What's Bothering You?

[Bad.faith]

The AC in my car is broken, and I thought my appointment to get it fixed was today, and I drove all the way there only to find out it is actually next Saturday. So, that's going to suck, even more than it already has. I'm dying in that thing. Also sorry if it's tmi but late luteal phase has me feeling insane, I literally calmed down from bawling my eyes out on the drive to the car repair, got that bad news that I was wrong about the appointment, got in the car and left and started bawling my eyes out again driving in my hot-ass 90+ degree car.
Also, my husband didn't get the promotion he was told he basically had by so many people because the person who got it had worked at the company a little bit longer than him. He had to take a test to qualify as a candidate, which he busted his ass studying for and passed but still. He won't get those hours back of the little amount of free time he gets. I feel awful for him knowing that. When you live basically paycheck to paycheck like most people these days, this sort of false hope can really hurt to have shot down.
Also my mouse is failing to work a lot these past few days, and we're too broke to afford another one, even just a cheap one. We have to save money for the car repair, of course.
And did you know everything just kinda sucks?! Okay, maybe it doesn't, it's hard to even tell today.
I think that's everything so far. I'm trying to thug it out and pivot back to being chill or whatever it is I usually am. Maybe just putting it all out there will help me feel a bit better. idk

 

[VernalLapin]

My anxiety is kicking up again this morning. Not extreme but… off for sure. I had a haunting dream in a way that’s hard to describe. I heard music that doesn’t exist and it made me feel an emotion that doesn’t exist.

 

[Romaki]

Spoiler: spoiler for the entire a good girls guide to murder trilogy

why did the book series that started with a teenage girl discovering a student was framed for someone's murder
end with that student's former classmate being framed for someone's murder by the protagonist..........

and then we end the last 10-20 pages with the main couple being broken off??????????????

and what happened to the podcast gimmick????? oh you did one episode but then oops the protagonist overlooked a piece of evidence so she would of course drop her podcast immediately despite being hugely successful and having started the first episode. and no one at uni recognized her as a famous podcaster who did one episode of season three and immediately stopped it for no good reason????

the pacing is sooooooooooooo rushed at the end, the first half is pip just being traumatized and addicted to drugs (which she forgets in the second half of the book) until she gets kidnapped by a serial killer halfway through

i really don't mind her killing him not in self-defence, but i'd rather see the unrelated rapist go to prison for his own crimes.
not a murder he didn't commit.

if you know the series, here's how i would have rewritten it: everything until the kidnapping can stay, whatever. maybe reduce pip being traumatized from 200 to 50 pages? dunno. but once she freed herself, instead of going back to murder the serial killer (which, again, is reasonable given she is so traumatized and doesn't believe in the police force) she just flees and now has to find ironclad proof while the serial killer wonders why she hasn't turned in him yet. she could go over the max hastings trial and learn why he got an innocent verdict to prevent it from happening again

i totally understand why the author did a "full circle" moment and it's interesting to read how pip perfectly created her alibi while also setting someone up, but i wish that was a standalone book and not the conclusion to pip's story.

also it's giving 13 reasons why season 3 the way she didn't get caught and the book treats it like the right thing to do
if you wrongly accuse someone of murder and the verdict gets overturned in the future, it will make the rapist allegations look false too
and actually it's very stupid because the book mentions groups that help the wrongly convicted, and they might help max too
there is reason for the dt killer to kill max, but not the other way around. nat punching him in the face doesn't look like enough of a fight to cause that dude getting hammered to death. he has no motive, he might have got that guilty verdict but it won't last

also i hate that the last line / image had to be Iconic so that it could be quoted everywhere, instead of just being good writing?

this is a long rant because i don't like the conclusion, but i would still recommend it. you could just read the first book and not continue.

 

[VanitasFan26]

I hate the weather in georgia

 

[Zane]

i hate enhanced product photos and i bless everyone who leaves photo reviews because i just wanna know what stuff actually looks like

 

[Neb]

I don't post much on here, but I had a political thing happen to me that I'm peeved about

Spoiler: TW: LGBT in-fighting

I had my concerns for my safety undermined for hours by someone I knew, and when I told them they were hurting my feelings for dismissing me, they started attacking my identity. They said I had no right to feel oppressed as a trans person since I only wore a dress one time and only came out last week. I told them I knew I wasn't cisgender for years, and they said I worshipped myself and wrapped my entire identity around being oppressed before unfriending me.

I saw numerous times online where older trans people attacked newly out trans people for sharing their views on trans issues, but I didn't expect someone I was close to to do that to me. They undermined my feelings and my identity for hours and resorted to mean insults. I knew fully well that they might do it to me, too, since they insulted one of their other friends for something small, and it led to their whole group ditching them. They also kept telling me they had an evil side and were a liar, all of which should've been massive red flags for me.

And what's frustrating is when I shared what happened on an LGBT server, they told me to apologize to that person for calling them out on their attacks, and that I've been rushing my transition.

I'm done with talking about LGBT issues to most people. All I get is gatekeeping, lecturing, or being told what the "right way" to transition is. I'm not going to wait another six years before being open about my identity. I am going to shave my arms, grow out my hair, and use my higher voice soon, and nothing will stop me. This is my journey, and I can pace it however I wish.

I genuinely hope that several years down the line, when I have experienced most of the effects from estrogen and have fully socially transitioned, I will never tell a newly out trans person that the way they're transitioning is "rushing" or that they aren't valid in their feelings since they're newly out. All that does is push them back into the closet.

