cool so now that that disclaimer's out of the way, i do feel like talking about me!! doodle above is sort of a joke-but-not-a-joke, since i do get really bad seasonal depression esp since that timing coincides with when my work irl is busiest, so i tend to lose a lot of my outlets that keep me sane (art, etc.) and my mental health falls into shambles. particularly bad this year because i was dealing with moving at the same time. on the other hand, having constant deadlines keeps me a functional human being (? questionable) for me, overworking is a lot better than the times when i would just... lie in bed until 4pm or something. neither are great tho, im still getting used to proper balance
anyways, i've got good support systems and i'm very good at recognizing my own behaviours, when im starting to slip, and when i need to take care of myself (which took a lot of time to get to! but it helps to be able to recognize... when im going to start spiraling and pre-emptively prevent it). so i do mean it when i say i'm ok!
but i do also think it's important for me to communicate that, despite the fact that i appear very productive/hardworking (apparently?), it's not completely coming from a healthy place. also it's not sustainable and i know my boundaries! so i do sincerely hope no one sees me as any sort of standard. this comes up because i had a friend talk to me before and they felt bad that they weren't getting as much done as me.
i've overworked in the past to the point where i broke down, which made me be veeeeery mindful and careful after i recovered enough. and made me also very wary about when i feel like people might be pushing themselves too hard too. i also have a lot to say about how i present myself vs. my actual internal workings but thats neither here nor there
so if you are comparing your productivity to anyone else's (not even mine), be nicer to yourself!! taking breaks and going at a sustainable pace is healthy and better, and sometimes productivity is not a good indicator of well-being. make sure you take care of yourself even when you're being productive! be mindful of your condition!!
