What's Bothering You?

[KittenNoir]

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[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler

I know this is really stupid and just a product of jealousy, but I don't like seeing other trans ppl be comfortable in their bodies bc they were able to have surgery/s done, bc it just reminds me that I'm not and prob won't be for a very long time. like I'm happy for them but just seeing them makes me want to cry.

 

[Croconaw]

Spoiler: hate / transphobia

Got into an argument with my dad about transgenders. He said he can “identify as an African American and it doesn’t make it true, but in our minds he should get special treatment since he identifies as black.” It doesn’t make any sense. This is the reason I’ve held it in. I didn’t tell anybody. I’ve only told my favorite person but she has to use she/her pronouns with me at work because my dad works there and I’m not out there either. I hate not feeling like I can be myself.

 

[Clock]

I can't sleep at all, I'm too sensitive to temperatures

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler: hate / transphobia

Got into an argument with my dad about transgenders. He said he can “identify as an African American and it doesn’t make it true, but in our minds he should get special treatment since he identifies as black.” It doesn’t make any sense. This is the reason I’ve held it in. I didn’t tell anybody. I’ve only told my favorite person but she has to use she/her pronouns with me at work because my dad works there and I’m not out there either. I hate not feeling like I can be myself.

Spoiler

with that logic I could say that he's a woman and because I believe it to be true then it must be true. just because he believes you're cisgender doesn't mean you are. stupidest ****ing logic ever.

also I apologize if you don't want me to reply to your posts. but I really do get where you're coming from, I deal with transphobia all the time (especially since I live in a pretty backward part of Ohio).

I saw a post in my fb memories abt my late cat Xander, I miss him so much

 

[Croconaw]

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It’s fine you’re replying to me! I’m glad someone understands where I’m coming from. It just sucks that I’m literally 25 and I’m still in the closet because I’m not able to move away just yet. I want to start living as trans in a new area where nobody knows me but it feels like it’d be too late at that point. I want to start T eventually but that definitely won’t be for another two or three years.

After the fact though, I will be hesitant to keep in contact with family because my voice will definitely change on T and yeah.., that’s a bridge I’ll cross when I come to it.

 

[Firesquids]

For-profit Healthcare.

 

[ali.di.magix]

I feel like my job is turning me into an absolute *****. These past couple of weeks I've been so direct, straight to the point, no bull****. I've been frustrated with my staff this week, and I usually never get angry with them.

I don't know if I'm being rude (bc I can't read the room), over reacting or maybe it's because I've never spoken to my manager about my true feelings before. Maybe I've created such an aura that I'm calm and collected, but now my true colors are showing. And it feels kinda good?? It feels like I have some sort of control over things?? Is the power going to my head?? Am I turning into a *****??

It's getting to the point at work where I know where I stand in regards to my experience and relations with staff/clients/suppliers. I've made so much progress and I don't want to lose it when I change departments.

 

[skarmoury]

A piece of my funko pop broke off because I dropped it T T i swear these figures need to come with bases

 

[xSuperMario64x]

I need to get up and actually start doing stuff but it's so cold in this bedroom :,,,,,,)
I'm just praying that I can get moving at all, yesterday I was tired for the entire day and I don't want a repeat of that.

 

[Neb]

The voices haven't been talking to me for a few days which is good, but I have to keep reminding myself every hour or so that what they say isn't true and that no one is interfering with my social life. Just a few more days and I can finally get real intensive therapy. I'll finally be able to become a better person. No more staring habit, no more scaring friends off, and no more being reminded of my past mistakes...

 

[VanitasFan26]

Trying to take care of older parents is like babysitting 5 year olds. Its been driving me crazy.

 

[Lady Timpani]

It’s fine you’re replying to me! I’m glad someone understands where I’m coming from. It just sucks that I’m literally 25 and I’m still in the closet because I’m not able to move away just yet. I want to start living as trans in a new area where nobody knows me but it feels like it’d be too late at that point. I want to start T eventually but that definitely won’t be for another two or three years.

After the fact though, I will be hesitant to keep in contact with family because my voice will definitely change on T and yeah.., that’s a bridge I’ll cross when I come to it.

I'm cis but it's definitely never too late to start transitioning; my friend started T when they were about 24 and it's done a lot of good for them, although they're no longer using it because they got what they wanted out of it (mostly just voice deepening). I hope you're able to start your transition at some point and in a safe way.

 

[ali.di.magix]

Not me thinking I'd be all good to go for a quick swim in the ocean when it's hot without sunscreen on...and getting absolutely burnt to a crisp

 

[-Mars-]

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[Alienfish]

My ob/gyn messed up and didn't put in the prescription for my jab(depo-provera birth control stuff lol nothing else) so I couldn't pick it up at the pharmacy jesus. Like I'm supposed to get it on tuesday and if I can't pick it up by then I'm toast. And the ob/gyn clinic was closed friday afternoon so I couldn't call them or her either sigh. Hope I can solve it.

On a less serious note WHY is com day in Pogo on sunday, tomorrow, instead of today????? **** it, i don't have time tomorrow -_-

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler: sickly woes

been having a horrible night. I must be allergic to a particular food bc this is the third time it's happened (not on consecutive nights either, abt the third time in a month), only this time it's worse than ever.

ever since 12:30 midnight I've been feeling dizzy and really nauseated and sick to my stomach. I was in the bathroom for about an hour before I puked. I started to feel better after that but around 3am i was woken up with that nasty feeling again, and it's now almost 6am and it's still there. I'm afraid to get up bc I don't want to feel dizzy again. I literally almost passed out a few hours ago and it was a terrifying feeling. I've also been getting chills super easily cause it's already cold in this room (about 62-64°F).

I almost wonder if I should go to the hospital. I can't deal with this. if it happens again I'm gonna go cause I need to get it figured out. ig I'll just lie in bed today feeling all icky

 

[Alienfish]

Got some really bad allergy sneeze this morning.. feeling better now but it went down my throat so feeling rather **** right now. Been trying to take away strong smelling stuff and cleaned out all dust + hung out stuff i can't wash like my wool blanket etc. but it's really annoying esp. since my mom could just have taken away all perfume stuff too like those yucky candles -_-

 

[Foreverfox]

My son has Covid again and I have no idea how. At least he's not as sick as he was the first time he got it.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

Spoiler: sickly woes

been having a horrible night. I must be allergic to a particular food bc this is the third time it's happened (not on consecutive nights either, abt the third time in a month), only this time it's worse than ever.

ever since 12:30 midnight I've been feeling dizzy and really nauseated and sick to my stomach. I was in the bathroom for about an hour before I puked. I started to feel better after that but around 3am i was woken up with that nasty feeling again, and it's now almost 6am and it's still there. I'm afraid to get up bc I don't want to feel dizzy again. I literally almost passed out a few hours ago and it was a terrifying feeling. I've also been getting chills super easily cause it's already cold in this room (about 62-64°F).

I almost wonder if I should go to the hospital. I can't deal with this. if it happens again I'm gonna go cause I need to get it figured out. ig I'll just lie in bed today feeling all icky

update on this, I think I've come down with something bc I've had a fever all night and day so far (currently 99.4°F when it normally sits around 97.4°), luckily my nausea went away finally but I still feel sick to my stomach, and I'm having body aches and a sinus headache. I feel a bit better than I did but still not great so I'm basically bed-ridden for today, which sucks bc my mom depends on me for quite a lot.

hopefully whatever this is goes away soon. I'm honestly surprised, it came on pretty quickly last night and the last few times it only lasted for an hour or so, but this time it's been over 13 hours already.