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Long life. There is so much I want to do in my life, and I dont care if I do it alone
Short and honorable. I always liked the idea of dying young.
My disease affords me a 26-30 year life expectancy on average, so I'd wager I have at least six more years guaranteed to me. What is important to me is pushing the expectancy and making the most of a short life by making a difference to other people. I can only say honor in the sense I'd want to leave happiness for my onlookers.
I'm Japanese, that pretty much speaks for itself.
In that case you're definitely going to die with honor. I was reading a book about World War II and it said Japanese families with nothing but a gardening rake would rush into battle. It's sad that they died, but I respect people like that a lot.
I personally believe that everything we do in life is motivated by the necessity to distract us from death; I would rather not die "alone," if alone means total isolation. If you still have the internet, while it would be sad at times, I prefer the longer lifespan.
Living entirely without the interactions of another human being would be difficult. I wouldn't even have fanfiction or books to distract me from how alone I truly was.
If you want to dive more into it, like most people, I want my life to have some value to it; something to immortalize me. Immortality in the sense not of fame, but, so long as you remain in somebody's memory, you still have some form of physical existence. (Memories are quite literally arrangements neural pathways within somebody's brain. So, technically "you" exist in some sense of the term.) In dying alone, I strip my life of not only any significance that it may or may not have had in the first place— as nobody would be affected by my existence— but I, too, would not be remembered, nor would I have something to console me in the final minutes of my life. Dying alone scares me; death does not.