What's Bothering You?

I’m contemplating going over to the gas station next door to pick up some spicy chicken tenders.
Not me almost writing the name of the local gas station because I forgot where I was typing, lol.

Also, I wish there was a different manager working today but the other two managers are either off, or out with COVID (her boyfriend has it and she tested positive, as well).

I am contemplating asking my friend if she’s feeling better, as well. She was upset a few days ago and I’m just wondering if she’s okay. I might ask sometime today. I don’t know what’s stopping me.
 
How on earth can someone that’s 15 years old be so much more mature than most 16+ and even adults at my job and in general? People think I’m anti-minor, but I’m anti-people who goof off and don’t do their job. Don’t get me wrong, it’s absolutely okay to have fun at work so long as the work is getting done. However, the kind of fun they are having is giving temporary tattoos in the dining room while there are customers seated. They’ll be sitting down ignoring guests and talking very, very loudly. This isn’t okay. And their work isn’t getting done by them. We got held up one hour a few nights ago because a girl wouldn’t clean her own section.
 
i hate when my emotions fluctuate so rapidly or try to come out at the same time. like when I'm feeling down bc I'm tired and honestly not prepared for the day but I also feel overwhelmingly happy because I'm playing with Miko while lying here. it's so exhausting.

also hate when there's something I want to do and my OCD fixates on it forever. I've been thinking about getting a new 3DSXL for the last few days and I can't stop, even though I know I have to wait for the game store to have one in stock that I want. it's like when I need to go somewhere and I end up getting ready 3 hours early and then I sit around and do nothing for 3 hours waiting to leave.
 
Yesterday my brother and his friend were talking about LGBTQ+ stuff and was getting a lot of information wrong (like saying that it's 'popular' and that half of the population was a part of it), so I corrected them. "Wait, so only 11% of the population are mistakes and not 50%?" My brother said. I got mad and asked him not to refer to LGBTQ+ people as mistakes, in which he responds with: "I can call them whatever I want, and I say that they're mistakes!"

My brother was also touching my feet and my face when I was trying to sleep last night. His friend was there and he asked what my brother was doing, apparently he was just "trying to wake me up". Yeah, right. It felt really weird and I was uncomfortable with what my brother was doing.
 
Just a couple of irl stuff that annoyed me. I don't like how I can be happy one day and be so down the next. I hate myself sometimes.

Please don't reply to this. Thanks.
 
This dude really is a fool, like I get you want to keep the server clean from spam and such but your FAQ about that one thing absolutely sucks and what does it matter if someone ask about it, smh.
 
One of my clients is in the hospital and I'm sitting in the ER with another one right now. Also just exhausted from poor sleep from allergies and I haven't gotten the chance to eat yet.
 
idk I just feel agitated and anxious about everything, I feel pathetic.

also messaged a few friends earlier and neither of them replied to me so 🙃🙃🙃 that's cool. hate when I try really hard to be friends w someone and I don't hear anything back for forever with no explanation upon their return.
 
I hate my brother. I don't hate him enough to the point where I want him dead, but honestly I just wanna avoid him for the rest of my life. Lately I feel like he's finding ways to intentionally hurt me. He finds out that I'm insecure about my weight, and what does he do? He calls me fat every single day. Today he spiced it up by calling me a fat piece of ****. It really hurt me, which I'm almost convinced is his intention.

It's so stupid. All he has to do to set me off is annoy me or bother me. And it works, because it's small and petty stuff that just gets me lectured when I tell my parents about it. I ****ing hate my brother. Times like this I just wanna teach him a lesson . . . Especially violently, because I feel that it's the only way he'll stop. I wanna smack him in the face right now. I hate him so much.
 
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