What's Bothering You?

You ever just so stressed, angry and frustrated that you go completely numb? Yeah that's me rn. All I can do is laugh at the stupidity of it all. My brains non functional, zero thoughts, head empty.
 
Aight so that person called me back and put in a prescription but it's like... how do you even forget to put it in, I'm glad it wasn't anything more crucial...
 
Why is my brain so terrible with appointments

It's either completely forget I had one and miss it, or so paranoid I literally can't sleep and barely get anything done all day, scared I might lose track of time and be late.

Worst part there is no in between
 
My dad yelled at me because I haven’t been shaving my face aside from the “peach fuzz” and he noticed my visible mustache growing. He told me to please shave it. I’m 25. He thinks it’s a phase or something. I’ve felt this way since I was very young, at least 13. I’ve just been holding it in due to the obvious backlash like this.
 
The midwife called me back and put in a prescription so I can pick it up and reschedule that appointment..glad for that but man lol.

Also idk if actually being sick is worse than having a thinner paycheck coming up lol
 
Everything, just everything, going wrong with this one project. No one wants to work with each other. Everyone's trying to screw everyone over. I think I'd be a lot more stressed about it if I weren't emotionally numb to the bullcrap going on. I've ran out of patience and energy to give a ****.
 
Why is my brain so terrible with appointments

It's either completely forget I had one and miss it, or so paranoid I literally can't sleep and barely get anything done all day, scared I might lose track of time and be late.

Worst part there is no in between
I don't know if you just wanted to vent or if you were looking for the solution - but I have two. As soon as you have an appointment:
  • (A) Write it down where you will see. Writing it on a piece of paper and sticking it on a wall you see everyday (e.g. wall near computer or coffee maker), or keeping a physical daily or weekly diary and making a point to check it as soon as you wake up every morning helps. If you make the effort to do this daily it'll eventually become routine and you'll start to do it on auto-pilot.
  • (B) Make use of alarms and notifications on your devices. Even if something is a month away, set up reminders for it immediately. E.g. today I scheduled a meeting at 10:30am on March 7th. Even though it is a month away I already have alarms and timed notifications (via Google Keep) set for March 6th and 7th to remind me where I need to be that day. If I'm worried I'll forget I'll even add one to remind me when it's 30-60 minutes before I need to leave the house with the exact time train I'm aiming to catch noted on it to ensure I make it.
Being organised will help much more than simply expecting yourself to remember dates, times, and locations.
 
^
me: *puts sticky note on computer monitor so I don't forget smth*
also me: *sticky note becomes part of scenery so I don't even pay attention to it anymore*
"ugh I forgot my appointment again"
*rinse and repeat*
I love ADHD lol


I really wish I had a rice cooker :/
 
Now he’s doing what my grandma does, lol. Just repeating the fact that I’m a girl and using she/her repeatedly, while saying my name. Also brought up the fact that he “wishes he was black so he can get reparations” but literally that’s not even the same thing.

At least I can be myself online and around someone. 🤞🏻
 
I don't know if you just wanted to vent or if you were looking for the solution - but I have two. As soon as you have an appointment:
  • (A) Write it down where you will see. Writing it on a piece of paper and sticking it on a wall you see everyday (e.g. wall near computer or coffee maker), or keeping a physical daily or weekly diary and making a point to check it as soon as you wake up every morning helps. If you make the effort to do this daily it'll eventually become routine and you'll start to do it on auto-pilot.
  • (B) Make use of alarms and notifications on your devices. Even if something is a month away, set up reminders for it immediately. E.g. today I scheduled a meeting at 10:30am on March 7th. Even though it is a month away I already have alarms and timed notifications (via Google Keep) set for March 6th and 7th to remind me where I need to be that day. If I'm worried I'll forget I'll even add one to remind me when it's 30-60 minutes before I need to leave the house with the exact time train I'm aiming to catch noted on it to ensure I make it.
Being organised will help much more than simply expecting yourself to remember dates, times, and locations.
Thank you. I'll try it and see if it works for me.
 
really don't want to post here but I need to vent.

more often than not I feel like I really don't deserve my friends. I'm unreliable and I feel like I have a tendency to be manipulative and that's just awful. I don't want others to feel bad bc of something stupid I did that wasn't any fault of their own. I just don't deserve them.


idk I'm just so tired of everything. tired of my life. I really am. ugh. I need to get better and just when I think I'm getting better I get worse again. it's never ending.
 

Hey, just wanted to say I'm sorry you're feeling this way. I can definitely relate with regards to feeling like I don't deserve my friends at times. I just have to remind myself that they're my friends for a reason, because they care about me, and that as long as I treat them well they'll continue to be friends with me. I hope you feel better soon, Bug. 💙
 
I somehow ended up scrolling through someone's page who has PCOS. They're the same size as me, but my god their skin is so nice compared to mine. No acne scarring and minimal hair apart from facial hair. I'm lucky that facial hair isn't really a problem for me, as long as I'm on medication for it. I just wish that a doctor or someone had noticed how bad my acne was when I was younger (like around 13-14) and had put me on some medication or treatment that would have minimised my acne, and hence stopped some of the scarring 😔 At the time I just thought it was the normal woes of puberty and there was nothing to do about it, but PCOS had a clear influence on my acne. My dream would be to get laser hair removal and intense acne scar treatment but that costs 💸
 
I wasn't really feeling nervous about my job interview until now - the night before. I just really hope that no one suspects a thing when I leave the office for an hour lmao
 
Had to book a time as early as tomorrow at the clinic for a midwife to give me the shot... next time weren't available until the 22nd so better grab it. Hope my co-workers will be alright.

Also I really hate this online store, on the german version it says you can pay with credit card, but on the english one it says you cannot? Wtf?!
 
really trying not to post here as much but
there’s this girl i sit with at lunch and i have no idea how to talk to her. i’ve been sitting with her since september but we’ve only had two conversations that she started since then. i always say hi and a few days ago i asked how was her weekend but she replied “it was good” and we didn’t talk after that. i know i can’t make her like me but i know im not doing enough to converse with her, but she always has her air pods on when i get to our table and doesn’t look like she wants to talk.

i’ve seen her talk to a boy in my class, and they’re always laughing about something. they probably have been acquaintances since middle school (i go to a k-12). she has probably moved on from me but this time it doesn’t bother me as much bc this has happened to me many times before.

im honestly jealous of people who can be themselves. i don’t know how y’all do it, it kind of makes me mad to see people enjoying themselves while i live in my head. when im in public without my parents i get tense and im like a personality-less shell of myself. idk what’s wrong with me.
 
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