What's Bothering You?

Nothing is really bothering me right now, but I will echo what others are saying: It breaks my heart to see so many people leave. I respect their decision, but it’s still disheartening. And not just recently, but even from 2022, a couple of people have left that I really miss. 😢💖
 
Seeing posts in areas made for casual conversation, and noticing some responses have clearly been written by AI. It feels very dystopian.

Communities are for expressing yourself and building friendships. When you have so little faith in yourself that you have to rely on a program for social interaction, especially one with the least amount of pressure, I feel like some self reflection is needed. People want to get to know people, and being dishonest from the start is not a good foundation for any relationship.
 
I didn't notice this when I made my post, so I'll speak about it now.

When I posted the artwork of Link crying in the rain, I didn't notice the 'do not repost' until after I posted it. If needed, I'll take the art down.

To the artist if they see this: I apologize. I didn't notice your hidden message prior to posting your art.
 
I think / hope this will be my last post on this site for at least a long time for real. I thought the one before my last one would, oh well. I flipflopped.

It really hurt me to see the things that went down here but… I’ll be real I got too invested in posting on a certain thread. I do not regret caring about this community but I do regret simply not stepping back sometimes. That’s for everyone’s sake, ‘coz I think I have less than I would have liked to actually say, and because it’s not good for me honestly.

The Old Site I Come From I’d do that exact same thing out of desperation wanting someone to listen when I was going through hell. It’s neither here nor there what happened on that website, but I’m upset that I still have that part of me. It’s sort of better in that I could handle how often I did it more now. It was like every single day back there.

So I guess my point is I’m sorry for all it and all my rambling again and you know what… things are finally getting better in some other parts of my life. I’m finally starting not to hate my own existence and like… sometimes when my T comes back to me I actually enjoy existing for a bit again. I’m starting to understand things better, so I can accept my own failure a bit more. I got better at celebrating some little things. I had a great interaction with someone the other day even if I might not see them again. Some other private stuff. I’m scared I’m going to keep taking steps and lose that or be held back too but that journey has been happening off-site for ages now really… and honestly in the last month-ish? Not being on my own on certain things IRL, I think I’ve made some finally meaningful breakthroughs and finally feel myself more tangible…

It just kind of highlights that thinking about this site ever since The Stuff Kept Happening made me feel worse. I regret my other last post. I’m not going to share specifically what I think about this site any more / beyond this, because *gestures back up at the first paragraph in this spoiler*.

I’m sorry for whatever part I just added to the whole thing. Right now I’m moving on from several things in my life and this site is one too but it’s just always a mess for me to move on because I’m a separation anxiety goblin I don’t even know anymore. I’m trying to say that playfully.

I wish I could just hang out with some people here and I just feel bad. My brain always gives me an excuse to isolate myself socially. I won’t get into that.

I hope things resolve here eventually. It’s complicated but like I said once y’all deserve better than for this to have happened.

Not to make the entire site drama about myself- outright, I’m just speaking as an individual and part of that- I know I deserved better than to go through all this and at least I can value it this time.
 
I’ve made up my mind. In a few days, I’ll be on hiatus from this site. It’ll only be temporary; until things get better on here. I’m gonna stick around on here for a few more days to wrap things up. Don’t worry, I’ll return eventually. I just can’t bear to be on here right now. I’ll continue to play Breath of the Wild and keep building my Tomodachi Life island in Minecraft. Feel free to wish me a happy birthday on July 6. If you wish to contact me, you can’t. I’m not actively on any other social media site. (I’m NOT on Discord.) I will return someday. That’s a promise. When I do decide to eventually return, it’ll be when things are better on here. For now, I’m done. I’d like to thank everyone for their kindness on here and support. I appreciate it. But with so many users leaving, I might as well go too. This site is turning into a haunted wasteland. I really hope things change for the better. I don’t know exactly what went down and why so many people are leaving, but it seems to be serious. I don’t want to look into the deets. Once again, thank you everyone. I’ll miss you. But this is for the best.

In a few days, I’ll be gone. It’s been real. 🫡

-Ceto
 
been spiraling these past few days and i wish it'd stop. it's kind of interfering with how i talk to others and i can't stand it. hope that leaves soon.
 
I didn't notice this when I made my post, so I'll speak about it now.

When I posted the artwork of Link crying in the rain, I didn't notice the 'do not repost' until after I posted it. If needed, I'll take the art down.

To the artist if they see this: I apologize. I didn't notice your hidden message prior to posting your art.
As an artist online myself, let me fill you in on the etiquette regarding this real quick, since you don't seem to be aware of it (apologies if this ends up coming across as rude - I just woke up at 4:50am, and I'm passionate about this, especially when AI is now stealing our work enough as is):
  1. If you can't credit the artist of a piece of art you want to post by name/username (not just by saying "not my art", or "credits to the artist"), don't post it.
  2. If you also don't have explicit permission to post the art, don't post it.
  3. If you've already broken at least one the above two rules, take down the art.
If an artist doesn't want people to repost their work, you shouldn't wait for them to give you special permission to break that boundary, on a website they almost definitely don't use. You know now that they don't want their work shared, so the only ethical thing to do is to take down your repost of their art.
 
not looking for replies or arguments

im NOT caught up on what went down, still on page 23 and stopping for the night. unfortunately i was in the dark while all this was going down. echoing what others have said, i'm extremely disappointed with what happened, how it was handled and the responses by some of the staff. i am not friends with the person banned, or anyone really, so nobody can claim that i have a horse in this race (if anything i've been a mod and tbt defender in the past if you look through my post history). wtf, that's was abhorrent... again, i don't know them and we maybe interacted 2 times total but i always appreciated how they spoke up about injustice and important issues. as a non confrontational person they were often the voice for people like me. i haven't seen the ban messages but from the people who have seen them, the reasons weren't conveyed well. i saw something disgusting posted by a mod that made me sick. something that, i believe, SHOULD have resulted in a ban. no wonder people are leaving in droves, some of the best, kindest, most generous and amazing people i've had the pleasure of interacting with on here. i truly believed tbt was a safe space. not perfect, but safe. was even using it as one of my replacements for social media sites i no longer use due to their associations with fascists. i even tried to support the site by disabling adblockers because i heard it was losing money and wanted to support it. my trust in the site has been absolutely shattered.
 
lightworks closed itself again! after so long! > <
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everything's fine, though... as always : 3
 
I saw something mentioned on a Discord server (not TBT's) that spiked my anxiety for several minutes. I'm not going to say what it was, but it left me feeling uneasy.
 
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