What's Bothering You?
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VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
Last night it was getting late, and mom was on her phone for far too long with car insurance. When she said she was going to take her medication, I thought she was done. That's when I ended the call. The second I did, that mom lashed out at me and sweared at me. I gave her medication, but she said, "Stay out of my face." Before then, she threatened to hit me with a water bottle. Finally, when I was taking up my stuff, she said, "Go eat yourself to death." I didn't say anything to argue back. I know what mom is like without her medication, and that shows why. She really needs serious help, and what she said was very hurtful. All I did was look out for health, but she didn't seem to care.
You don't deserve to be treated like that in your home @VanitasFan26. I imagine your mum is just stressed about everything that has happened with your family this year, but that gives her no right to lash out like that. 
My work day ended on a stressful note. I realised after the rest of the department left (my work day is an hour longer than everyone else's) that the trolley a visitor had used to take his things to his car wasn't returned. I checked our entire department, all of the building entrances, the entirety of the ground floor, and the car park - nothing. I even checked in with the janitors and my employers department. These trolleys cost £300 by the way. Phoned my boss (deployed elsewhere), no answer. Texted him and asked if I should send out a staff-wide email Monday morning, and he said that'd be the best course of action. But he also said I should inform the acting subject head. I felt so bad sending her a work text to her private number on a Friday evening. We literally spent this morning putting together a shopping list using the last of our budget for the year. If anything we needed another one - not to lose one! She hopes another department nabbed it for an event happening tomorrow. Fingers crossed that's the case and it shows up! Nothing I can do now until Monday though so trying not to stress.
My work day ended on a stressful note. I realised after the rest of the department left (my work day is an hour longer than everyone else's) that the trolley a visitor had used to take his things to his car wasn't returned. I checked our entire department, all of the building entrances, the entirety of the ground floor, and the car park - nothing. I even checked in with the janitors and my employers department. These trolleys cost £300 by the way. Phoned my boss (deployed elsewhere), no answer. Texted him and asked if I should send out a staff-wide email Monday morning, and he said that'd be the best course of action. But he also said I should inform the acting subject head. I felt so bad sending her a work text to her private number on a Friday evening. We literally spent this morning putting together a shopping list using the last of our budget for the year. If anything we needed another one - not to lose one! She hopes another department nabbed it for an event happening tomorrow. Fingers crossed that's the case and it shows up! Nothing I can do now until Monday though so trying not to stress.
I can't really explain what I am tackling, like my brain is mentally causing something and blocks me out so I don't know what is going on but I still have to pick up the pieces and deal with it.
I dunno
Just today, I've been watching this show called Waterloo road, but only been watching it for a specific character, a specific actor. Same actor who has been in Sarah Jane Adevntures, and for the whole day I've just been watching the parts he has been in, and I dunno non stop made me feel so obessesd
Like thats all I did, and it feels so weird, I dunno like it was pulling me back but I feel so out of it, and feel like I wasted the whole day.
Looking at pictures of them older from SJA, and realising how much time has passed it felt so alien
And for some madden reason I just started to cry, weep a bit and I don't really know why. Still don't.
My youngest cat ran over to me with a lil noise, worried about me.
I haven't had the chance to cry in a comfortable setting in a long time
My head feels like lead
I dunno
Just today, I've been watching this show called Waterloo road, but only been watching it for a specific character, a specific actor. Same actor who has been in Sarah Jane Adevntures, and for the whole day I've just been watching the parts he has been in, and I dunno non stop made me feel so obessesd
Like thats all I did, and it feels so weird, I dunno like it was pulling me back but I feel so out of it, and feel like I wasted the whole day.
Looking at pictures of them older from SJA, and realising how much time has passed it felt so alien
And for some madden reason I just started to cry, weep a bit and I don't really know why. Still don't.
My youngest cat ran over to me with a lil noise, worried about me.
I haven't had the chance to cry in a comfortable setting in a long time
My head feels like lead
I just received an emergency broadcast on my phone in relation to storm darragh. i forgot emergency broadcasts even exist honestly, so it gave me a bit of a fright. an online friend of mine lives relatively close to me, and apparently he recieved the warning also. because I live somewhere that is declared a "red area", and because i live very close to a harbour and the sea, where i live is predicted to get the worst of the storm. if it turns out to be as strong as predicted, it may be life threatening 
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Edit: and now a tornado warning has been issued. tornadoes are extremely uncommon in England. i do hope this storm does not meet expectations, it will be quite dangerous if it does.
.Edit: and now a tornado warning has been issued. tornadoes are extremely uncommon in England. i do hope this storm does not meet expectations, it will be quite dangerous if it does.
