What's Bothering You?

Trying to think about what you would do in scary situations like this is wise, but there’s really no way for you to truly prepare or know what you would do until you’re actually in said situation unfortunately. It’s scary how quickly situations like this can happen, but you did the best you can, and handled it the best you can. You acted quickly and were as prepared as you could be. Blossom’s safe, and you’re safe, and that’s all that matters!

It’s definitely wise to be cautious of dogs you don’t know. Sometimes it’s easy to read their body language and know whether to stay away or to keep an eye on them, but sometimes you just don’t know until something’s happened. It’s not your fault, and it’s not the dog’s fault either! I’m a big believer that there’s no such thing as a bad dog, only bad owners as well.

I’m glad Blossom has been giving you plenty of kisses! You definitely deserve them for being such a good mom and keeping your baby safe. 🫂 Make sure to keep the area clean though, and take care of you and your girl! Sending love 💜
 
Some health issues of mine are making me miserable again. I just cannot relax. I've also been told I have to go visit family on Sunday and I kinda doubt I will be feeling any better by then. Definitely dreading that. I don't remember enjoying any of my last visits, anyway.
 
So i finished one part of my assessment, and it was resubmitted back to me, saying that I used AI????? And if this is really my writing for another question?? 🙃🙃

Umm, I've only been using the pdf workbook, and I thought it was supposed to be detailed?
I swear I remember it saying somewhere that I should answer the questions as if I am telling a person who has no idea about anything I am saying, so why can't I be as describtive?

I still have SO many questions to finish in four days, and im just wondering how these questions will be sent back to me, like I don't understand. I don't, I don't get it. I feel so stuck right now.
I wanna continue with the questions I am on, because screw it, but I feel so stuck.

Oh, and I said i'll so two hours of work tomorrow, because they need help, and I said fine. 🙃 I wasn't even scheduled to come in
 
I just found out my mom went to starbucks. I’ve told her so many times about them and other places like Mcdonald’s who are on the BDS list, and other companies like Disney/Marvel/Squishmallows. I know it’s her money, but she feels the same way about the genocide. I can’t help but feel like she has no right to talk about being bothered by the genocide when she isn’t trying to avoid the companies that she can.
 
I'll wrap this in a spoiler. Involves tragedy. (probably won't speak of it anymore, but something on my mind).

Our local cemetery owners are notorious for taking stuff from graves. One grave they've left alone is a girl who was killed at our school. I was a senior and we were graduating in 3 months. They were also holding prom for all students. On her grave are some childhood toys and what I presume was going to be her prom outfit. It's full of decorations.

I'm glad they have the decency not to bother her stuff. I told my mom this, but they would have to stoop low to touch anything on that grave.

I didn't know her personally. (maybe I passed her in the lunchroom). But she's not buried far from my dad, so I pay respects during visits. She was only a year younger than me and would have graduated by now.

I was thinking about the families today. It must be so hard to deal with.
 
waaaa my allergies have been flaring up again!!!!
yesterday i woke up to my left eye being swollen (not so much but enough where i could see the puffiness in my peripheral... if that makes sense??) and the area just around it has been pinkish for a week now ;n; another thing that's been bugging me is specifically my right ring finger, the area right below where my nailbed ends. i'm not sure what it is, i don't think it's water blisters because it's just textured?? idk!!

today i went to my bestie, my family physician, and she gave me reactin, eye cream, eye drops, another rash cream for my finger and i'm just realllllly hoping it can calm it down or it goes away because i am sick!! and tired!!! of these weird skin reactions <3
also a little peeved because the doctor won't really elaborate further as to what it is other than allergies but if it gets annnny more severe then i'll ask her about a dermatologist because wowie i would like some answers 👉👈
 
I was in a great mood for a bit today, but that quickly got crushed. There's always some idiot who has to ruin your entire ****ing day.

Anyway, I'm just super pissed off right now. I lost my cool while arguing with my brother earlier because I am so frustrated with him and his attitude. Why can't he be a good sibling and listen to me, understand when I'm feeling upset, and not push my buttons for the hell of it? Ugh.
 
My switch lite is no longer charging; it is at 20%. I don’t know if that is enough to last to transfer my data when I get a new switch. My charger has been falling out for awhile now but it still was working. Idk what to do. My mom is asleep now so i can’t tell her about it now and kinda awkward because of the thing I posted earlier. Even when I get the new switch, Idk if plugging in a new charger will charge it since idk if it is the charger or the switch, or both. I really hoped to use my switch lite still since I was thinking of getting the animal crossing switch bundle . I fell asleep earlier so I’m not tired now. Not sure what to do now :/ I’m so pissed. The joycon drift has been getting worst and now this happened :/.

I’m so anxious about this. Now, Idk if I should even bother with the animal crossing bundle if my switch lite isn’t charging :/.
 
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Anxiety issues. Every time I think happy thoughts when trying to sleep, I immediately go back to a negative or stressful thought (like the fear of having bad dreams). This is why I’m having a hard time sleeping.

And I hate having a hard time sleeping when I’m spending the night away from home.
 
I think I might take a hiatus, my dearest friend is very distressed and I'm so worried about him. on top of all the other bs I'm dealing with. I don't think I have the energy to worry about anything else right now, I'm not getting any enjoying out of being here at the moment. I need to focus my energy on more productive and healing things.
 
Been on call with a few American friends and I struggle speaking English so much it's making me feel pathetic.
Writing it is easy, been doing it for years. But speaking and being spontaneous? That's a completely different skill and not having it makes me feel stupid.
 
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