lonely, kind of bullied, sad, weird, ugly (my hair was the worst and wtf kind of clothes was i even wearing??? i also had super utly eyebrows that almost were one unibrow hel p ) . i was also obsessed with the sims and i read a lot. tried to kms at one point too lmao idk i was pretty depressed back then too i guessssss
i was really uncomfortable with pretty much everything though so i guess i shouldn't judge myself too hard. i really am glad that that time if my life is over, i would not ever want to relive those years.
6th grade: I was annoying as help, incredibly weird and had friends
7th grade: struggled with grades, got bullied a bit, the norm
8th grade: I got a few more friends, had major antisocial problems and such
Grown out of all that luckily, tenth grade is going really well surprisingly
I was like me now, but 1000Xs worse. A much amplified naive version of my current self.
I have no clue how I had friends. In 7th I got really into rap and stuff. Almost everybody hated talking to me because I "sounded like a Mexican/black person" (<---their words). So, that annoyed them, and their annoyance annoyed me. A rumour also got started that me and friends were in a "gang", because of a little mishap that I wasn't initially involved in. Practically everybody in high school was afraid of us, and it was the dumbest and most hilarious thing ever. We all got suspended. In 8th I got really into rock and stuff. So everybody was relieved that I "actually sound like a white person." A girl in 9th was afraid of me because I wore too much eyeliner, and she thought that I was into witchcraft and stuff or something. My homeroom/English teacher was "worried" about me. I got suspended twice in 8th, for stupid things. I got sent to the office a lot because of my haircut and fingernail polish.
Stupid school and unspoken rules.
Idk if 6th counts as middle school. If it does, I was pretty chill/cool that year, aside from accidentally punching a dude in the face. I've always been accidentally "violent", though.
I had a group of friends and we just laughed a lot, though I felt like I was more of a loner and just shy/quiet. I was also kind of bratty and maybe a trouble maker xD
A dork. I have always liked anime, and being alone, and computers. So...I'm still a dork, according to the world. But I suppose I'd rather get my addiction kicks with those things then drugs. I never really fit in, but I've come to like it that way.
When I was young, I always wanted to be normal. I tried everything I could to fit in, and it never worked. It wasn't until I realized that I'm okay the way I am that I really felt...whole.
I was homeschooled and usually didn't socialize much, but I remember from 6th-7th grade I was very quiet, shy, reserved, and I had anger spurts when the 'older cool kids' didn't include me in stuff. I used to be the type of person who annoys me now, so I regret it and I also tolerate younger kids more when I look back.
8th grade to 9th I was //cringe 'craycray.' The word is so cringe worthy. All my online friends and irl friends enjoyed being 'cray' with me, and we did all sorts of 'cray 'n cool' things. Cringe. So much cringe. I used to be very immature, and I always tried doing things that others knew I'd never be able to do. They looked up to me for being courageous and trying to achieve the impossible, but they all knew I was wasting my time.
Terrible. All 3 years. Just awful. Constantly getting bullied, constantly incredibly awkward, it was just a bad time. I've noticed that middle school was always a problem for everyone in my family, but I still can't help but laugh (And cringe) when I look back on it.
