What's Bothering You?

For some reason I don't respond to yelling.

I had a lesson with a driving instructor today. It was two hours long and that basically means something was going to happen. In this case I misunderstood her instructions on a turn.

She begins to yell at me and whatever she's saying is suddenly not being processed anymore. (I'm now flustered from the angry tone and not hearing the actual words coming out of her mouth). Saying things clearly to me works better.

Otherwise it was fine and she was polite enough. I just have a tendency to shut myself off when somebody does that.
 
My uncle probably only has a few weeks left before he dies. He's deteriorating rapidly and he probably won't be able to marry his fiance in time. There's supposed to be an offer for his malpractice lawsuit by the end of next month, but he probably won't be alive to benefit from it if we win. I hope the hospital makes a settlement while my uncle is still alive instead of putting our case to trial so he can see justice be served for their negligence. This whole thing feels like a soap opera. I can't do anything about it other than spend as much time with my uncle as possible and wait it out.
 
I haven't been able to get decent sleep for like over a week now, I keep waking up in the middle of the night (or before then) and being unable to fall back asleep. If it wasn't for my morning coffee I would barely be able to function during the day. I just want to go to bed and stay in bed for once cause I'm so tired of not being able to sleep when I actually really need it.
 
Made this in canva not even a minute ago (stock image), because I am tired of waking up to phone calls, and in the end this is main bloody conversation she has to keep getting an answer from me.

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Hell, maybe one day I might actually write this book.

The fact I say 'I don't know' what my sexuality is, or that when she keeps saying things like 'when you see an attractive guy/girl do you think he's hot scenrio' and I say 'don't know.' She doesn't like hearing me say 'I don't know'
When I try and say I wanna focus on looking for a career instead of someone or something like that is adnormal to her.
I haven't been in love or looked or tried to go on a date is weird and keeps asking me why I don't look.
Mum isn't going to be around forever, you're stuck in this bubble where you stay in home, in bed, playing games etc you need someone to support you etc
You remember when you said you wanted ten children YES WHEN I WAS BLOODY FIVE YEARS OLD WHY DO YOU KEEP BRINGING THIS UP

I think once, not today, but once I said sure I see someone attractive, I guess? but that doesn't mean I want to go all the way with them. Since she still asks this means this answer wasn't good to her.

I think is the main reason I don't like answering my sister at this time, because it always goes to this subject.
Because then it goes to how I should just struggle with a job I don't like because the job I want isn't out there, art jobs etc etc aren't out there, or you never get them so

My gawd I am so late to work now.
I get up early so I have a bit of time to myself but didn't happen this time around.

*Edit: my apologies about old image, I was super fustrated and wasn't thinking properly.
 
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accidentally broke one of the zippers on my bag when attaching a new keychain that got stuck. i think i'm just going to replace the bag since it's not particularly expensive, and mine is kind of dirty anyway because of the office floor at work. (couldn't get the stains out last time i tried lol since it's beige/white.) still pretty annoying though.
 
Just a small thing. I'm sad Pocket Camp ended. I'm going to get Complete, but this version is one that I played with my mom until she passed. I gave kudos to her picture every day. I know her Nintendo account, so I'll transfer her over so I can still see her....but the memories on that game.... :") Sad to see it end....
 
I feel this urge to play the most popular nintendo switch games and watch the most popular tv shows, anime, movies, etc because I see that my friends are doing it and I have this fear of missing out.

Some of my interests as far as media goes are niche or obscure, and it makes me feel even more alone, knowing there's just about little to nobody that I know who shares some of those same interests as me.
 
I need to stop looking forward to my day offs and early shifts. 🫠 There's always a coworker missing or leaving early for one reason or another, and I'm the first person my manager asks for overtime/another shift because she knows I'll say yes (though reluctantly). I'm a bit worried I'll appear unreliable if I refuse, but I just want a damn break. **** this job.
 
My dad made fun of me a bit at dinner and it honestly killed my mood and my mood continues to go downhill. And he keeps doing stuff that I don’t like that I keep telling him to stop doing like telling my cats run from me. He is joking but I don’t think it is funny at all. My cats are my comfort so telling them to run from me is like saying he doesn’t want me to be happy.

I’m working on my drawing and saw part of it was colored wrong. I’m having trouble find the right layers since I have so many. idk how I got the color wrong. did i accidentally color over what I had before or something? I’m kinda upset and annoyed about this.

Edit: I made some unhid some layers that I turned off and i think the colors look right now? Idk, I’m so confused. the layers I had hid shouldn’t have affected how the colors looked 🤔
 
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My fears were confirmed. My girlfriend's decided she doesn't like keeping cats. One of them is actually hers too. :(

I do 95% of the work with them and she's still paying towards their needs, so not a bother. If she ever suggests rehoming though I'm rehoming me too. If she wants me to take her cat as well, I will. But she is not seperating me from Sebastian.
 
I'm pretty disgusted with the company that had me do that seven day training of retail and hospitality; due to the fact that I did not get n interview out of this like promised.
The training was before the interview, which the interview was last Thursday; which due to the time they decided my interview should be, I couldn't do. I told them this two days before Thursday (because for somereason they wouldn't give me details beforehand which is crazy if you want me to research the company and I can't because of how long the training each day was and the travel home), and they told me that's fine, as another girl couldn't do it either and said they will arrange something for next week which was this week.
They said they would let me know. So okay I'll wait, as you can see it's Friday, and they did not communicate with me, despite the fact the interview time they decided was afternoon.

I sent someone a message via whatsapp today stating that I did not receive anything, and they left it on read. Cool.
welp, when I have my UC meeting on Monday, I will show everything and share everything. You can't stick me on a training thing and nothing becomes of it.
I'm not mad about not getting a chance at whatever job this was, I'm mad that they lead me to believe I would get something out of this. Wasted my time, UC money wasted to travel there.
 
I'm pretty disgusted with the company that had me do that seven day training of retail and hospitality; due to the fact that I did not get n interview out of this like promised.
The training was before the interview, which the interview was last Thursday; which due to the time they decided my interview should be, I couldn't do. I told them this two days before Thursday (because for somereason they wouldn't give me details beforehand which is crazy if you want me to research the company and I can't because of how long the training each day was and the travel home), and they told me that's fine, as another girl couldn't do it either and said they will arrange something for next week which was this week.
They said they would let me know. So okay I'll wait, as you can see it's Friday, and they did not communicate with me, despite the fact the interview time they decided was afternoon.

I sent someone a message via whatsapp today stating that I did not receive anything, and they left it on read. Cool.
welp, when I have my UC meeting on Monday, I will show everything and share everything. You can't stick me on a training thing and nothing becomes of it.
I'm not mad about not getting a chance at whatever job this was, I'm mad that they lead me to believe I would get something out of this. Wasted my time, UC money wasted to travel there.
Give them a call. Phone is always better than email/text in these scenarios.

Have they paid you for the 7 days training? If not, inform UC.
 
Give them a call. Phone is always better than email/text in these scenarios.

Have they paid you for the 7 days training? If not, inform UC.
This was a non paid training. UC had to give me money to travel there.
I will let them know, and I'll try and find another person's number as I rather not verbally call the last person I was talking to. Thanks.
 
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