What's Bothering You?

cw: body image, helicopter parents
I don't want to start a new work out and just want to chill for the rest of the week but being told my entire life that I'm fat keeps me in a constant state of body dysmorphia.

idk I've considered getting surgery or something even though I know it isn't necessarily the healthiest option for me... Something that guarantees I'll be skinny enough for my mom to be happy when she looks at me instead of moaning about how I've gained weight/ would be so pretty if I lost weight.

Also being the adult age I am and having my parents dictate what I'm allowed to do or who I'm supposed to be... bc defying them would just subject me to their hurtful words... fun!! fun fun fun.
 
I feel like I'm starting to get sick 😷

Also I made an appointment with my doctor about abdominal pains and hypoglycemia....the outcome of said appointment isn't going to be great
 
cut my side bangs too short, and now i look like gale weathers from scream 3 😭 it's literally so bad i'm too anxious to go into my volunteering job this week lmao. like, panic attack anxious. fun!
 
The cell service tower isn't working properly in my area. I can't connect to the internet with my phone. I can only connect to the internet through my laptop and my Switches.
 
I feel a little better today mentally speaking, but physically I still feel really sick. I'm even having some pain/burning in my stomach, almost like acid reflux, which is odd. hopefully I can get myself to eat something this morning, or at the very least have a cup of coffee or some juice.

also can't wait to go into the local court for the first time in my young life so I can pay this damn speeding ticket fine haha, I suppose you haven't truly lived if you don't get at least one speeding ticket.
 
I feel like my relationship needs help but I also feel very unwilling to do anything because of how much I pulled my weight before honestly

No nice way to say this: I’m sick of myself 💔

my physical sickness also boosted my dysphoria as if i needed that
 
Lady parts problem
At first I was happy that I took my menstrual pills and raspberry leaf tea on time before the cramps kicked in. Therefore, they shouldn’t appear. It turns out that I was wrong.
 
My work can’t seem to make up its mind as far as the storm. First they were having normal hours then they were closing neatly and opening late tomorrow. Now they are back to normal hours and not closing early. I’m off today but worry about my coworkers trying to get home in the storm.
 
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