What's Bothering You?

[spawnpoint]

Worried about my future again. Anxious about everything. Sad over some fictional character. Missing my best friend. Worried about my other friend. Started my menstruation cycle. Sore. Having insomnia. When will it ever end..?

Post automatically merged: Jul 27, 2020

one more post before I go to sleep
my friends are having a huge fight. only one of them told me about it, but I’m not picking sides.
it hurts to see them angry. it hurts that I have to see it happen. i just want them to make up and go back to being friends.
i miss a few months ago.

Okay this made me feel even worse

 

[Mimi Cheems]

Spoiler: My emotional self being emotional, again

Well, recently over the past month or two months, I had been hanging out with an old friend from school. We sort of lost touch once he did online school and since the bad break-up I had went through, I really needed a friend to hang out with. He and I started talking again after the first time in a while, and we instantly acted like we just talked yesterday. Like nothing changed. Anyways, since we last talked, he got his own apartment with a friend who moved from another state to room with him. Let's call him Tris. Well, the past few times my old friend (we'll call him DK, has taken me to his apartment, I just... hung out with DK. I never really talked much or wanted to talk to Tris until maybe the 18th of July. My friend DK is trying to quit some bad habits and despite all the advice Tris and I have given him, and keeps slipping back into these habits. And Tris has to keep coming to DK's rescue. Every time. Tris had been planning on moving back to his home state around November, but because things aren't getting any better, he's leaving at the end of August. But, since the 18th, Tris and I have become very close, and on the 25th, I stayed at DK and his apartment for at least 7 hours celebrating his birthday with him. I'm not sure why I was so devastated by it when Tris first told me he was going back a lot sooner. I started bawling my eyes out as I was cleaning the kitchen. I was so upset. I'm still pretty upset and I don't want to think too much about it, or I will start crying. I felt an instant connection to Tris even when I barely saw him or even started talking to him on Discord. I will miss him so much. I don't want him to have any bad memories of my home state, so I will be doing my best to make as many good ones, ones good enough to outweigh the bad ones he has. I don't want him to leave, but I understand why and I also respect his decision in doing so. I just want him to be happy and I know he won't be happy as long as he continues to stay here... ;w; Lots on my mind </3

 

[LongLee]

I feel like I have to throw up but I’m terrified of throwing up

 

[Chris]

What was it? My old boss physically cringed at the word moist.

I volunteer my time giving relationship and life advice to young people. A question that was asked this weekend was regarding an adult topic and despite good, consistent advice given to this person they still decided to make a selfish choice that is going to hurt someone in their life. Having once been in the same position as the person that is going to suffer for their actions, it was a horrific experience of reliving old trauma.

 

[Bosmer]

I just found out from my work chat that the boss has stopped sending cakes on people's birthday, and typically this happens around mine big sad

 

[Ananas Dragon]

well last night I was hysterical because I started thinking about all of my problems at once

yeah I'm cringing now because I started crying and I hate doing so

 

[Alienfish]

If people could stop self-censor words that'd be nice.

Also the fact I have to do this questchain 9 more times until I can finally merge for that one class. Though Legion Revenant and Yami no Ronin is that x10000 so yeah I'll stfu

 

[Shellzilla_515]

every time I look up a character there's always some fanart I didn't want to see

I've had this happen to me when I looked up Sterling, my favourite villager on my island. I was scrolling through fanart when I stumbled across one that scarred me so badly. That was with safe search on and now I can't unsee it. That's why I'm hesitant on searching up cute villagers like Stitches for example. You never know what pops up. Thanks a lot to whoever drew that art...

 

[Ananas Dragon]

I've had this happen to me when I looked up Sterling, my favourite villager on my island. I was scrolling through fanart when I stumbled across one that scarred me so badly. That was with safe search on and now I can't unsee it. That's why I'm hesitant on searching up cute villagers like Stitches for example. You never know what pops up. Thanks a lot to whoever drew that art...

Wishing I could delete my memory

 

[Dwayne Johnson]

im starting to lose interest in things i enjoy again, hate when that happens

 

[Alienfish]

Trying too see if I could find some Johnny's WEST merch for a friend but most stuff are wrongly tagged so I only find like more recent bands. Shush sorry site for trying to be nice lol

 

[oak]

I've been telling myself for days to eat something before 6PM but it's a lot harder then I thought. The only thing that doesn't make my stomach flip at the sight of is coffee so I end up drinking it all day long as a meal replacement.

Also I went to a friend's house 2 days ago for a party and I saw that there was a scale in the bathroom. It was an immediate "oh no" moment cause I don't keep one at home so I'm not obsessively stepping on it. Of course I ended up standing on it and I'm 10 pounds lighter then 3-4 months ago and it makes it harder to break this bad eating habit.

 

[_Rainy_]

I've been telling myself for days to eat something before 6PM but it's a lot harder then I thought. The only thing that doesn't make my stomach flip at the sight of is coffee so I end up drinking it all day long as a meal replacement.

Same. All my quarantine padding is gone and then some

 

[oak]

Same. All my quarantine padding is gone and then some

Being in quarantine did wild things to people. I still have some padding left though so don't worry haha

 

[Chris]

I've been telling myself for days to eat something before 6PM but it's a lot harder then I thought. The only thing that doesn't make my stomach flip at the sight of is coffee so I end up drinking it all day long as a meal replacement.

Try opting for something light/sweet in the mornings. Sugary snacks like cereal bars, cookies, or muffins might tempt you into eating (and go great with coffee!) and provide you with an energy boost. It's not a good long-term strategy but in the short-term should help regulate your metabolism.

 

[oak]

Try opting for something light/sweet in the mornings. Sugary snacks like cereal bars, cookies, or muffins might tempt you into eating (and go great with coffee!) and provide you with an energy boost. It's not a good long-term strategy but in the short-term should help regulate your metabolism.

Thank you, I went and got myself a granola bar from the pantry lmao.

 

[Ananas Dragon]

Trapped in my thoughts again.

Can't stop thinking about all my problems, can't find ways to fix them, start thinking about the future, hating my day.

Nothing has gotten better since last night, I just can't even right now.

 

[Rosie977]

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[Reginald Fairfield]

I feel terrible about something that isn't even my fault, and I can't do anything about it. I wish I could, and I feel like a bad person when I can't.

I've been trying to just avoid it until I have to deal with it, buts it's just hard. It doesn't help either that I'm annoyed about some other things.

Everything just feels... I don't know, just wrong. I guess it'll just get better eventually...

If you can't do anything about it, how would you deal with it?

 

[Rosie977]

If you can't do anything about it, how would you deal with it?

Well, now that I think about it a bit more, you have a good point.

From what it looks like at the moment, if I don't do something, it'll probably get worse. I can't do much, but I have something in mind. I don't know exactly yet, but hopefully I can just talk to them.

I'll have to think on how more, but thank you!