Invitation to tell a story that will result in walls of text? Wynaut?
Okay so I never had a Dad in my life.. As soon as he knocked my Mum up, he vanished, never to contact me or any of my family again.. So, my Grandad was the man of my life while I grew up.. He was everything to me, the perfect role model.. I loved him with all my heart..
He died when I was 12 due to a very rare lung condition.. He had a tough fight, but he fought it right to the end.. When I found out, I dropped to the floor and just cried all night.. I couldn't believe the one true father figure I had, was gone.. And I remember him telling me that despite his illness, his final wish was to see me grow up.. My heart shattered when I realised that that wish wasn't going to be fulfilled.. I was struggling with his loss more than any of my family will ever know, I bottled up all my feelings and didn't tell anyone.. The one final straw that really set me over the edge was how he died.. My Granny walked into their bedroom, and saw him dozing.. She walked up to him, and took his hand and noticed he was getting cold.. She started to cry, and before he went, my Grandad said to her, "I love you with all of my heart, I'll always be with you", then he kissed her hand and said "Good night my angel" before passing.. I just couldn't take it.. I may be a man, but damn it I have deep feelings and I couldn't help but cry..
I was stuck in a downward spiral of depression for about 3 years, stuck in a hard shell from which I couldn't escape..
However when I was 14, I met a guy in my math class who I'd never really talked to, we were in the same form class, but we never really spoke to each other at all.. Neither of us really knew anyone else in the class so we just decided to break the ice.. We got talking and soon got pretty close.. We started to talk more and hang around after school and just talk..
After about a year I decided that it was about time I told someone about my situation.. So I did.. I basically just told him exactly what had happened in my life, and why I was so reserved and shy.. And the response I got was nothing I expected.. When you're on rock bottom, you don't ever expect for anything to get better.. You think you're doomed to a life of misery for the rest of your life.. Well, he just hugged me and said he understood the pain.. He just listened to what I had to say, and said the right things back.. After a few hours of talking.. I realised that there may be a light at the end of the tunnel.. It may be faint, but it's there.. Ever since then, he's helped me through so many different situations.. He's constantly helped me get out my downward spiral, and helped me break free from my depression.. He's helped me with relationship issues.. He was also the first person I ever came out as gay too.. He said he was surprised but was caring and understanding, and has always embraced the fact I'm gay.. He doesn't try and force me to hide behind some straight persona so that it's not weird around him.. He's an incredible guy too, he's insanely funny, has a great personality.. I don't know what I'd do without him..
He is the sole reason I'm here telling you this story today.. If not for him, I probably wouldn't be here at all.. Rock bottom can lead you down some very dark paths.. But he showed me that.. Life was worth living, that there's always light at the end of the tunnel..
So yeah that's basically it.. Just wanted to share the story of my best friend, and why he's one of the best things to ever happen in my life
.. (Oh and while this sounds like a love story, it's not.. It's more of a bromance, haha)
To finish.. I wanna say that to anyone who may look over this and think that you may be on rock bottom.. Don't led the shadows lead you astray down dark paths.. As difficult as your situation may be, you will always have someone or something there who can lead you in the right direction.. It could be a best friend, it could be a family member, it could be your better half.. It could be someone who just appears in your life almost out of nowhere.. Just always remind yourself..
There is light at the end of the tunnel.
Keep smiling everyone.. And this was a great thread idea Sock
