What's Bothering You?

I've disliked how I've become increasingly cynical over the last several years. It's likely noticeable if you compare my early posts from 2020 to my newer ones. Watching my country disintegrate, dealing with personal issues, and dropping out of college (for good) have all taken a toll on me. Internally, I feel as though I'm decades older than I am. I'm emotionally tired and seem to keep predicting global events with perfect accuracy. I'm also in an in-between stage of my life, which will end once I move into a place of my own. I'm not fond of the idea of roommates, so I'm considering moving to the Midwest, where I can enjoy a lower cost of living and afford a studio apartment by myself.
 
My brother called this morning to let us know our Uncle on my Dad’s side passed away. I feel worse for my cousin. My cousin and my brother decided it would be best not to tell Dad about his brother’s passing. I get it because of my dad’s declining health and his Alzheimer’s but it doesn’t feel right for him not to know. Not that I actually want to tell him that the only sibling he got along with is gone. I don’t want him to feel that loss.

R.I.P Uncle
 
not to be a hater or anything but I genuinely hate summer sooooo much. the constant blaring heat makes things that already suck like going to get groceries or having to stop for gas somehow suck like a thousand times more.
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i havent gone to get groceries in weeks thats why i’m thinking about this LOL
 
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