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I know how you feel, I still have a few hundred dollars in gift cards, not to mention, Christmas is around the corner, but for some reason these Vanilla gift cards are have started to get declined on Apple/iOS purchases ;-;Unfortunately, I am not able to play Animal Crossing: Pocket Camp Complete because I do not have any money to purchase it, and I tried to use an old Google Play gift card that apparently expired a long time ago, so I am going to have to miss out on all the fun for a while...
I am going to have to look at other people's screenshots and videos, instead.
Snap Crackle Pop
Senior Member
I made a few mistakes at work today, and it shouldn't be a big deal but I am kind of beating myself up over it and am afraid I will get in trouble because I made two drinks wrong and I am afraid that they will think I had a bad attitude when I had to remake them. I don't think I did but it's still something I am stressing over.
chocovelvetcake
(CURRENTLY ON HIATUS)
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Do they have any conditions that might lead to this behaviour?
Asking because my mother-in-law owned a nursing home until she retired this year, and her home specialised in women with dementia. It sounded like an awful profession to be in. I sympathise with anyone working in it.
themysterybidder
Senior Member
I am so annoyed and upset tonight. I shouldn't have jinxed it earlier by saying how happy I was apart from my physical pain. Day started off brilliantly, Blossom was back to normal and basically after a hectic few months I finally have a few days to myself before next week starts.
I know I sound like a broken record and I'm sure most of you know how I am still struggling with my Mum's passing even though it's been over 2 years now. I know some people in real life don't appreciate me keep talking about her, but I had one person who I always felt comfortable talking to about her and they loved talking about her too. Well, tonight I was talking about her again and saying I wonder if there is a bit of her in Blossom. Plus, I always tell her I love her and miss her at least twice a day. Well, tonight that one person who I never thought would say this told me 'You know you can't have a direct conversation with her?' Well, my heart sank. My only hope that I was clinging onto was that she could at least see us and could connect with us. For example: Talking to her in my dreams, Whenever a feather drops into the garden, I always believe it's a message from her as that's what she used to say. She would think if it was a special day for someone who had passed and it usually was. Now, maybe it's nonsense, but it doesn't do any harm does it? If it comforts me and I'm not doing anyone any harm, what is wrong with that? I always liked to think she was looking down wanting to chat and hug me as much as I want to talk and hug her. I told this person it wasn't a very nice thing to say, and then they tried to brush it off as usual. I felt the tears beginning to roll down my eyes. I managed to compose myself and act as if it didn't bother me, as maybe they wanted more of a reaction. Eventually it was time to get ready for bed. Bedtime couldn't come quick enough after that. When I left the room, the tears just kept coming and I was struggling to breathe. I'm still crying, but then I think to myself what my Mum would say, and she would have 110% supported me. I don't even know if annoyed is the correct word, i'm feeling so many different emotions: hurt, angry, upset... If it had been anyone else, I don't think it would have bothered me, but I always thought this one person was there for me as they loved her as much as I did. I don't even think my brother would have said that to me, even when we didn't get on. If I can't talk to that one person about her I'm going to write it here. I love you and miss you every single day, Mum. I really hope you are watching over me.
I know I sound like a broken record and I'm sure most of you know how I am still struggling with my Mum's passing even though it's been over 2 years now. I know some people in real life don't appreciate me keep talking about her, but I had one person who I always felt comfortable talking to about her and they loved talking about her too. Well, tonight I was talking about her again and saying I wonder if there is a bit of her in Blossom. Plus, I always tell her I love her and miss her at least twice a day. Well, tonight that one person who I never thought would say this told me 'You know you can't have a direct conversation with her?' Well, my heart sank. My only hope that I was clinging onto was that she could at least see us and could connect with us. For example: Talking to her in my dreams, Whenever a feather drops into the garden, I always believe it's a message from her as that's what she used to say. She would think if it was a special day for someone who had passed and it usually was. Now, maybe it's nonsense, but it doesn't do any harm does it? If it comforts me and I'm not doing anyone any harm, what is wrong with that? I always liked to think she was looking down wanting to chat and hug me as much as I want to talk and hug her. I told this person it wasn't a very nice thing to say, and then they tried to brush it off as usual. I felt the tears beginning to roll down my eyes. I managed to compose myself and act as if it didn't bother me, as maybe they wanted more of a reaction. Eventually it was time to get ready for bed. Bedtime couldn't come quick enough after that. When I left the room, the tears just kept coming and I was struggling to breathe. I'm still crying, but then I think to myself what my Mum would say, and she would have 110% supported me. I don't even know if annoyed is the correct word, i'm feeling so many different emotions: hurt, angry, upset... If it had been anyone else, I don't think it would have bothered me, but I always thought this one person was there for me as they loved her as much as I did. I don't even think my brother would have said that to me, even when we didn't get on. If I can't talk to that one person about her I'm going to write it here. I love you and miss you every single day, Mum. I really hope you are watching over me.
