What's Bothering You?

[Giddy]

So I was writing my assessment questions in a doc because I worry abour grammar and spelling sometimes, and I was abut to copy andpast it into the assessment siteand realised it won't let me paste...
meaning I have to type it all AGAIN that is insane.
I might need toemail my teacher, because this stresses me out. Because the box I was trying to put it into has no spelling check or anything so I ahve to do it via the doc but now I have to type it all over again each time!!
Theres like seven questions in this first assessment but the second one is SO long. omg. Imight try and write the other answers first before doing that. but omg.

Another thing thats been bothering me longer is Amazon. I have no way of getting back into my account because the phone number on there is old. But I get no other help from their support. And I really dont want to make another account. Guess Amazon is off the list of buying stuff there then.

 

[rosetti]

Depression has firmly taken hold. I am so deeply tired, the kind of tired that sleep doesn't fix.
I wish I could just temporarily turn everything off.

came here to describe exactly this, but we’ll get through this together

 

[Clock]

Having some anxiety about my next term in 2 days, idk if im ready.

 

[Zane]

I’m playing a new seasonal character on Diablo 3 and I cannot for the life of me get the royal ring of grandeur this is the most Act I bounties I’ve ever farmed in my life and that’s saying something

 

[xSuperMario64x]

he already posted about it in here last night, but I'm just worried about Shell. he's struggling so much right now and I'm doing whatever I can to help, but it's so difficult

edit: I think he will be okay, I'm relieved

 

[Xara]

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[Roxxy]

Depression has firmly taken hold. I am so deeply tired, the kind of tired that sleep doesn't fix.
I wish I could just temporarily turn everything off.

Oh dear friend I am so sorry I don’t normally post here but honestly you just spoke to my heart. Life needs an off switch

 

[Croconaw]

-snip-

Spoiler: don't read this unless you want advice

It's easy for someone to say things, but it's another thing to back it up with actions. As someone that's heavily influenced by just words, I learned that the hard way. In friendships specifically, I tend to give more effort than the other person and end up disappointed, convincing myself that the other person just doesn't care simply because I care too much. Friendships don't have to be completely equal, but if you feel there's a lack of effort, maybe it's time to end things. Additionally, cutting ties (platonic or not) may be the for the best.

If two people - in this case, you and him - aren't in the best place mental health wise, you should be taking a break from each other at the very least. From your post, I can see you're trying to justify the reasons he either wasn't there or even the things he said. There's no reason to be walking on eggshells with someone you are friends with, and especially not someone you are dating. Sometimes people change and are no longer compatible as friends, and that is okay. I learned that friendships can't be forced. That's how you wind up hurt or with the wrong people.

I don't know the nature of your relationship with him and I'm simply going by this specific post and the few other posts I've seen regarding your relationship (like in the "what are you happy about" thread) with him. It feels like you've been trying to force something that just wasn't there. Maybe your friendship was going south and you thought a relationship would repair everything, but now that things haven't improved at all you're simply left wondering where it all went wrong.

It also seems like you're staying in a situation you know isn't the best because it's comfortable for you. You don't want to mess things up for you two or be the reason it ends up not working out, but I can guarantee you that things won't get better if you let things continue as they are right now.

Also, don't feel bad for cutting ties with anyone because you ultimately have to do what's best for you!

It's better to work on yourself first instead of waiting for someone to come along and complete you. Your partner should be a contribution to your happiness and not the sole reason for your happiness. The right person will come along when you're ready and maybe it is this person, or a different person entirely. Either way, you'll find your happiness when it's the right time. Sometimes you have to leave an okay situation for a better situation. Wait for things to get better with the wrong person and you'll be waiting forever!

 

[Firesquids]

came here to describe exactly this, but we’ll get through this together

Oh dear friend I am so sorry I don’t normally post here but honestly you just spoke to my heart. Life needs an off switch

Thanks you guys. I'm doing okay, it's just been a lot. Mental health (and health in general) is hard.
After I posted I was worried it might be too much, but I'm glad I've left it, because that's exactly how depression feels. But we will see brighter days.

 

[boring]

Spoiler

'just move on already, by being upset you let him win!' haha .......... why would u say that... (the he in question gave me ptsd and anger issues)

 

[-Raven-]

Having trouble keeping up with people. Actually realised as well that I missed the deadline to buy any extra flowers I wanted but that’s okay.

Maladaptive daydreaming again after a long time, putting my energy in that one guy was a huge mistake.
God please have me never fall for someone like that again. May there be no more love bombing in my life.

 

[Doo]

Minor but I bought a game and got sick so I couldn’t play it. In the meantime, my sister got the same game and now she’s spoiling it. Just feels a bit rubbish lol

 

[ribbitribbon]

i’m just in a bad place rn everyone has been giving me grief today and insulting me and my mental health feels crappy as hell

 

[Mimi Cheems]

I have had the WORST week. My FP kind of left me, kind of didn't. Said we needed space and time away.
We keep texting. I don't know if that makes it worse, or better at this point.

I hate having BPD because I constantly feel like I cannot live without him. It makes me feel weak. I don't feel strong. Every time I get my head out of the water to surface level, I'm immediately pushed back into the water. I miss him. My heart hurts so much. I don't know if I'll ever be the same, or if I'll ever love again. I originally didn't want to post anything, but I really have nowhere else to go.. I don't have a whole bunch of friends who can relate, or can comfort me the way I need right now. I know I need to focus on myself, I know I need to take care of myself and not focus on my FP/my ex-bf(...? this is so hard for me to say).

Spoiler: more venting

A lot of people have enabled my behaviors, including him. But.. I'm just..so tired.. I'm so tired of feeling this way. I need to get a job, I need to go back to school. I need to forget about him and let go.. but it's too hard for me right now. I want to hold onto him and never let go. I almost got pink-slipped twice in the past week at my psychiatrist and counseling appointments. I really REALLY don't wanna go back to the hospital. I will lose my mind.. I can get over this, I can get over this.

I don't know if I can do this alone..

 

[AlyssaAC]

My dad picked up a cold from a coworker this past week and it’s now turned into bronchitis and now I have the cold too. So I’m laying here in bed trying to do my best…

 

[jiny]

i’ve felt very drained and sad lately idk what to do to stop it

 

[Bruscoe]

Spoiler: College Tuition

So, if some college athletes can get paid, how about I get paid to learn useful information that I can apply for future jobs? I may not be fully understanding the concept of this whole “image and likeness” thing, but in my mind, it seems unfair that struggling students who are trying to get a low-key education spend close to three decades paying off a loan, and many can’t even move out of their parents’ house after graduating and getting hired. Meanwhile, some athletes have it incredibly easy. I know not everyone is getting Clark money, but it still bothers me that being physically gifted can get you through college “rent free” essentially.

Tuition in general is really turning me off from going back to school. I’m not going to spend over $1,000 a month for 30 years for a degree that I may not even use. I’m already a victim of dropping out of college super early and facing the financial consequences. That’s why I hate the big schools so much.

 

[-Mars-]

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[Beanz]

i lowkey regret not getting jaw surgery when i had the option. i look in the mirror sometimes and i think to myself “damn it really IS that bad.” i know it’s trivial but it makes me so self conscious, i look like a fricking simpsons character from the side.

 

[ShawnFuzz]

You all have real worries. I have something so small, that it is insignificant by comparison, but my problem makes me want to either run away, or stab something sharp into my ear drums.

I seriously can't handle people who chew with their mouths open and make smacking or slurping noises.

I don't know how to deal with noisy eaters. I don't think there is anything that can be said without hurting someone's feelings, or getting laughed at for pointing it out.