What's Bothering You?

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler: loss of life, not serious but still

so I watch Youtube Shorts sometimes when I just want to decompress (don't worry, I know my limits and I try to avoid stuff that causes me unreasonable stress), and off and on in the back of my mind I've been thinking, what happened to Lynja? in case you guys don't know, she made lots of cooking videos and uploaded them to yt shorts (and probably other platforms like Insta and Tiktok). this morning I stumbled across one of her videos for the first time in a long while.

well I just found out that she actually passed away earlier this year.

her personality and enthusiasm was contagious honestly, watching her videos always puts a smile on my face. there were even quite a few recipes that she posted that I would like to try myself, especially since I'm starting to really learn how to cook. she had huge positive grandma vibes and I adore her. I'm very sad to hear that she's not around anymore, but I'll always be happy that she was able to share her love of cooking and love of life with the world.

 

[themysterybidder]

All week I've been extra busy, done even more than I planned and I've not been feeling great since Tuesday to add into the mix. Yesterday, it was implied that I haven't done much. This person had been drinking, but seriously I do more than them in one day than they do in a week. Then, they thought it was funny to say I saw something on YouTube you should have a look at.

Spoiler: Trigger Warning

10 ways to tell if your dog is dying.

I've put in spoiler tags as it upset me and may upset some members. Now, this morning when I said about it to them they said 'I didn't say that, you're talking nonsense.' Then, 'You're too touchy'. I'm surprised I didn't get the old favourite 'Is it your time of the month?' That's probably still to come. I feel so guilty even trying to catch a half an hour break when others are around, even though I'm in pain and I do often keep going when my body is telling me to stop. I'm so fed up of being made to feel like this. I need to rest, but feel guilty for trying to do so.

 

[SkyKnight03]

I hope this medication works for you! This is the medication I take and if memory serves I didn't have troubles adjusting. The medication I was trying beforehand had some weird side effects so I remember being nervous about the escitalopram too.

Thanks!

So far it's been nothing horrible. I've been wide awake at night but I assume that will cease.

My class begins in a few weeks. I'm hoping it'll make that easier too. It's easier to concentrate when not dealing with anxiety.

 

[Seastar]

I was trying to sleep but it seems something might be on fire outside? Nobody knows from where. My mom couldn't see smoke but it definitely smells like it. But now I am concerned for myself because things like smoke outside slowly get into my side of the house. (I hate living here)
I was hoping to go somewhere today but I've messed up my schedule and now I might just stay up and hope we can still go later so I can get out of this house.. Ugh.
Also, am I imagining things or is my throat already starting to get sore? I can't even smell the smoke right now. Didn't realize I was that sensitive to it.

 

[Beanz]

Spoiler: deleted

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[Firesquids]

My dog hurt her foot/leg and has been yelping when she jumps or tries to walk upstairs, it breaks my heart to hear her in pain.

 

[-Raven-]

Honestly, my Switch drift is so bad at this point it makes me want to not use the console : I

 

[Mimi Cheems]

Spoiler: deep family stuff, mentions of alcoholism

How am I supposed to look at my father, see how his alcoholism has affected him, and our family, and still be proud to call him my dad..? For years, I've looked up to him. Ever since I was a little girl. But as I get older, I notice his disease/addiction only gets worse. He never used to be this way. He doesn't even notice he has a problem. How am I supposed to accept that this isn't the same man who raised me, the same man who listened to me vent without yelling at me? How am I just supposed to accept he's never going to get help as long as he claims he doesn't have a problem.. I just wish he'd get help before it's too late..

 

[ShadowLelouch97]

My mangers are getting on my nerves. Not only were we short staffed yesterday, but they have the gall to try to give me four different projects to handle at once, then criticize how I'm doing it. Stop giving me all of these projects in one go!!!

 

[Dunquixote]

My dad left the door to outside in the back open and Jewels got outside; when I tried to grab her she ran so fast from me. I just woke up not long along and was already having a small panic attack or something and this made it worse. My dad apologized but he didn’t seem sorry at all. My mom yelled at him and he’s like why are you screaming at me? Unbelievable. Cats are unpredictable and even if you think they won’t go outside, you can never be sure and it never hurts to be extra careful. If anything ever happened to my cats, I don’t think I could live with myself. They’re my only personal friends not to mention they’re family; I’m still not over losing my other kitties even though they were old and sick. I feel like I let them down

 

[Yoshi155]

Spoiler: Short family rant

My little brother is such a little **** sometimes. And I know that when he does this, he does it on purpose. He tries to make me mad on purpose. I don’t even do anything to him. I try to be a good older brother, but no. He’s just annoying and hates me for no reason.

 

[Bruscoe]

Do I come off as somewhat cranky and unmotivated to anyone here? I think it's a big reason why I've lost all my friends in real life.

Spoiler: Read on if you're interested

I rarely have motivation to get out of the house except for work, to get food, or buy stuff for myself. I could recall a few times when my friends would occasionally reach out to have me hang with them somewhere, but half the time, would turn them down because "I had other priorities". In reality, said priorities were:

1. Falling asleep too early due to an early bird work schedule (getting up at around 5:00-5:30 AM every work day)
2. Going on my video games and becoming bored within 30 minutes
3. Being lazy and doing nothing but watching videos/listening to music on my computer

Not very good priorities, I know. Heck, something similar happened today with my dad. He offered to go eat out somewhere, but I'm known within the family circle to not particularly like going out with any family members. The sudden way he tried to push me to get out of the house wasn't all that great either. You could say I don't take my own family seriously, but I do get tired of them quite often. I ended up getting a pizza carried out.

