has been affecting my interactions and that I’ve been dragging the mood down. Probably should maybe take a break until I feel more myself again. I’m feeling really frustrated with myself and overwhelmed; no idea why I’m feeling overwhelmed.