English is my second language and ever since I was young I was really into learning more and more English outside of school. years ago I definitely wouldn't have been able to start threads speaking my mind like I do now, I'm not that good yet but I learned and improved a lot I feel more confident and way more expressible and fluent expressing my thoughts using it than my native language, it's been like that for the past 13 years I guess. note that I still speak mostly my native language.
Do you relate to this? the problem here is that because I prefer speaking my second language on daily bases I constantly get mocked and called out for it as people around me think it's pretty rude and cocky to speak with them this way but when I try to only speak my native language I go back to being that shy girl who just doesn't have enough social skills to hold up a conversation making me feel self conscious and feeling that I've done a mistake maybe?
I kept thinking that I am indeed very rude for trying to communicate with people using a language they're not fluent at and only today I found out why, it's as I stated before became so much a part of me that I feel lost and unable to socialize freely without, and I'm not even all that great at it really. what am I doing wrong in my life and how do I fix this I don't know. do you suggest that I should try to quit this habit so people would have more respect for me? it's just sad thinking about this.
Edit: I forgot to say that the people I speak with understand it well but they just feel offended as they find it to be unnatural and just wrong, I wouldn't insist on speaking the language if I knew they don't understand it
Do you relate to this? the problem here is that because I prefer speaking my second language on daily bases I constantly get mocked and called out for it as people around me think it's pretty rude and cocky to speak with them this way but when I try to only speak my native language I go back to being that shy girl who just doesn't have enough social skills to hold up a conversation making me feel self conscious and feeling that I've done a mistake maybe?
I kept thinking that I am indeed very rude for trying to communicate with people using a language they're not fluent at and only today I found out why, it's as I stated before became so much a part of me that I feel lost and unable to socialize freely without, and I'm not even all that great at it really. what am I doing wrong in my life and how do I fix this I don't know. do you suggest that I should try to quit this habit so people would have more respect for me? it's just sad thinking about this.
Edit: I forgot to say that the people I speak with understand it well but they just feel offended as they find it to be unnatural and just wrong, I wouldn't insist on speaking the language if I knew they don't understand it
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