What's Bothering You?

Experiencing burnout in every way possible, takes me a long time to do simple tasks, can’t draw, can’t think, can’t do much of anything. I find myself just staring at a wall for hours when my partner isn’t home because my brain just won’t work
 
I'm washing the floor and my mom is walking all over it with her shoes, the same shoes she wore in the garden 2min ago. She thinks her shoes are not dirty.
I don't get her, when we were little, shoes, clothes we wore outside, were not allowed in the house, but that law never applied to her.
 
It's been a week since Bell has passed and it still feels incredibly weird she isn't here. Miss her so dearly

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So tired of this job I work at, espically my boss who has possibly screwed up my Universal Credit situation - and now I am worried about what that could mean about the overpayment (still was never my fault to begin with, but I'm forced to pay back - and UC never telling me about the overpayment till WEEKS after giving me the money so at the time it was used.)

I found an editorial assistant role again, but I get fustrated when they ask for EVEN MORE, like this one is again asking me to tell then in a short paragraph about a recent book in the personal development space which you have enjoyed - I HAVENT HAD TIME TO READ ANYTHING NEW
Its also in two days and i def dont have any time for that. I do have one book, but again havent read it as much.
I will try and apply for it, but I just feel so out of it when it comes to applying for things anymore. Makes me tired of everything in life omg


I'm so sorry.
Thank you~ I'm just okay that she isn't in any pain anymore. That I gave her such a lovely life.
 
My chrome tabs keep reloading a page each time I'm not on it for more than five minutes, and I don't have any memory savor activated or anything like that and it has been so fustrating
 
going to the dentist tomorrow morning for the first time in a very long time.. kinda nervous cuz i'm sure my teeth are terrible 😖 😖
 
i am so angry and disgusted in my dad and for some reason. its been several hours since this has happened, but i'm still so upset about it to the point where i'm literally crying typing this.

we went to tim hortons and used the drive thru.. he, without any warning, told me to make an order at the drive thru speaker post (while i was in the backseat). mind you, i had been tuned out of the conversation and wasn't listening to what anyone had said so i had people screaming food stuff at me.

we get to the window and we noticed that something was missing. i had mixed up one of the orders and they had given us something wrong, which was to be expected when you're neurodivergent and have people yelling orders at you. out of nowhere, he begins blowing his top. when my mom and i tried to explain that i got it wrong and it was an easy fix (give back the wrong item and then wait for the car, he wouldn't ****ing calm down and let any of us get a word in. he simply just drives off in a huff, without paying.

we park and my mom is trying to tell them that it was a mistake and he is still screaming at her for a FIXABLE mistake i made. my mom is trying to make him go back to the drive thru and he refuses and says that he "doesn't want to be embarrassed by her or them (the workers)". ...EMBARASSED?? after screaming at minimum wage workers and then driving off in the middle of conversation like a ****ing crazy person, you're worrying about embarrassment. WHAT THE HELL?!?

he all but forces her to go inside and pay for his stupid ****ing temper tantrum. my mom comes back with the correct items, and she calmy tells him, as if he was a child, that people make mistakes and he took things too far (as always). he brushes her off and basically says "we got the correct items. just let it go". he didn't even apologize to her OR the workers.

i literally cannot believe him. not only did he treat those workers like ****, but he treated my mom like ****. maybe i'm just hormonal or something, but this is really making me look at him differently and i'll be thinking twice about going/taking him anywhere starting from today onward.

i think i'm gonna have a talk with him about it and tell him how this made me feel. i really do love him to death, but i won't forget how awful he was today.
 
I’m already so sick of everything online being bots and AI. Trying to read the comments on anything they’re like 90% chatgpt and it’s just… blegh.
Ugh omg yes. Even just using a search engine forces that slop in your face all the time. What is their endgame? To push everyone away so they have a playground for only their bots lol. I used to look up reviews for things to gauge if it was a good fit for me or worth the price, but now even this is full lies and bots.
 
i know this is just an inconvenience but i’m still upset. i bought a coffee maker from walmart a few weeks ago and it was supposed to arrive on its expected date last week but it never showed up. i found out it got delivered to the wrong address, i call walmart and they tell me it’s their third vendor’s fault so they’ll give them 48 hours to give a response on if they’re going to issue a replacement or refund. guess what? they never contacted me but i call again and i get my refund anyway directly from walmart.

i figured that this is just a mistake so i buy another coffee maker from walmart being sold by a DIFFERENT 3rd party company and IT HAPPENED AGAIN. i call up walmart once more and they tell me “oh yeah, this is a continuous problem that we’re working on.” WHY DO YOU HAVE ITEMS SOLD BY THIRD PARTY VENDORS LISTED IF THERE IS AN ONGOING ISSUE WITH THEM?? GOSH.

at least i got a refund but i just want my coffee maker 😭
 
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