What's Bothering You?

almost made a very unwise financial decision today, but thankfully I was able to stop myself. sometimes I get into a fit of making impulse purchases, that's a big reason why I felt guilty buying that stuff for myself recently. I knew it would lead to this. the very brief dopamine boost I get from buying something I like isn't worth the stress of knowing that there was no reason I needed to spend my hard earned money on said thing.

also have to mention, it was two small plushies I wanted to buy, and they were really well made (Douglas brand) but they totaled to like $30??? lmao if I'd known they would be that expensive I wouldn't have even bought them in the first place. it caught me off guard so I went through with the purchase, but that immense feeling of guilt set in almost right away, and I had to go back to return them and get a refund. for my peace of mind. besides, if I want those plushies badly enough then I can get them secondhand on ebay/Mercari for way cheaper. better yet, I need to simply appreciate the plushies that I have.

but yeah, that situation could really apply to any instance where I spend money on something I don't need. I grew up in a family that constantly scrounged for money (bc my dad is **** with finances and refuses to let anyone help him with it), so it innately causes me pain when I have to spend any amount of money. plus I want to save as much as I can so I can move out someday, I really need to be extra mindful with my spending and saving.

I will say though, that I think recognizing this as a bad impulse purchase and taking steps to reverse it is a good step forward. I just can't believe the plushies were that expensive though, they were very cute. 😭💔
 
My energy has just felt so drained the past few days. I've been trying to help it with hydration and whole grains, fruits and vegetables but I'm still struggling bad. My body's also feeling so stiff and achy, I could barely even move at work yesterday. I guess it's just my body getting used to it after being off a few days... I guess.

I've also been trying to design a path for my New Leaf town but I'm just not getting anything I like here. •~•
 
My bad if you didn't want a response to this, but something I like to do with impulse purchases that helps me is just waiting a week. If I want the item a whole seven days later, it may be worth it. Sometimes treating ourselves to something is good, but there's a time and place for it. It doesn't mean that you can't ever get an item, but maybe treat yourself to them when the situation is better.

I think the seven day thing works well because it can confirm whether or not you actually want the item and it's not just a temporary dopamine boost.
 
Feeling like I'm starting to get a cold or something like that. Not my best decision to do site visits and 7 hours of driving buy oh well lol

Also came across and old flame in the middle of nowhere so that's always great LOL
 
I’m trying to sleep, but I cannot fall asleep. In fact, I’ve been unable to sleep for over 48 hours.

I may have to see the doctor. I need a permanent cure for insomnia.
Have you tried any supplements? I've been using CBD* products for the past six months and my ability to fall and stay asleep has improved.

*Specifically ones that contain no THC (the psychoactive property in cannabis) so they aren't considered drugs.
 
Have you tried any supplements? I've been using CBD* products for the past six months and my ability to fall and stay asleep has improved.

*Specifically ones that contain no THC (the psychoactive property in cannabis) so they aren't considered drugs.
I’m already taking anxiety medicines every night. But I haven’t been taking melatonin.

What I learned is that part of the reason why I couldn’t sleep is because my mind is still active. I was playing Animal Crossing a lot over the last few weeks. Even when it’s been a few hours since I last played, I was still too fixated on it. I’m thinking about not playing it for one day. Maybe that would help me get my sleep back.
 
Please don't click below if you've a history with eating disorders.

For the past week I've struggled with eating solid food. I do it, but it's a real challenge motivating myself to do so. And as a result I tend to give into cravings rather than eating properly. Dinner tonight was three slices of bread dipped in spicy srichicha mayo. I bought the ingredients to cook a healthy and filling meal on my way home but couldn't motivate myself to make it.

I've no history of disordered eating and this is very short-term in the grand scheme of things, so I don't think it's concerning, but it is bothering me. I've a doctor's appointment on Monday so I'll raise it then if still ongoing.

I'm a foodie. I love cooking and eating. This sucks.

