I just don't know how to open up these kinds of topics with people irl, mainly because the irl communities I grew up in are hinged on social media sites like instagram and facebook where people love to showcase their whole life on there. Not that it's a bad thing of course, you do you, but it was just never for me because being vulnerable online where everyone knows my real name and details makes me feel weird. I love being online in the sense that it feels like a second life, like I can be who I wanna be without having all these expectations set upon by real-life stuff. I don't know how to fully explain it, but I just think, as a healthcare professional, how will my patients react when they find out I make silly doodles for a website called TBT? How will colleagues react if they knew I enjoyed daydreaming about my own characters? How will my bosses react if they found out I like drawing cute animals and furries? Will I lose credibility? Will irl people not trust me anymore? Will they think I'm weird?
I always felt like it was such a niche problem precisely because my interests were niche. I ranted about it in a separate thread but I think of my irl friends who've found support groups through sports or religion or running, stuff like that. My main hobby is gaming and I've rarely ever encountered local gaming groups so it really sucks. As for art, well... I dunno, people love to compare art styles and say that more detailed/realistic drawings are better and if your art style is not realistic then your drawings are childish. Which I completely disagree with, art is art as long as it's made by a human, but I don't think we need to go critiquing every art style when a lot are doing it simply for the hobby.
I've gone completely off-track I think but yeah. I've always thought my dad was disappointed I didn't turn out like him, a bookwork and all that. I spend my free time playing and drawing and at one point when I talked about my commissions he told me, "Are your clients children who use their parents' credit card?" Like. it felt like a genuine question at the time which made me feel like he thought my drawings were childish and no adult would request for my style. I know he didn't mean to hurt me but it did sting a little knowing he didn't take me seriously.