I took a year break after school aaaand the year is over. Now I have to decide what to do with my life. I feel like I would regret it no matter what decision I'm gonna make.
The problem is - my dream was to study medicine, but you have to have a nearly perfect Abitur (that's the degree we get in Germany if we are ready for university) to get the friggin' chance! If your "Abitur" is not good enough, there's hardly any chances besides a very few university places you can get via a lottery. The other option - waiting. I'd have to wait 6 and a half years. And during this time I am not allowed to study in a university - or else the waiting duration would get longer. It's only counting when you're not studying. Of course there's the option to leave the country but.. actually I don't want to leave for longer than a half year because I get homesick very easily if it's too long and nobody from home is with me.
So I wanted to start a apprenticeship as a nurse and I also got the chance from the nursery school. But now I feel like it's not the right thing to do, especially because I would not want to work for long after the three-year period this will take...I'd rather study then. Which means - I would take someones place who might love the profession and wants to continue it his/her whole life. To me, it would only be a filler in the field I liked.
Here in Germany there's a apprenticeship for nearly anything and you really have to be qualified to get a decent job. And because many people I know hated university, got sick from it and gave up in the end... I thought learning a profession without uni first might be a good idea. But why does it feel so horribly wrong then?
My alternatives to study are - mechatronics, computer science or biology/chemistry. But in this case I'd have to give up my medicine dreams which kinda hurts my head.
Thanks for reading, I just had to write this off my chest... ._.
I have the "hair hurt" and I'm also kind of upset that my boyfriend spent $800 on a gaming PC because I'm jealous that he hasn't bought me anything... 'pretty', y'know? he gave me a plant for my birthday and I kinda wanted jewelry or something to be honest...
I stayed up all night until 6 am (now) and I'm supposed to babysit today
I'm an idiot
Also I'm supposed to be writing a short story with a word limit of 500 words. It used to be over 900 but i got it down to 595. I feel like I really can't cut anything else though
Lovely parents you got there. Sorry you have to deal with that - and from your parents of all people. Shame on them.
And I can relate to the heat.. lately I've just been locking myself in my room and stripping down to my underwear. lmao. It's too hot for clothes, man.