What's Bothering You?
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If any red colored liquid comes out of my nose again in the next 6 months I'm going to turn aggressive.
Also, it's one of those weekly days when my digestive system does not agree with me. Of course, they're only ever on school days and not a day when I have time to use the bathroom, because why would it ever be? Anyway, I think I should exit off this site before the urge to **** my pants comes back.
Also, it's one of those weekly days when my digestive system does not agree with me. Of course, they're only ever on school days and not a day when I have time to use the bathroom, because why would it ever be? Anyway, I think I should exit off this site before the urge to **** my pants comes back.
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
I hate being the odd one out.
xSuperMario64x
love of my life 💙💜
I always try to be a good person, but sometimes I make mistakes that really hurt people and it's heartbreaking. I obviously would never intentionally hurt my friends, but even so it's incredibly difficult for me to forgive myself when I do hurt them. I want people to feel safe around me, I don't want them to feel scared that I might hurt them again. I want them to know that, even if I do unintentionally hurt them, I will always own up to it and swear to be a better person, because my friends deserve to have someone like that in their life and I want to be that person for them. I want to earn their trust and I want them to know just how very much I love them. 
making mistakes is part of the human experience, but giving myself the benefit of the doubt, I think it takes a really kind and gentle soul to empathize with the heartache those mistakes may have caused, so much so that it hurts them as well. I am genuinely sorry to anyone whom I may have hurt or wronged in the past. I feel your pain. my heart goes out to you, dear and precious souls
making mistakes is part of the human experience, but giving myself the benefit of the doubt, I think it takes a really kind and gentle soul to empathize with the heartache those mistakes may have caused, so much so that it hurts them as well. I am genuinely sorry to anyone whom I may have hurt or wronged in the past. I feel your pain. my heart goes out to you, dear and precious souls
Most people will have had a bad experience on here at some point. Whether that be a fight with a friend, feeling betrayed, a trade gone awry, accidentally upsetting a dozen strangers, receiving a warning, etc. I can tell you every staff member has certainly felt it at some point. But we learn from these situations and we move on. You're not alone. Try, if you can, to let these things go rather than holding onto them.
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
Thank you.......
I had a poor experience on the site because of a few controversial things I said. I have (had?) BPD and used to have a very unstable self image. I was trying to find out who I was and picked up characteristics from my very-far right dad and grandma. I tried to make amends with people I’ve offended on the site but I learned that it’s best to just let it go. I’ve had interactions with a few people on the site that I know I previously offended and it seems like they’ve forgotten / forgiven me.
I tried to make it my mission to redeem myself because I’d seek forgiveness and approval from others… but I know that isn’t possible from everyone. I can’t make everyone forgive me if they don’t. I sent a message out to a few people apologizing and I’ve gotten responses. That went better than I expected, but I didn’t receive a response from one person, and I’m pretty sure I’m on that person’s ignore list so they didn’t see it.
I can’t blame my unstable self image, but BPD screwed me over so much. I hated being bullied in school and being traumatized so much that I developed a disorder. I hate that being bullied impacts people long into adulthood and that it still goes on, but nothing is done about it. But maybe I’d have had a more clear self image if I wasn’t bullied relentlessly? Maybe I wouldn’t try to mirror other peoples’ personalities because I’d be more confident in my own? Maybe then would I be able to get along with everyone on this site?
I have a more clear self image now. I blocked my grandma because I was sick of her anti-trans mindset and her emphasizing my she/her pronouns. I hate how she calls me my deadname every sentence. There’s NO reason to use someone’s name that much. Im starting to spend more time on things that interest me rather than interests I picked up from other people. It was a process but I like to think I improved.
But even then, it’s over with and that’s not going to change the fact that it happened. I can’t erase the incident from everyone’s memories. All I can do is accept. I think I improved…
I tried to make it my mission to redeem myself because I’d seek forgiveness and approval from others… but I know that isn’t possible from everyone. I can’t make everyone forgive me if they don’t. I sent a message out to a few people apologizing and I’ve gotten responses. That went better than I expected, but I didn’t receive a response from one person, and I’m pretty sure I’m on that person’s ignore list so they didn’t see it.
I can’t blame my unstable self image, but BPD screwed me over so much. I hated being bullied in school and being traumatized so much that I developed a disorder. I hate that being bullied impacts people long into adulthood and that it still goes on, but nothing is done about it. But maybe I’d have had a more clear self image if I wasn’t bullied relentlessly? Maybe I wouldn’t try to mirror other peoples’ personalities because I’d be more confident in my own? Maybe then would I be able to get along with everyone on this site?
I have a more clear self image now. I blocked my grandma because I was sick of her anti-trans mindset and her emphasizing my she/her pronouns. I hate how she calls me my deadname every sentence. There’s NO reason to use someone’s name that much. Im starting to spend more time on things that interest me rather than interests I picked up from other people. It was a process but I like to think I improved.
But even then, it’s over with and that’s not going to change the fact that it happened. I can’t erase the incident from everyone’s memories. All I can do is accept. I think I improved…
themysterybidder
Senior Member
Oh Xara, your post really touched me. I have never experienced a pet loss, and I hope it will be a long, long time before I do, but I can relate to your situation. I always think of my Mum every single day, and some days the grief overwhelms me. But I think I can say you gave your cat the best life and they would have known how much you loved them. Maybe this post is a bit of a ramble, but I wanted to say something and let you know I am thinking of you. (Always love to see pictures of Bonk!)
i want to switch a class in next semester because my friend told me that there’s a lot of group work in that class. y’all know how much i hate group work
just hoping the school counselor will let me switch (they make my schedule) i don’t even know how to start the email.
also guess who’s getting wisdom tooth surgery next month.. meee (to my dismay)
just hoping the school counselor will let me switch (they make my schedule) i don’t even know how to start the email.
also guess who’s getting wisdom tooth surgery next month.. meee (to my dismay)
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i feel so useless in my new role, most of my team have 10+ years of experience on me and it really shows, i hate always comparing myself but i feel completely out of my depth sometimes and i'm worried others see it too, no one has said anything and my job is very independent but that makes it worse somehow, if i'm doing a bad job i want to know..
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
This is why I work alone.i'm so utterly awful at group work
there's always some sort of road construction otw to work every 4 months or something and it's really annoying :/ a 15-minute commute becomes 30+ mins because of the bottleneck, and the constructions take a month or more to finish ugh. what the hell are they doing
VanitasFan26
I'm just a ghost.
Appointments wait times are just the worst. Its like you arrive on time and yet there are so many others before you and you have to wait a very long while for you to get called up.
I need to make a big decision about the future of my career but instead imma play Fae Farm. Do I wanna have a solid retirement plan and full medical care coverage for my partner and I for the rest of ours lives? Or do I wanna play simulation farming?
Firesquids
☆ Roxie of Avalar ☆
Despite my best efforts I'm sick again. 
Hoping I feel better by my birthday.
Hoping I feel better by my birthday.
daringred_
✧ ghost lesbian ✧
girlfriend got through the same day i wrote this (idk why i wrote that i called them lmao, she did) and they said they'd email. almost a week later? no email. she calls again, and they say they'll "email again" despite never emailing in the first place, then completely ignore her explaining why i can't call and tell her to have me call. hello? what's not clicking? seriously, you'd think a psychiatry place would be considerate and understanding of why someone can't call because of anxiety reasons and yet!
