I managed to get a lot done today. I could be doing pretty much anything else right now, but I’ve encountered some pretty cool new members that made me stay on the forums more today. I can‘t smile naturally. I have to force it, and my only genuine smile is when I’m laughing usually. Today, however, just for a little bit, I was able to smile without laughing because of the awesome people on this website.
I slept very deeply and late today so I feel rested. Today was also a huge improvement on the past week and I still have tomorrow to look forward to as well.
I was watching a live stream on YouTube about some drama from Twitter going down. I don’t use Twitter so I just hopped in to catch it and realize my life isn’t that bad and happy that this is the one online community I want to belong to lol.
Okay, today I was REALLY feeling good about myself and I was happy, but one of my close friends, I hadn’t messaged him in like 3 days and I was missing him A LOT. His positive energy always always always ALWAYS lifts me up, if I’m sad, I get happy talking to him, and if I’m already happy? I get happier. We messaged each other back and forth for like 2 and a half-ish hours. I am really really really excited to talk to him again because I had so much fun. I was starting to slip into a little depressive episode and started crying over my ex (again), then out of nowhere he (my friend) messages me and I went from :’( to : D
He’s such a joy to be around and I just... he makes me really happy I could just scream it to the world until I’m blue in the face. I adore him. I find myself wanting to talk to him constantly, even though I know I can’t, so I’m just bubbling over with excitement until the next time we talk.. I can’t wait for this summer ughhh come quickly summer ;w;
I got to hang out with my favorite person in the whole wide world for a good chunk of the day, and that absolutely is the best thing I could ever ask for.
I got some pinking shears today! I’m excited to use them for the skirt I’m (trying) to make. I also picked up these adorable embroidery scissors that look like a stork!