What's Bothering You?

Our substitute bus was used for a school sports game, and not only did that make it 30 minutes late, but they also made the bus disgusting as ****ing ****. God, it's not hard to ****ing throw things away. And this bus is never cleaned up, so it's probably going to be like this until we get our actual bus back. I went a little over the top there, but… eeeww. I don't want to go on a bus like this for an amount of time that I don't even know.
 
I just watched the newest episode of Catfish, and man. It really has me thinking.

The dude was putting off meeting because he wanted to get his teeth fixed. After meeting, I knew the lady was thrown off because of the teeth. I knew that she felt some sort of way because of the teeth, but she was holding it back. It's just a fact that people treat you differently based on how you look. I know the way people look at you when your teeth aren't great. I know the look of disgust when you open your mouth to speak and they don't hear anything. They just see. They see your teeth. I haven't been kissed by anyone and I 100% know it was because of my teeth. Although they are fixed now, they weren't. And I lived 95% of my life not putting myself out there because no matter how nice of a person I may be, people dismiss me based on the teeth.

It's just funny how seeing it happen right in front of me... like I see it. I know it happens but it feels different seeing it happen to others rather than yourself, and then you feel bad because it was you at one point.

And Kamie said it best "After he gets his teeth fixed don't come crawling back." Because that's exactly what I believed was gonna happen. Sometimes I wonder if the people that are friends with me today, and the people who are friendly with me today would still be this friendly with me if I had my old teeth. Like, would they treat me differently? I'll go out on a whim and say, probably. I don't have a reason to believe they wouldn't, but I also don't have a reason to believe they would.

This is just a topic that is very personal for me.
 
not going to go into it but it feels like i’ve hit an emotional breaking point and i’m just not taking anyone’s crap anymore.
 
i'm so done with this semester i'm really not putting any effort into my assignments anymore. really over grad school at this point.
 
Why is it that some people make more effort being a spouse than a parent to their kids? They treat their kids as an afterthought. I never understood that mentality. Heck, I even saw a debate of this topic on Oprah when I was younger.

Edit: Changed the word, "women" to "people" because I remembered stories of men doing this too.
 
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Probably disingenuous to say on a forum full of adulting adults lol, but I feel so stretched thin with schoolwork, trying to keep up the few meaningful relationships I have, and the pressure of trying to keep up a positive facade so I don't drag others down because wow the past few months have been rough. I don't even have a proper job yet and I need one. This isn't the kind of life I want to live when I'm older, so much rushing to the point that I can't recall my day, but that's all it sounds like. Work work work and the occasional check in with friends you haven't seen for years.
Also social media is kind of essential to staying connected in high school, even for announcements because forget about emails, I guess. But dang, if it isn't one of the top things to wear me down..
 
IT IS 6 ****ING AM AND I JUST WOKE UP WHY DID YOUTUBE SHORTS RECCOMEND ME A CAT EATING ITS OWN KITTEN?????

no cause like… me and everyone in the comments just watch wholesome kitten videos. why.

Also, I was searching “huh cat” like the meme. Really goes to show how ****ty the youtube search engine is.
 
I offically hate Freeways/Highways. Its like you're trying to get home from a long day and then its like drivers cut you off, you find yourself driving slow like a snail when traffic is heavy, and of course trying to figure out the signs of where the exit it is. You follow the signs only to realize you have to merge into another lane just to take the exit. Some people don't give you the chance to merge.
 
I say "oh I don't care what people think about me" and then *one* person says they don't want to interact with me and then I'm up for 3 hours last my bedtime wondering why and what I did wrong
 
It hasn’t even been 17 min. after sunset, yet I still have the sinking feeling that no one is going to show up tonight.
 
I offically hate Freeways/Highways. Its like you're trying to get home from a long day and then its like drivers cut you off, you find yourself driving slow like a snail when traffic is heavy, and of course trying to figure out the signs of where the exit it is. You follow the signs only to realize you have to merge into another lane just to take the exit. Some people don't give you the chance to merge.
Some people actually speed way up if they see someone trying to merge. Even if the merger had plenty of room before they floored it. People are just overall stupid selfish idiots.
 
my dad broke the floor lamp in the basement living room because…. he didn’t like where i put it??? so instead of suggesting somewhere else or saying he doesn’t want the lamp there, he chose to bang it on the floor to break it, it was leaning but the light still worked, so he decided to cut the wire to make sure no one could ever use it again 🤡

he refuses to get a replacement and there’s no point in me getting a replacement myself because i can’t trust leaving anything near him, good thing i never went through with redecorating the living room because this guy likes to break random things that slightly upset him lmao i can’t wait for the day i’ll actually get paid enough to move out
 
That really sucks. I'm sorry you had to go through that. That's not an adult. That's just a grown ass manchild in diapers. I bet if you went into his room and destroyed his stuff he would be upset.

It's been almost three weeks since my birthday and I haven't done anything for it because things have been kind of hectic. At this point it's like what's the point lol. I'll probably just do something nice on Christmas.
 
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