daringred_
✧ ghost lesbian ✧
feel like i accidentally made myself look really immature/stupid at work. it was my colleague's birthday today, and he hates his birthday -- didn't want anyone to mention it, or get him a gift, but he still got a card and cake, and everyone sang happy birthday to him. all great, i'm happy for him, but it made me a little upset because they all forgot my birthday until five days after it, and i never got a belated card when i came into work the next week, let alone cake. even though i know it was nobody's intention to make me feel sad, i just needed space to feel/be that way for a little bit instead of letting it fester, but now i'm worried they all think i'm being a whiny baby lol.
daringred_
✧ ghost lesbian ✧
i didn't make it about me, actually, i stepped away from it and got on with my job, they could just still tell i was down. i'm pretty sure my coworker is better than holding emotions against me.
chocovelvetcake
(CURRENTLY ON HIATUS)
Sadly, I'm not too sure. I'm pretty sure some of the residents have dementia or Alzheimer's of some sorts. I also have a bad temper and I'm prone to snapping at people, especially when they're being mean to me. I've snapped at teachers, students, and even family members in the past.
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Dunquixote
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I had a dream that made me depressed; it reminded me of some things I just want to forget about.
still dealing with lower energy than usual. I want to get started on a drawing soon but I still feel completely zapped
No messages or replies please
still dealing with lower energy than usual. I want to get started on a drawing soon but I still feel completely zapped
No messages or replies please
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LordSheep78
Pls Call Me Owen Ty Love You Guys 💜
Life has been so terrible recently. I can’t mentally cope at all and everything is so stressful. School and people make me stressed which makes me not be able to do the things I love. Like play animal crossing or be active here, I haven’t been active for so long and stress is taking things away. It doesn’t help that I genuinely hate myself as a person and my parents clearly have a favourite which doesn’t help with my opinion on myself. I know they don’t mean too but it comes across that way. Idk what to do with life anymore tbh
My dog is 15 and ofc I love him dearly. I work in vetmed so ofc he's checked annually and is on all the good preventatives and what not. Lately he's had a hacking sort of cough occasionally. It started when the temperature outside dropped. I'm hoping it's just a new reaction to the cool weather due to his age. It can't be heartworms or kennel cough.
My anxiety is telling me it could be heart disease. One of the doctors I work for said everything looked great for his age earlier this year. I'm going to ask their thoughts this week at work and see if he needs another exam just to be sure.
I don't want to lose my boy. I know it's inevitable but dang it I want him around as long as possible.
Worst case scenario, if it is heart disease, I can give him medicine. He's such a good boy that he's always taken any medicine without fights.
I just want the best for him.
My anxiety is telling me it could be heart disease. One of the doctors I work for said everything looked great for his age earlier this year. I'm going to ask their thoughts this week at work and see if he needs another exam just to be sure.
I don't want to lose my boy. I know it's inevitable but dang it I want him around as long as possible.
Worst case scenario, if it is heart disease, I can give him medicine. He's such a good boy that he's always taken any medicine without fights.
I just want the best for him.
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
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I hate to group categorize one whole group as *******s, but my grandma is starting to make me think that all republicans, are indeed, *******s. She was shouting **** all morning about how gay people are stupid and can’t think for themselves. She was saying a lot worse things I can’t repeat here.
I’m not sure why I try to give some people the benefit of the doubt. I thought that maybe there are good republicans and that maybe there are good cops? I’m tired of defending people that don’t deserve it. I’m tired of being viewed as one of the *******s because I keep defending *******s.
I used to defend the “all cops are bad” and say that “you can’t group a whole bunch of people together” but all cops are republicans.
I’m not sure why I try to give some people the benefit of the doubt. I thought that maybe there are good republicans and that maybe there are good cops? I’m tired of defending people that don’t deserve it. I’m tired of being viewed as one of the *******s because I keep defending *******s.
I used to defend the “all cops are bad” and say that “you can’t group a whole bunch of people together” but all cops are republicans.
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daringred_
✧ ghost lesbian ✧
my replacement bag came, but the window section is lopsided and off-center, and the window itself is visibly narrower than my first bag's. (and also has the borders reversed.) i know ordering where i did is a crapshoot with this sort of thing but damn. still sucks. i'm getting a refund but idk yet if i should try reordering another one or just stick with my first bag.
