i want to Die also im Angry and idk what to do w those feeligns lmao i guess i will turn it into extreme hatred towards myself and other people like i always do because i dont have any healthy ways to deal with or express my emotions which leads to me being self destructive and negatively impacted by it :')
also i hate how i can google that cbt guy and stuff w him will show up which is stupid of me bc like why am i like this ofc thigns can show up about someone if you google their name especially when it is kind of unique and he has a bunch of his stuff online w news stuff and research papers and interviews and those projects like ,???? also "i dont like the word 'anxiety' bc it is so unspecific" idk why exactly bc it's not offensive or w/e but that thing he said makes me want to lit my face on fire and scream for thirty hours straight .
also i love how im like Why Am I Like This Oh No My Life Is So Sad ): when i know why and what i actually mean is something way too pathetic and difficult to express aaaaaa im Pathetic in every single possible way Lol
also im hungry ):::