I just...really don't know what to think know, or don't know what to do. I'd be stupid to say that I didn't see myself in this situation, I was just in denial for so long that this would ever happen. I saw it coming, and yet I did nothing to try to fix it. How come when I see something coming, or know when I need help, I never reach out to do it or do anything about it?? I'm just so terrible at dealing with stressful situations that my mind's instant reaction is just to block it out instantly, and don't think about it any further. That's not going to work this time. So many thoughts are running through my head, and so many paths to fix them. I wouldn't have a clue what action to take. I've done so many things wrong that I should've corrected. It's all my fault, not anyone elses much to their belief. I can't take back what I've done, I've well in truly screwed up. I feel like I'm a rabbit frozen in headlights right now, I can't do anything.