I am so sorry for your loss. I'm sure Lulu was a wonderful, sweet companion.
I lost my pug three years ago. He was very dear to me. He was the first animal I got on my own after moving away from home and I raised him since he was a tiny puppy. I called him my soulmate, not in the romantic sense, but because we had such a close bond and always understood one another.
When he was 13, he had a stroke. It affected his entire right side. He had difficulty standing, walked in circles, got stuck in corners, and couldn't find or lower his head to his food bowl. A lot of people recommended that I put him to sleep, but I could see that he was still trying. He wasn't ready to give up yet and I swore I wouldn't give up on him. I hand-fed him, carried him around, and made him a new bed on the floor beside my side of the bed. He had slept on the bed with me every night since I first got him, but he couldn't anymore because he might fall off.
It was a lot of work and strain on us both adjusting to the changes, but after a few weeks I started noticing improvements. After a few months, he was able to walk and eat on his own again. He was never 100% again and we still had to maintain several of the accomodations we had made for him, but he was content and I was happy to still have him with me.
He lived to be 16 years old. The week after his 16th birthday, he suddenly went downhill. He didn't want to get up. He didn't show any interest in things anymore. It no longer felt like he was with me mentally. I knew he was ready, so I made the appointment. He went calmly and willingly with me rocking him to sleep in my arms.
I still miss him and think of him every day, but I know he's at peace now, just like your beautiful Lulu.
i’m so sorry for your loss
my 4th entry, this contest is making me love my pets so much and to really cherish what time you have with them :’)