. There’s drama between the two irl friend groups I’m in and once again I am stuck in the middle, seeing both sides. And in one of those groups I feel like an extra. Like if I were to disappear, they wouldn’t care, they’d just move on with their lives like nothing happened. It feels so ****ing horrible, because I have a hard time making friends and get attached to people I become close to. I feel so goddamn alone and there’s nothing I can do about it.
Also it’s getting worse mentally. People who didn’t notice before are starting to see something’s wrong. There’s always something going on, and now I don’t feel like I have a right to be upset anymore. I’m so overworked it’s not even funny. I want things to get better, but I don’t know how.