What's Bothering You?
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Millysaurusrexjr
for ever still a messenger, a passenger, a tarrier
it's a small thing but I really wanna phase out this kinda old email address that I'm still using as my main email. It's just such a pain to try and think of allll the places that I've used it, and having to log in each place and change it.. and that's not counting dentists/doctors/specialists where I'll probably have to have receptionists change it for me manually... agh
I already phased out an ancient email address that I made back when I was literally in 5th grade, and yet I forgot to update my email in at least a few places after I had deleted the old email address. Luckily I was able to update the email address anyway but still
and then there will be family members who wanna send me stuff digitally every now and then but will send it to my old email address despite me telling them multiple times that I've updated to a new one!!
first world problems.
I already phased out an ancient email address that I made back when I was literally in 5th grade, and yet I forgot to update my email in at least a few places after I had deleted the old email address. Luckily I was able to update the email address anyway but still
and then there will be family members who wanna send me stuff digitally every now and then but will send it to my old email address despite me telling them multiple times that I've updated to a new one!!
first world problems.
xSuperMario64x
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had a dream that really stressed me out and felt like it lasted forever, and I finally woke up out of it about 40 min ago but now I'm really cold and not even being bundled up under my blanket can warm me up enough 
xSuperMario64x
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I was having a decent morning, but something came up and caused me to really reflect on the situation with me and my family, and honestly... it's so sad. I just feel so sad. I don't even know what to say. I wish I could get out of here, this place is so draining, physically and mentally and emotionally. It's heartbreaking.
I don't mean to get personal, but this situation I find myself in really is incredibly frustrating. I wish I could live with, oh I don't know, a normal and functioning family? Who actually shows me the love and care and respect that I deserve? I don't know... I don't know what to do with myself. I'm tired of pretending like things are okay when they really, really aren't.
I don't mean to get personal, but this situation I find myself in really is incredibly frustrating. I wish I could live with, oh I don't know, a normal and functioning family? Who actually shows me the love and care and respect that I deserve? I don't know... I don't know what to do with myself. I'm tired of pretending like things are okay when they really, really aren't.
-Mars-
Respect existence or expect resistance
Just to add salt to the wound:
When I was trying to copy my old files to my new computer I was confused why it suddenly stopped copying and assumed it was finished
so apparently my computer was trying to copy over 9GB worth of storage and it can't anymore because I get a warning "You have filled up 5GB out of 5GB of OneDrive storage, please pay to upgrade your storage!" This means that:
1: Even if I hypothetically did not turn off OneDrive and still had my lost files synced I can't even transfer them anyways because the free plan of OneDrive can only hold 5GB of storage worth and that's nothing, I had at least 20GB worth of storage that needed to be transferred
2: OneDrive is actually useless for "protecting my files" in case something happens to them because you need to pay for a $84 yearly subscription service to be able to have enough cloud storage to sync your files.
Apparently I know nothing about computers because I just don't understand, my Switch and 3DS storage data on their Memory Cards and SD cards so the data will be safe as long as you have the Memory/SD cards, why does my computer not have the files on my hard drive? Is it on my memory chip or something? The files have to be physically stored somewhere right? I don't understand what's the point in keeping files on a cloud hosting service, it sounds safer to physically have them on a data-storing device
xSuperMario64x
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just a sad night 
Caterpillarsarecute
the most silly
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Caterpillarsarecute
the most silly
I just slammed my foot really hard onto the side of the door and tripped and dropped my cup.. luckily my cup was empty and didn't break but my foot hurts.
I don’t have the focus to reply to everyone but it sounds like really sad stuff is happening to some of you recently, I’m so sorry. It really feels like the month has been a mess wherever I look ):
Personally just… today is lethargic and I’m having a bit of trouble focusing on what needs to be done. Nothing terrible for me.
Personally just… today is lethargic and I’m having a bit of trouble focusing on what needs to be done. Nothing terrible for me.
Why must a simple statement end up into whole discussion?