How I'm choosing to deal with this:

I bought super plain nostalgic foods that my mum used to make me for me as a kid. :ROFLMAO:
I'm totally not mad that Iceland had no McCains potato smiles in stock nope.
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Day three of light-headedness and nausea. Blegh. At least my boss was nice when I phoned him this morning.
 
my eq is like at an all time low this entire week. asides from replying to some quick chats, i have just not been in the right headspace to process heavier things and longer topics. im basically steamrolling through this week doing bare minimum work cuz god knows i need to rest so bad. i thought i'd be able to rest yesterday since it was a holiday but all i did was work lmao. im so tired lol im sorry to everyone who i havent replied properly to

also would appreciate if people didnt reply to this post cuz i'd feel bad not replying. really not feeling it rn. its ok im ok its nothing big i just needed to vent & let ppl know im not mentally available to chat lol

one more thing, im peeved at my partner coworker bc she's going to work tomorrow because she "feels bad not being able to help at work". we are excused from work tomorrow to attend this conference and she chooses to work. so now im obliged to go to work too cuz my seniors will judge me if i dont go lmaokcjbs this sucks why did i have to get paired with the energetic one
 
So, my partner came home from work...

SO: "This is going to sound weird but I'm hungover."
Chris: "I thought you said you only had 2 drinks last night?"
SO: "Yes, one pint of beer and a rum and coke."
Chris: "And you're still feeling hungover now?"
SO: "Yeah, isn't that weird?"
Chris: "What are your symptoms?"
SO: "I've a headache, a bit lightheaded, felt sick to my stomach earlier..."
Chris: "Sounds like you're coming down with what I have."
SO: "Oh that would make so much more sense..."

Yay, two sick people in the house. 🙃
 
I want to start donating my plasma. It’s a great cause and it pays great!

My big reservation about it, however, is the finger prick involved. I hate finger pricks, it makes me so nauseous thinking about them. I really hope there is an alternate way. I have no issues with needles in my arm or whatnot. But fingertips, fingertips I can’t ****ing stand.
 
my psoriasis is starting to flare up really bad because the sun has been strong for the last few days. the type of psoriasis I have is actually pretty rare (pustular psoriasis) and only flares up on my hands when exposed to sunlight. my doctor prescribed a mid-level steroid cream, but not only has it not touched the psoriasis that's already been on my hand for a month, I now have psoriasis spreading to other parts of my hands. when it dries out it makes my hands feel really itchy and they hurt a lot. I hate dealing with this, I can't even enjoy this summer because heaven forbid I step outside in the sun for a while. 😭

stupid psoriasis. I've been dealing with this for a decade now, I'm tired of it. I guess I need to send my doctor a message and have him prescribe a stronger steroid, I can't let this get out of control or else I'll be miserable for the entire summer.
 
I have medical anxiety. So upon recently making myself a doctor's appointment, it begins a countdown of dread.

I've had full blown nightmares about doctor's offices and hospitals. I'm glad I've reached a point that I'm taking care of my mental health and not avoiding these appointments, but it's not easy at all.

I particularly don't like how the blood pressure cuff feels. One of the nurses placed it incorrectly on my arm a couple years back and it left a large painful bruise.
 
OK, so this one's pretty silly... There's a "Battle of the Bands" competition in the Basement where you can submit a random song and see how it fares among TBTers. In each of the competitions I submitted a song (I won't say which), and both times it didn't get up to at least the semi-finals. While I like how the BOTB introduced me to new music, sometimes I feel like my listening tastes stink because of this. T_T
 
OK, so this one's pretty silly... There's a "Battle of the Bands" competition in the Basement where you can submit a random song and see how it fares among TBTers. In each of the competitions I submitted a song (I won't say which), and both times it didn't get up to at least the semi-finals. While I like how the BOTB introduced me to new music, sometimes I feel like my listening tastes stink because of this. T_T
For what it’s worth, I’ve enjoyed your submissions.
 
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