My heart rate spiked to 164 beats per minute at rest last night and remained high for an hour. 148bpm at 4am. 133bpm at 6:20AM. Also dropped as low as 48bpm (not worrisome on its own but what a range for one day).
Edit: they want me to come in in an hour. They've never given me a same day appointment before.
It's been a year today since I lost my best friend.
Nothing more to say there. I'll be thinking about it a lot as the day goes on.
I remember feeling so disturbed and out of sorts. If I don't even feel half of that again today I'll be fine. 'Time heals everything' is true to an extent, but the loneliness of some losses can't be covered. Especially a soulmate type of bond.
I’ve had a migraine for 3 days now. I have medicine for it but I had to skip yesterday because you can only take it once in 24 hours and it hadn’t been 24 hours until bedtime last night. I’ll probably take it today but I don’t want to.
I'm shaking and I'm feeling sick to my stomach, but I'm not sure if it's a side effect of my new meds or if I'm just tired/hungry. I already ate and I've been up for a few hours, so I'm not sure if the latter is the case.
I just wanna go back to bed but I have to book an appointment, which I'm not looking forward to. Things haven't been so great lately, but I'll manage...
Sick of being sick. It has been a month now. I'm constantly exhausted (doc's words "extreme fatigue"), my weight keeps dropping, and my body isn't tolerating food well but I'm not allowed to change my diet until the doc says so otherwise it may cause false negatives. Bloods have come back abnormal but so far all I've been told is more tests are required. I should hopefully be told more at my appointment next week. But the waiting is frustrating. I feel like my entire life is on hold. I'm alone all day & most evenings - and I know my partner feels guilty about this but I'm not selfish enough to ask her to stay home for my sake. She's out with one of my closest friends right now and it sucks that I can't join them!
Thank god my job is understanding and has a great sick leave policy. Had a chat with someone from senior management this morning and I was told to stop stressing about work, reassured my cover (two people from another site each coming in one day a week) is keeping the department afloat, and to just rest up. But it is hard not to stress when you receive a department-wide email saying how difficult things are right now with you gone. I miss work.
Also, I'm so bored. There is only so much TV a person can watch. But I've no energy for anything more intensive most days. I went for a walk today and after 40 minutes had to get public transport home. My usual walk to work is 30-35 minutes and that's all uphill and a month ago I managed that no bother!
My heart rate spiked to 164 beats per minute at rest last night and remained high for an hour. 148bpm at 4am. 133bpm at 6:20AM. Also dropped as low as 48bpm (not worrisome on its own but what a range for one day).
Edit: they want me to come in in an hour. They've never given me a same day appointment before.
I finally got an answer. I'm glad that after 5+ years of complaining to doctors I finally know what is wrong. I'm not even sad to be told I've yet another chronic condition. Just so relieved I should get back to feeling normal soon. Should get medication Monday.
Although I've been told to rest as much as possible between now and Monday, and if my heart rate spikes above 160bpm for 30+ minutes again to get to a hospital.
I have so much to do but my body and mind are screaming at me to lie down. I don't know what my deal is right now. and it sucks because my day started out fine, so I'm not even sure what happened.
you know how some people get sick really easily, and they seem to always have a head cold or something else? I feel like that's me, but with mental health. it's so hard waking up every day not knowing what kind of mental health day you're gonna have, and then having to rework things because of a bad episode.
I hope I can at least muster up the energy to write in my journal and do some research for my college application essay. I'm just not feeling well at all, physically or mentally.
I keep waking up way too early this week for some reason. Apparently I only got 4 hours this time. I should probably just go back to sleep...
I've also been kinda depressed the past few days.
hey man i get the frustration of training pups but as someone who has worked with dogs this feels a little ingenuous. "adopt don't shop" isn't telling you to go out and get more dogs you aren't prepared for, it's a warning against irresponsible breeding that leads to shelters (including kill shelters) being overrun.
edit: i'm not going to make a new reply to spare you the notification, but your edit only made the situation sound worse. if i remember right you got your dog from a stranger for free on a facebook post and not an actual adoption agency or shelter. you can say her previous owner has a responsibility to disclose her temperament to you, sure, but considering this isn't a typical adoption it is also your responsibility to ask about it as her new family. you also adopted a pup that's part bernese mountain dog: a huge dog used by farmers, known for their strength and high activity - and part poodle: a smart but very high maintenance breed that requires a lot of activity and socialization. it is you and your family's responsibility to thoroughly research a dog's (and any other animal's) breeds before taking them into your home.
different dog breeds have different needs and require different types of training. even two dogs of the same breed can be completely different because all dogs have their own personalities! golden retrievers are considered one of the easiest dog breeds and are recommended for new dog owners. to compare the breeds you have is unfair to the bernie, she has two highly active types of dogs in her, she is most likely not going to be goldie-tempered.
all of the "issues" you have with adopting - not knowing health issues, personalities, temperaments, etc. is also applicable to bred puppies. pups grow up and develop their own personalities, their own fears, their own unexpected trauma and health issues. your bred dog just happens to be one of the (typically) easiest and most relaxed dog breeds. one way of getting a dog is not necessarily worse or better than another, you guys just did not prepare for something that wasn't a golden retriever.
with all due respect, this particular problem you have with your new dog is due to you & your family's own negligence. the responsible thing to do now is to either step up or rehome her to someone who actually has the ability and the desire to take care of her. she needs someone who actually wants to love her.
hey man i get the frustration of training pups but as someone who has worked with dogs this feels a little ingenuous. "adopt don't shop" isn't telling you to go out and get more dogs you aren't prepared for, it's a warning against irresponsible breeding that leads to shelters (including kill shelters) being overrun.
I understand that but please don't assume that was my intention with my wording. also I'm not talking about this further and I'm not looking for responses, so please do not respond.
Aghh I didn't get the job that I did the interview for.
Then when I was looking for jobs, I opened all the ones I planned to apply for and then realised nearly all of these are barista jobs that I don't even want, why my mind just planned to work for just another coffee shop.
