sometimes I feel like I'm just meant to be sad, like I'm destined to live a life of feeling upset and frustrated. that's where my comfort lies, that's what I'm used to. I can't see my mood improving as the years go on. I don't know how to truly feel happiness anymore, I don't know how to create my own happiness.
also came to work and I sat in my hot car for about seven minutes because I'm feeling sleepy, and I felt cozy. now that I'm in the library, I'm freezing. didn't think I'd need my winter coat because it's 70F outside, but apparently I should've brought it.