All I asked was my mom to find masking tape if she happens to be out at a shop. Which she did but it's contractor grade and regular masking tape already rips paper, which it's not supposed to do but it does anyway. And this isn't like printer paper I'm using it on, it's watercolour paper, cold and hot press so it thicker and has more texture than standard paper.
Then it became this whole thing where they keep telling me 'you have to look for it'. You literally just showed me what I want! It's the purple tape! I'm kind of home stuck and I HAVE been looking for masking tape when I'm out. They keep going out without me so how tf do you expect me to look when you don't take me out?
They showed me this purple tape that says it doesn't rip paper and I asked them to get me it. Yeah it's like 2x more expensive than masking tape (masking is like 3$ this purple tape is 8$+) but if it specifically says it doesn't rip paper, that's what I want, I don't want to rip paper. I'm using it to hang up prints I got and also for when I paint.
I plainly asked them to get it for me TWICE but I highly doubt they did. They make such an issue over somethin so small.
All of this over TAPE.
All I asked was my mom to find masking tape if she happens to be out at a shop. Which she did but it's contractor grade and regular masking tape already rips paper, which it's not supposed to do but it does anyway. And this isn't like printer paper I'm using it on, it's watercolour paper, cold and hot press so it thicker and has more texture than standard paper.
Then it became this whole thing where they keep telling me 'you have to look for it'. You literally just showed me what I want! It's the purple tape! I'm kind of home stuck and I HAVE been looking for masking tape when I'm out. They keep going out without me so how tf do you expect me to look when you don't take me out?
They showed me this purple tape that says it doesn't rip paper and I asked them to get me it. Yeah it's like 2x more expensive than masking tape (masking is like 3$ this purple tape is 8$+) but if it specifically says it doesn't rip paper, that's what I want, I don't want to rip paper. I'm using it to hang up prints I got and also for when I paint.
I plainly asked them to get it for me TWICE but I highly doubt they did. They make such an issue over somethin so small.
All of this over TAPE.
There's so many accidents around today, I'm not looking forward to trying to get home in an hour. Traffic was at a dead stop yesterday and ppl wouldn't let me merge so I blew this old man a kiss and he let me in. Just a tip for yall incase yr stuck in bad traffic and not afraid to embarrass yrself
I typed a very long rant about my allergies and then lost it because my phone was being annoying and replaced it with something else that the forum then saved. Uggghh.
Anyway, I'm tired of suffering because nobody else in this house has the allergies that I do. Maybe I'll retype the full rant another time...
Anyway, I'm tired of suffering because nobody else in this house has the allergies that I do. Maybe I'll retype the full rant another time...
i hope it’s okay that i reply to this, but i just wanted to say that i understand how you’re feeling. i was supposed to graduate high school in 2020, but i didn’t graduate until this past summer because due to my physical and mental health, it took me a bit longer to earn the credits and volunteer hours i needed. i turn 22 in less than 6 months, and i’m still very dependent on my parents and nowhere near ready to move out as well.
i know how bad it feels to be in a place in your life where you feel like you’re supposed to be doing something else somewhere else, especially when you compare yourself to other people your age, but that doesn’t mean you’re immature or that you’re doing things wrong. we’re all on a different journey in our lives, and not everyone will do things or finish things at the same pace, and that’s perfectly okay— you’re trying your best. you don’t have to be ready to move out or go to college right now just because other people are. it’s okay to go at a different pace.
i know you’ll get to where you want to be one day since you’re capable of amazing things, but there’s nothing wrong with where you’re at right now. you’re trying to get through grade 12 instead of giving up, and that in itself is amazing
themysterybidder
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So, Blossom is due to go back to the vet next month, she goes every 3 months, just for a weight check so they can determine which dose of tablet to give her. It's nothing serious, it's just to act as a prevention for tapeworm, etc. But, next time we've got to decide if we should get her spayed. We have no intention of breeding her for puppies, but we were against the idea of getting her spayed from day one, as we didn't want to put her through any discomfort or pain. However, the last time the vet said that next month would be the best time as she's had her first heat, and she explained what could happen if she doesn't get spayed and she could end up in emergency surgery. I know, it's a simple operation and the chances of anything going wrong are very slim, but I can't help but worry about her. I'm in my 30s and she's my first pet, so I'm very protective of her, just like any good pet owner would be. I know whatever we choose we will always think what if she had or hadn't got it done? I hate to think of her being in surgery and then her recovery. I'm tearing up even writing this, as she's sitting at my feet looking up at me. Then, she makes me smile, by trying to eat my laptop wire. 
