What's Bothering You?

[Foreverfox]

Bummed I had to reschedule my hair appointment that I had set for today because I was still testing positive for Covid as of last night. I was really looking forward to it, and was shocked my stylist still had an opening for Valentine’s day anyway.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

i hate how making phone calls makes my anxiety act up so much that I'm in tears, I really need to get this stuff situated or my mental health will never get better but it's just so difficult

 

[Kitsuragi]

I have the flu

Update on this, I don't have the flu!
Downdate on this, I have COVID ))))))))))))))))))))))))))

Ive been SO DILIGENT the entire dang pandemic, still mask & use hand-sani inside and outside, but my entire family got ravaged by C-19 because of my Dads boss (who unfortunately might not make it)

I'm just so tired.

 

[Bluelady]

The wind outside ruined Valentine’s Day for me. I was planning to make a banana split pie to share with my family, but it’s too cold and windy to drive to the market. It even broke a piece of our fence.

 

[Ravenkitty22]

The real issue is probably that I was on reddit, but damnit let me enjoy my wizarding video game in peace!

 

[Foreverfox]

Strawberry doll is cute. Strawberry doll is not mine.

 

[Midoriya]

Deleted.

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

I think one of the crackheads working at a local grocery store deli is trying to flirt with me.

 

[ali.di.magix]

Basically been cut off from the rest of the country and the rest of the world due to this cyclone. It's unsettling. It's bringing back PTSD. Just gotta keep telling myself that I'm safe, I've got shelter, food and water. Until next time when I get coverage again lmao

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Strawberry doll is cute. Strawberry doll is not mine.

big feels

Basically been cut off from the rest of the country and the rest of the world due to this cyclone. It's unsettling. It's bringing back PTSD. Just gotta keep telling myself that I'm safe, I've got shelter, food and water. Until next time when I get coverage again lmao

oh no, I know how scary those tropical storms can be. please try to stay safe and I'll keep you in my thoughts



my anxiety is really bad for no reason this morning rip

Post automatically merged: Feb 15, 2023

I just don’t feel like I can handle having a job again and still be happy with life

really feeling this, I have no idea when I'll be able to start being treated for bipolar II (cause i have to get in to see a psych and be evaluated first) but in the meantime I have no job and it's gonna be really difficult to hold down a job with mental health issues. it's difficult stuff and so many people seem to not understand

 

[nightglow]

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[Alienfish]

would be nice if the anti-virus thing could stop beeping LOL RUNNING OUT every single ****ing hour, i know and i don't even have the license lmao

 

[xSuperMario64x]

slowly gaining my weight back ugh

I know it's bc I haven't been active, and I know depression has been kicking my ass but I really need to get back into working out. maybe later today once I've eaten something I'll do some exercise.

 

[cherrytheone]

When you are closing apps and close music

 

[Alienfish]

domestic mail company (postnord): yeah we got your item in customs since yesterday afternoon
postnord: no you will never be able to pay customs lol

 

[VanitasFan26]

I'm in a very bad mood. I got into a heated argument with my mom about money problems.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

whyyyyyy do i still feel all trembly?? I've taken my anxiety med twice today and I can take it a third time before I go to bed but idk why I still feel so anxious

 

[Croconaw]

I’m disappointed in myself. I went to see a movie in a large group of friends, and again, I felt like a complete outcast. First of all, I feel like two people I’m friends with don’t really have my best interest in mind, but they talk to me. They make me feel like I’m with them. There’s me. At a movie, with two drunk out of mind minors. I’m not much of a drinker myself, but I do things like this. I was anti-smoking, meanwhile I took a vape from one of them because they said it would help relieve my stress. I just recently threw it away because I need to done, but I still think, should I really be hanging out with these people?

My favorite person was at the movie too, and I still decide to sit with those two. One person she seems really close with was there and I didn’t want to take away him sitting with her because I feel inferior. And they weren’t even sitting together. Although after the movie, he said he wishes they were. Every time I’m around those two, I feel like a third wheel. Like I’m trying to insert myself into a group where I don’t ****ing belong. I don’t know why we can’t all be friends. I know I don’t have to be friends with all of her friends, but it seems like he’s always around when I see her because he works at the store too. It really bothers me. It bothers me that he’s up her ass 24/7 following her around like a puppy dog. It makes me seem… not obsessed, which is ****ing insane because I AM THE ONE WITH BPD. If he could leave her alone for five goddamn minutes so I could say bye to her and get on my way. I had to hang around work one day for an hour and a half just to say goodbye because he would not ****ing leave her alone. It’s upsetting. Especially when the guy she’s close to plans group hangouts and I’m never invited. I always feel like an outcast, and I wish someone would include me for once in their life, and not me tagging along to a group event that was organized by my dad.

My favorite person thinks I should just talk to the guy, but I’m not being a whiny *****. I don’t want to say it upsets me when he plans group things and I’m not invited, and that I’m clearly jealous of how close he is with my favorite person and other people, and I’m just someone there. I’m someone that stands there when those two (or three, they have another close friend) are talking and I’m just wishing to be included. If I say anything, they’ll just include me because they feel bad and not because they want to. I feel like I’m not wanted.

Even in the group photo, everyone is grouped together and I’m standing literally over two feet to the left, away from everyone else like the outcast I am. I haven’t felt more left out in my life, and I’ve had several of those instances in high school.

As I’m writing this, I have a stinging sensation in my throat because of the stress over this whole thing. I feel like I’m someone I’m not when hanging around those two minors that I’m friends with, or so I think. What are the chances the alcohol is an incentive of our friendship? Very ****ing big chance. I might be hanging out with the wrong people, but they treat me nicely. They make me feel like I’m part of their group. I’m just second guessing my life decisions. Just let me cry myself to sleep tonight and wonder what tomorrow will bring.

Never thought I’d post in the “what’s bothering you” thread about a movie but here it is.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

so on Monday sometime in the afternoon I let my dog outside as usual, but when he got into the yard I heard him yelp, which he literally never does so I knew something was wrong. he was holding up his back leg and couldn't put any weight on it. my mom and I had to carry him up the stairs back onto the porch. I called the vet and made an appt for Tuesday, but then I ended up canceling it the next day bc he seemed to be okay (and he's had this issue before where he does something to his leg and then he's fine a little later on). I scheduled another appt for one of our cats in 2 days.

but then on Wednesday he had the issue again, and this time he's clearly been having trouble w it because it seems a bit stiff and he can walk on it but not very well, and he still holds it up occasionally and has trouble climbing stairs sometimes. so luckily I have the appt today I can take him to.

the worst thing is that he's 80+ lbs so when he has this leg issue it's really difficult for me to help him besides just having him lie down. I had to carry him up the stairs on our back porch by myself yesterday bc my mom is disabled and she wasn't around to help, and I'm not exactly a strong person who can just lift a dog as big as he is.

I just really hope the vet can give him some attention and help without racking up our vet bill, since we don't have much money until my dad gets paid again a week from tomorrow. and until my dog's leg is healed I have to restrict his activity, which I hate doing bc he's a golden and they are very active dogs. I worry about him being miserable/depressed bc he can't run around the yard. plus I think he's been in pain for the last day or so and idk what I can give him for it (I think baby aspirin is possible but the vet didn't tell me anything when I called a few days ago).

this whole thing has just been really stressful, on top of me trying to get in to see a psychiatrist and speaking with the job office and everything else. I'm trying really hard not to overwhelm myself with so much going on all at once

 

[deana]

Feels like I got a solid 20 minutes of sleep last night ☠