What's Bothering You?

[daringred_]

Spoiler: art commission woes

there's this artist that's been giving me the runaround, and i'm getting really frustrated. they've said the art is done and that they're sending it but just won't? for some reason? they won't send it through our messages because apparently the quality worsens, i gave them my email, and they responded with some excuse that doesn't even make sense, i suggested a site we've spoken on previously, but no message there either. they're still active and posting ychs but haven't answered my last two messages asking them to just send it, i don't care if the quality tanks. can't get a refund because i paid with a "donation" site. starting to get really annoyed. i don't want to threaten to report them unless they send it in the next few days, but this is getting ridiculous and idk how else to make them take it seriously. if the art isn't actually done, then i wish they'd just say that :/

 

[themysterybidder]

Spoiler: Health rant

I regularly get my bloods checked as I'm on 2 medications that can have complicated side effects. My white blood count and neutrophils are usually low so I have to avoid people with infections and if I feel unwell I have to contact my GP. However, I got my bloods done last week and they are even worse, on the danger level now. Had to get them rechecked yesterday, got results this morning. My white blood count is up by 0.1, however my Neutrophils are down by 0.2. As a result, I haven't been able to take my 2 main pain medications since last Tuesday. Now, I have to wait to see when I have to get bloods rechecked. I had to cancel my physio appointment last week for infection risk. I have asked for steroids as I am having a flare up in my joints that are usually fine. I have been even more tired than usual for the past month, which I didn't think was possible. It really is draining me. Everything is taking me 3 times longer than normal because of pain, swelling and stiffness, and I'm usually slow because of my arthritis.

Another thing that is bothering me when I phone the Rhuematology Department, the Nurse I felt uncomfortable to speak seems to be dealing with phone messages. So, I'm not convinced she is going to ask my usual nurse for a prescription of steroids.

 

[boring]

Spoiler

I feel so silly bc instead of being sad about the assault that happened today, Im mostly sad it made me lose my duolingo streak and made me miss most tbtwc events since monday ): the person who caused all this spent years limiting my ability to partake in my hobbies too but doesn’t often succeed anymore so this instance hurts a lil extra

 

[-Apples-]

I’m getting sick of the storms. When will they stop coming?

 

[Flare]

Kinda frustrated about how slow I’ve been doing things recently. I also keep putting off going to the grocery store ughhh.

 

[Bluelady]

still angry, but I will find compensation.

 

[Firesquids]

poof

 

[Shawna]

I’m getting sick of the storms. When will they stop coming?

I live in Texas too, so I know how disastrous it’s been. .-.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I haven't been a very good friend/coworker this past week and I'm so upset at myself for it

I don't want to keep blaming my mania and making excuses, but this isn't who I am. I'm not defined by my mental health issues. mania brings out a bad side of me and I hate that. but I understand my mistakes and I don't need sympathy or forgiveness, I need to learn from those mistakes.

 

[Giddy]

Ah, to know my other coworkers have been paid and not me; and my boss not responded to my messages...fun times

its pretty much screwed over my whole weekend.

 

[Zane]

i’ve lost like 15lbs since i’ve been here from the power of sheer depression. if i ever get to go back to BC i’ll never talk **** about how expensive it is to live there ever again, i understand, i get it now

 

[boring]

Today, I have had my first chance to process the past three days. My conclusion is I need a hug.

 

[JellyLu]

Minor annoyance, I know, but the last Helluva Boss episode has me all in my feels and I wish it ended different

 

[Stella-Io]

Parents are now being petty, won't talk to me or eat dinner with me.

I was tryin to say a story and they kept interpreting me during it (while also calling my coworker names). They do that alot, interrupt not just me but my sis too when we try to ever say anythin story-like. It gets to the point that of one of us, sis or I, tries to talk to everyone, they literally like phase us out and the parents start having their own conversation as she or I are literally full blown talking. We both notice it and we're both sick of it.

So finally I say 'can you please stop interrupting me' to which my dad laughs, treats it as a joke and says no. I snap and say **** it I don't want to say it anymore I don't care, then they get mad at me cause God forbid I raise my tone by an octive and expression frustration at a habit they do ALOT.

My dad already ate dinner and my mom texted me as she was half way throu hers that it was ready, somethin she never really does, so when I sit down she ends up leaving after a few mins. So I'm eating dinner alone. She won't talk to me during dinner and it's so maddening. God forbid I get mad at somethin they both were constantly doing and have done for years, finally say somethin to their face about it and now they don't talk to me.

I'm tired of this one sided caring, why do I always have to ask how was their day/work/whatever when they can't even pretend to care how mine went when I try to tell them. Even yesterday I was talking to my mom about somethin work related and she went in her bedroom and closed the door on my face as I was still talking to her. I walk off and say to my dad who was in the kitchen, so the next room over, 'wow not like I was talking or anythin'. She miraculously hears that, comes out and said she thought I was done talking. I was literally mid-sentence.

Now they aren't talking to me and are almost avoiding me. And ofcourse they'll still get mad at me somehow cause I'm the one who got mad at them.

 

[Dim]

I gotta stop pulling all-nighters. This one's hitting me hard today. I also kind of showed a lot of my depressed emotions with my therapist this session for some reason. I don't know what came over me.

 

[Soigne]

i feel like an imposter big time

 

[moonbyu]

mom and i had a run in w/ a racist at the bank today gotta love it out here, really
she took it coolly and was even laughing about it when we were in the car, but i don't think i'm that cool about such things :/ its still bothering me

 

[ZeldaCrossing64]

Spoiler

The thought of my mom not being there for my graduation makes me feel even worse about going. Just the fact that she'll never see any of my big achievements in life is pretty saddening. She wasn't really there as a parent even when she was alive, but it still sucks...

I just have a lot on my mind, and it's mostly about my mom. I miss her.

 

[Neb]

Just a dumb tech complaint this time thanks to bad timing. So I’ve been staying back and forth between my uncle’s house in the middle of nowhere and the apartment I’m moving out of in a few weeks and just got a new iPhone 15 today. I tried connecting to his Wi-Fi to restore the backups of my apps, but it’s not compatible with this phone. It won’t download them over cellular either and I don’t have my laptop with me so I’m stuck using Discord on my phone browser. Let me just say mobile browser Discord is almost unusable, and with how bad the mobile app has gotten that’s saying a lot. Gotta wait until tomorrow to go to the library, use their internet, and download my apps again.

 

[Dunquixote]

This is minor: just worried about my last team cheer. I’m probably overthinking it but I’m worried what I said with my entry sounds awkward. I’m still hurt about the reactions but what I said I meant to be sincere. I didn’t expect anyone to cheer me on during the streamed sessions but people on all teams were really kind and supportive. I wanted to thank my team especially for being patient with me (I don’t know who reacted aside from maybe one; I was afraid to look and deleted my comment on the discord). I’d edit my post but I don’t want to mess up my entry >.< I think I’m starting to feel the effects of staying up too late too >.<

Also am having trouble watching the mario party streams and chatting since I’m so anxious about saying something and getting again. I wish my brain would let it go since everyone has forgotten. I have OCD and when something bothers me I can’t let it go :/.

I’m kicking myself for deleting that post and also for even trying to chat