xSuperMario64x
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just as a gentle reminder, there is no "correct" or "proper" way to progress through your life. the fact that we're here at all, living and breathing as we do, is a miracle in itself. trust me, whatever you guys are doing with your lives right now, whatever you're able to do, is perfectly fine. you're on your way to better things, you'll get to where you need to be soon enough. just go at your own pace, follow your own intuition, have some faith in yourself and your future, and everything will be okay 
there is something that's bothering me. I'm fairly positive that I have plenty of financial security for this trip, and yet I can't help but think I don't. I've always been so worried about finances, given that I grew up with a parent who was (and still is) incredibly controlling of our money and has absolutely no money management skills whatsoever. I've been having to buy a few things here and there over the last week, and I'm just so scared that I'm not gonna have enough money (even though, like I said, I'm thinking I'll have plenty, if not some extra too).
also wish I didn't have to wait another week and a half, I'm so tired of being in this house. I'm ready to take some time for myself for a little while. it's only ten more days...
also also I keep having major anxiety whenever I think about my student debt. I lowkey regret even going to college, it was a really, really stupid idea to put myself in over 20 grand of debt knowing that I'm disabled and can't even work full time. I kinda feel like an idiot honestly. it's even worse bc my dad was the one who convinced me to do it, and ofc I was a misguided teen so I said okay, why the hell not. now I'm trying to decide how the hell I'm gonna make those monthly payments and be able to live comfortably away from my parents. just trying to live on my own without that debt is gonna be hard because of the situation regarding my ability to work, and then pile a $180+ monthly bill on top of that which will only graduate more and more over ten years. I feel so stupid.
it's situations like this where I have to try incredibly hard to not hate myself; don't get me wrong, I love who I am and I wouldn't change it for anything, but I can't help but feel like I would be much less of a burden if I wasn't disabled, and could actually work normal hours like a normal person, and have a decent income. really trying to follow my own words here, I know that everything will be okay eventually. it's just making me feel so scared, honestly.
there is something that's bothering me. I'm fairly positive that I have plenty of financial security for this trip, and yet I can't help but think I don't. I've always been so worried about finances, given that I grew up with a parent who was (and still is) incredibly controlling of our money and has absolutely no money management skills whatsoever. I've been having to buy a few things here and there over the last week, and I'm just so scared that I'm not gonna have enough money (even though, like I said, I'm thinking I'll have plenty, if not some extra too).
also wish I didn't have to wait another week and a half, I'm so tired of being in this house. I'm ready to take some time for myself for a little while. it's only ten more days...
also also I keep having major anxiety whenever I think about my student debt. I lowkey regret even going to college, it was a really, really stupid idea to put myself in over 20 grand of debt knowing that I'm disabled and can't even work full time. I kinda feel like an idiot honestly. it's even worse bc my dad was the one who convinced me to do it, and ofc I was a misguided teen so I said okay, why the hell not. now I'm trying to decide how the hell I'm gonna make those monthly payments and be able to live comfortably away from my parents. just trying to live on my own without that debt is gonna be hard because of the situation regarding my ability to work, and then pile a $180+ monthly bill on top of that which will only graduate more and more over ten years. I feel so stupid.
it's situations like this where I have to try incredibly hard to not hate myself; don't get me wrong, I love who I am and I wouldn't change it for anything, but I can't help but feel like I would be much less of a burden if I wasn't disabled, and could actually work normal hours like a normal person, and have a decent income. really trying to follow my own words here, I know that everything will be okay eventually. it's just making me feel so scared, honestly.