Other than family, I also promised a co-worker to start working out at a gym. The first week was alright, but then I became super sore in the upper body area over the weekend, and I couldn't sleep some nights as I'm a side sleeper. I wasn't ready to do this again. I tried telling him a few times the next week that I wasn't feeling it to work out with him, but he began to "force" me to come, and I had to start ghosting him as a result. It doesn't feel like the right thing to do, but with both the soreness and the family issues I've been trying to deal with, I couldn't muster any courage to continue doing it. Besides this, I really don't know how I'm going to make any new friends, or possibly find a relationship because of my social anxiety. I've been given many suggestions before, but I'm hard to move out of my own comfort zone. This seems like iffy stuff to talk about in detail in a place like this, but after being ridiculed and made fun of previously in several "dating help" forums, I don't know who else to turn to other than a therapist, and even the ones I've contacted don't seem particularly interested in wanting to help me. I'll be seeing one next week to finally get some things off my chest, but I may have to reschedule due to a potential work conflict.

I've brought this issue up several times both here and elsewhere, and I continue to sound like a broken record, which isn't a good sign that anything is improving. I genuinely try to not come off as a lazy and unmotivated person, but I've got a feeling that my immediate family members are somewhat hindering my progress in a way. I badly want to move out of the house and live on my own (I'm 24 years old for those who don't know), but it's impossible at the moment given my current financial situation and the immediate area I live in not having any affordable housing that is not already located in shady areas. I want to have a better social life, but I feel like I'm in a mental jail just by continuing to live with my parents.

 

[VernalLapin]

Spoiler: TMI

I think i have a uti it’s driving me insane ;_;

 

[spawnpoint]

im really lonely rn

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Spoiler: Thinking about death

I was really annoyed earlier, but now I'm just emotional. I'm missing my mom and I'm thinking about my dad, how his birthday has reminded me that his time is drawing nearer. He told me this today: "Even if I live to 80, which is still a long time, I'm already halfway there." He believes he won't be here in 20 years (or less) due to his health, and it's disheartening.

I shouldn't be dwelling on this too much, but I can't help myself. My dad's annoying, but I still love him.

 

[Croconaw]

Spoiler: mentions politics, bigotry

My dad's whole personality at this point is politics. It's not as bad as my grandma who's is openly homophobic, transphobic and racist to the point where she talks about it publicly. I made the decision a few months ago to block her, but I feel guilty about it sometimes because I feel like I'm not giving her a chance. Like, I didn't even give her a chance to accept me.

Also, my dad said today that Trump supports everyone and not just those who support him. He said this in response to myself saying that while not every conservative person is homophobic, those who are just happen to be republican. I feel like we can't go an entire day without having a conversation about politics, and tbh it's never positive. I grew up having to listen to my grandma spew hateful ****, in public, no less. I remember having to pretend that I had no idea who she was as a child because she would say the most embarrassing or blatantly hateful things. My dad doesn't do it in public, but sometimes I'll hear a derogatory word from the other room and he'll openly root against someone else due to their ethnicity or skin color (ie: on Family Feud or WWE, for example). I question him about it, and he'll just brush it off like "I'm not racist, I just hate [insert word you can probably guess here.]"

 

[BetsySundrop]

Do I come off as -snip-

I don't think you're cranky at all; you did great running and playing games here, which takes a lot of effort/motivation to do.

As for irl - I'm awful at advice, so please just ignore me if I'm way off.

I can't really address the social thing, bcuz I'm not social irl. But I guess overall, first figure out what you want your life to look like and be like - what would you truly enjoy? Then you can figure out how to make that happen.

Not having your own place can be rough. It's hard to make your own space, style, life. Being on your own does make a big difference. But financially it can be so rough now. If you can't afford to live on your own, but you really do want to live on your own, maybe finding a better financial situation would help?

Maybe check for good trade programs if they have those in your state/area? One of my kids saved up enough $ for a year of living expenses while living at home (didn't want to take out student loans), then enrolled in a 2 yr trade program, moved to the city where the program was, and got a position at the company that co-sponsored the program after graduating. Sometimes those trade programs help get a better paycheck.

It seems like you might be stuck in a rut? Not really happy with current living situation, but unable to change it. Don't feel like going out, but feel like you're missing out. Maybe you could have a therapist help you develop a whole self- discovery and building life goals type thing? Sorry I'm not more helpful.
Hope things work out for you!

 

[-Raven-]

@TN4U I agree wholeheartedly with Betsy but if it’s okay to ask, have you ever tried antidepressants? They’re hit-or-miss for me, but if you’re able to get some, maybe they would work for you.

I think you should try to get away from your family if they’re keeping you down. Even if it’s not the case, you can look back and see that you were able to get past them.

Also, good luck with therapy.

 

[Rainbowhorn]

I've been feeling a bit lonely lately

 

[mogyay]

five day work weeks should be criminalised !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!