What's Bothering You?

[ZeldaCrossing64]

I am beyond frustrated with my brother. That ******* never listens to me, and it's a little embarrassing having to chastise him in front of our family, especially since I tend to lose my cool. I got into a heated argument with him and our uncle had to tell us to stop fighting. :\ It's bad enough that we have twice the cleaning to do, but my brother is doing everything he can to have less work (giving me more in turn). This irks me, beyond belief.

Aside from that, I'm still not eating and sleeping well. At all. I feel like I'm not spending enough time with the people around me. Can't get my college affairs in order because one of the workers I emailed hasn't responded in a month, and I still need my documents. I keep thinking/dreaming about school and my mom, which just further distresses me. Why can't I just have pleasant thoughts?

I just have a lot on my mind. I want to do more with myself, but I feel too burnt out and overwhelmed. Kinda funny to say when I don't have to worry about more "adult" stuff, like taxes or jobs...

 

[SkyKnight03]

I was recalling a time as a child when my uncle would repeatedly teasing me about having long hair. He would phrase it as "Are you a girl"? "Are you sure you aren't"? Also I have an unusually heavy blue eye color. Giving him more fuel.

I understand it was only meant to be light teasing. It's important to remember that children can remember things you tell them. Because I'm still self conscious about letting my hair grow out even as an adult.

Actually, one of the photos I posted in 'What Do You Look Like' was me with as a child long hair. My first thought after I posted was feeling it looked too feminine. That I would be teased.

Spoiler: The photo specified

I've felt that being able to post this photo meant that I'm finally overcoming that long term insecurity. Recently, I even let my hair grow out a little longer again as an adult.

 

[Reginald Fairfield]

They let a coworker come back that makes me want to have a stiff drink.

 

[Suguri]

Edit: Doing fine now :D

 

[Chris]

Gone now.

 

[spawnpoint]

i just had a panic attack over the most stupid thing ever oh my goddd

 

[Yoshi155]

Super petty even by the standards of what I usually post here, but here goes.

It’s about that driver’s manual that I keep talking about having to read. Today I decided to actually sit down and read it, and then I realized how long this is, and how I have to memorize everything. I’m apparently going to take the test in December, which is a lot of time, but I really don’t want to do this. My older sister took the test last year and failed, and my parents got really pissed off at her when that happened. I don’t want that to happen to me because I know exactly what they’re going to say. I’m just kind of scared right now.

 

[Foreverfox]

Spoiler: pet illness

My 15 year old cat Burger is not doing well. he has a massive abscess in his mouth and is not a great candidate for surgery because of his age and slightly elevated kidney levels. His vet said two weeks ago that he can say with certainty that he is in constant extreme pain. We tried a 2 week antibiotic but it didn’t do anything.

 

[Romaki]

Why is my ex-boyfriend the only one congratulating me on my birthday and not the people who should be my friends.

 

[themysterybidder]

Spoiler: Feeling emotional

Feeling mentally drained. My eyes feel so tired and early this morning I burst into tears thinking about my Mum. I couldn't stop. Luckily, no-one was up to see. I miss her so much everyday, but I haven’t cried like that for several months. It’s as if I can go along and then every so often the floodgates open. What I wouldn’t give to tell her how much I love her one more time.

 

[Tindre]

Im probabky just anxious from too much caffeine but today all my negative thoughts are winning

 

[Snap Crackle Pop]

My back pain went away for a little while but now it is back and I am uncomfortable. I don't really know what I am doing that is making my back pain return after slowly going away. I'm trying to rest it, stretch, heat and then ice it to see if that makes it better.

 

[Kitsuragi]

Edit: UGH WHATEVER IM OVER IT

 

[xSuperMario64x]

^ that's why I don't do commissions. I would require a payment after a sketch for security reasons, but I am so inconsistent with my art churnout and I'd feel incredibly guilty if I took someone's money and couldn't finish a commission in a timely manner. I'm still haunted by a commission I couldn't even start almost a year ago, thankfully I didn't receive any payment for it since I couldn't even do the sketch.


I feel really tired right now. not sleepy at all, just tired. it's been so slow here. I still have over an hour left on my shift and I wish it would hurry up.

 

[spawnpoint]

im so sick of having to run into the bathroom to cry EVERY day for the past few weeks because I can't keep my composure in front of my family

 

[Dunquixote]

Spoiler: trivial stuff and depression

I was really looking forward to the fair after tbtwc but right now I’m not so sure. My depression has been really bad this week. It has been harder to get myself to do anything and stay awake; I keep having triggering dreams.

Today my mom brought up divorcing my dad again. I’m fed up with how my dad treats us but at the same time i don’t want this. If she did this, I wish it had been years back and not now.

Right now I’m feeling like I’m at my limit.

 

[Croconaw]

My extraction stitches are so bothersome right now. They’re so loose and it seems they’re ready to come out (they’re supposed to come out on their own, btw) but I don’t want to mess with them yet.

 

[ribbitribbon]

i’m so stressed out i ordered 8 little drawings of my ocs and now asked for changes on four of them (they’re done not in a wip state), i then went to tip the person for the inconvenience but accidentally applied a shop coupon to it;; i can’t even look at my phone notifications i’m scared of their response

 

[Neb]

I did something really stupid. After being ignored by someone for three months when I asked about why he unfriended me on Discord I asked his friend and they wrote a message with him behind my back. What I got was that he never wanted to accept my friend request in the first place and only did because Discord notifies people if they accepted. He went to the point and said not everyone is going to be my friend and that not everyone needs to be. He gets uncomfortable whenever he sees me typing at the same time as him because I supposedly idolize him for having higher functioning autism than me and that I copy him and everyone else on the server. He then said just message again if something arises between us.

I called him out for being nasty and that I'm a good person. He said he never wrote with any malice and to not message him again to avoid further misunderstanding. I wish I could report him to the mods for his blatant ableism, but I know he and the friend he devised this message with are super popular and I'll get shut down just like the last time I called his friend out by the mods. I blocked him and his friend and muted the server we're on. Honestly they're both terrible and I should've done it sooner. They bully another guy on the server often and have said a good amount of rude things to people on there. The only reason I didn't leave the server altogether is because I have several friends on there.

Ugh I feel like garbage.

 

[ali.di.magix]

Muscle spasms and cramping in my lower back are killing me all of my muscles from the waist down are weak af and no matter how I've tried to strengthen them it just does not work lol