 

[Tude]

I don't post much on here, but I had a political thing happen to me that I'm peeved about

Spoiler: TW: LGBT in-fighting

I had my concerns for my safety undermined for hours by someone I knew, and when I told them they were hurting my feelings for dismissing me, they started attacking my identity. They said I had no right to feel oppressed as a trans person since I only wore a dress one time and only came out last week. I told them I knew I wasn't cisgender for years, and they said I worshipped myself and wrapped my entire identity around being oppressed before unfriending me.

I saw numerous times online where older trans people attacked newly out trans people for sharing their views on trans issues, but I didn't expect someone I was close to to do that to me. They undermined my feelings and my identity for hours and resorted to mean insults. I knew fully well that they might do it to me, too, since they insulted one of their other friends for something small, and it led to their whole group ditching them. They also kept telling me they had an evil side and were a liar, all of which should've been massive red flags for me.

And what's frustrating is when I shared what happened on an LGBT server, they told me to apologize to that person for calling them out on their attacks, and that I've been rushing my transition.

I'm done with talking about LGBT issues to most people. All I get is gatekeeping, lecturing, or being told what the "right way" to transition is. I'm not going to wait another six years before being open about my identity. I am going to shave my arms, grow out my hair, and use my higher voice soon, and nothing will stop me. This is my journey, and I can pace it however I wish.

I genuinely hope that several years down the line, when I have experienced most of the effects from estrogen and have fully socially transitioned, I will never tell a newly out trans person that the way they're transitioning is "rushing" or that they aren't valid in their feelings since they're newly out. All that does is push them back into the closet.

I'm glad you're not letting people sway your opinion and you're living the way you want.

 

[thatawkwardkid]

The amount of double standards and hypocrisy.

 

[AccfSally]

 

[Neb]

I left a toxic Discord server I stayed on for six years today. I was tired of them endlessly blaming me whenever someone was mean to me. No matter how much I defended myself, they still claimed I was the toxic one and that the other person was justified. I got an unsolicited email from my ex today to an email address I never intended to give her access to, and they still said I was the one at fault and that she did it as an act of kindness.

 

[Giddy]

Getting kinda annoyed how the moment I'm free from work for a few days, I get ill. This has happen before.
My body wants to be sick, but I really don't want to. I don't wanna force it. :/

I wanna get on with things, but there's that nagging feeling, like I'm not 100% okay.

 

[frogslime]

my head has been hurting so much. I usually have lots of self-confidence, but I worry too much about disappointing my girlfriend. On top of that, people just refusing to effectively communicate are frustrating me. I don't get it. I tell people straight to their face if I don't like them. I just want the same energy returned. I don't care if they hate me! As long as they're honest about it rather than telling other people in the community. Hearing it through the grapevine is what hurts. All these people involved, and for what?
See also: the twisting of words someone used to make me sound evil when they actually did the thing they accused me of. I gotta be vague here but lord I just need a place to let it all out

 

[AccfSally]

Spoiler: TW Religion & Transphobia

Yeah.... my Church did a big o' yikes today.
During the Sunday school lesson. A lot of them are older so they go on tangents like 'Phones bad' (Which I can understand. But it's not all bad), 'Technology bad', 'The good old days.' etc.

Today, they kinda were talking about how the media is corrupting the kids and the speaker just flat out say: 'Little boys today think they're girls and girls think they're boys.'

Ugh. This is what I get for forcing myself to go to church for the last 3 months, knowing I'm not super religious. People like this is what gives Christians a bad name and I hate that, because I know plenty who are super accepting.

 

[Rainy.Nights]

I've been having my power trip out randomly since last month; specifically only the circuit I have my PC, TV, and consoles on. Because of how my small space is arranged theres not a really good other place to practically move them to. Some days like today it happens back to back repeatedly, or it might go days without happening. Being an apartment I have to wait for an approved person to come check it, they sent out a handyman twice who couldn't figure it out due to it not easily being reproduced. I tried everything I could think of, it's not overloaded, I'm only plugging in the minimum amount of devices needed at the time, tried a few different surge protectors. Currently have been waiting several days on an electrician to come out on some unspecified date. This has been really frustrating since I haven't been able to get some things done on my PC like I had planned to, not to mention it has often been ruining my enjoyment of attempting to play games. Well at least handheld is always an option. Also I have a vacation coming up this weekend and I want to be able to have fun without worrying about things, but maybe a vacation is precisely what I need atp. This whole situation has made me consider moving in the near future, if it happens to continue on for too long, and not the first time I had this thought for other reasons, but I would much prefer not due to all the stress and effort involved. I guess I'll have to wait and see how it works out but in the meantime if anyone here has any advice or suggestions please let me know!

 

[Yoshi155]

The American right wing.

 

[Aniko]

They put too much sugar in everything. I thought frozen yogourt would be less sweet but no! It's the double of sugar than my local maple syrup ice cream, why?

 

[lasagne_of_death]

Spoiler: death, politicians

Thanks a lot, Irish government and health care system. Only took the death of a child for you to claim you're going to change (really believable, seeing as you nothing happened back in 2017 when simon harris, then minister for health, said no child would have to wait more than 4 months for their surgery. How he's been taoiseach and tánaiste is completely beyond me)

Tánaiste to meet mother of Harvey Morrison Sherratt

Tánaiste Simon Harris is to meet the mother of Harvey Morrison Sherratt, a nine-year-old boy who died last month and was subject to delays in accessing urgent scoliosis surgery.

www.rte.ie

 

[Tude]

Poor kids.

 

[-Daydream-]

I have a bad cold… and it’s annoying

 

[Giddy]

Trying to find flea treatment for my cats, and why is there only spot on treatment? I can hardly find any tablets.
I can't use spot on, on one of my cats, I can't even hold him down he goes insane.