What's Bothering You?

Had a very scary moment. I logged into the work portal to confirm my boss had approved my annual leave for tomorrow, only to find I'd been marked as off sick the past two weeks. This was not showing yesterday.

Panicked phone call to my boss. He said it'll prob fix itself. Asked him to look into it because by time I'm back at work (only place I can access the portal) my next paycheck will be being processed.

20 minutes later he called to say it needed fixed manually but he's done it now.

So it's fixed but OMG I could have lost 25-50% of my income for the month over an admin error. And they wouldn't have paid me back until the following month. 😱
 
Since the Minecraft movie arrived the theatre is a disaster after every showing. Cops coming in, people being escorted out, the ridiculous amounts of trash and more in them. Ridiculous. We don't get paid to spend three hours cleaning a theatre (yes it sometimes takes that long) and doing more sometimes. My co-worker had to clean up some truly gross things that i dont want to say. At least in the staff lounge we now get free donats, and other treats. But still. People are so disrespectful, and thoughtless sometimes.
 
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I need to improve my shower schedule. My mom recommends twice a week but I can only make room for Sunday and I'd rather use the rest of the days for classwork and other things.

I am also very reluctant to shower to begin with. The routine takes a while and the cold sensation I get in the end is not worth it... Actually, I skipped showering on Sunday because I just didn't feel like it, and I got yelled at. Ugh.
 
This is a few days old now but on a Nintendo server I’m part of there were people arguing about the price and this one guy came in saying, quote “you shouldn’t be hyped for it”, at other points him and another guy just complained when others were interested in the games and not talking about prices. I don’t even like Nintendo and hell would freeze before I buy a Switch 2, but it just affirmed how some people make their entire personality complaining. I’ve known this guy and had him blocked for years but I do give blocked posts a chance again sometimes, and I have never seen this guy humble or apologetic or remotely positive about anything. I’ve only ever seen him post to complain, he’s a jerk when you call it out, it really bothers me how some people just don’t change when they’re so obviously unpleasant. Though as for him specifically at this point it’s just funny he tried to stawman me as a fanboy with that classic “leave the multimillion dollar company alone” meme aimed directly at me, when I was one of the first to complain and was calling out his attitude instead. Like how tone-deaf can you be that your attitude is the problem and it’s not that I disagree with your opinion (because I don’t really), it’s just too absurd.

This is probably going to be a bit controversial but, “voting with your wallet” can be seriously overrated sometimes. Is it important and would it be a collective good? Yes but. These two people were trying to act like it was a moral dilemma and just spread negativity to a server with a dozen people. If you’re just going to do that it’s genuinely a “stop having fun” tier response. I DO vote with my wallet on almost everything (I don’t even use Amazon, imagine how annoying that can be when everyone defaults to it and so much is so hard to find here), but I’m not going to lie the biggest impact I have on my own is that I feel morally better for where I put my money in and sometimes just find better products (for what I do, Linux stomps all over Windows, I’m tired of hearing that it isn’t for everyone and seeing people act as though MacOS is much “better”). With that said I’m really not excited to see Lilo and Stitch sweep having basically boycotted Disney for the last decade and a half, there’s a lot about that remake specifically that bothers me and I can smell how much money it’s going to make. Yet here I am and I want to see the Minecraft movie which some people feel similarly about. I’ve been a good boy so let me have a cheat day. Only reason I’m not actually seeing it is my boyfriend is too far to go together and I know the theater is going to be full of kids rather than the zoomers in on the joke group I would actually want to see it with. Garrett seems so me-coded, THE NETHERRR

Also OTOH: “just shut your brain off” is always a lame response, the reason critics respect movies like that so much less is that they take so much less effort and I say this as someone with mega brainrot, it really bothers me that people think critics must be all pretentious and think they have power when they absolutely see how little impact they have and recieve all kinds of nasty complaints from fandom. I used to want to be a critic but then I saw how many people hate it and the anti-intellectuallism and how i would just have had no impact
 
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Measles cases are stressing me out!!! This should not be a disease we are dealing with in 2025!!! The kids in my nursery school are all required to be vaccinated but some of them have little baby siblings at home that are too young to be vaccinated and that worries me.
 
An old man came in with his dog because he was worried about her. He just rescued her and she was covered in fleas. Like....her skin was literally moving.

Both him and the dog were very sweet and he recieved everything needed to get her back on her feet. That's not the issue.

The issue is...I get home and pull fleas out of my hair.....despite having used PPE and multiple cleaning precautions. I can now feel them on me and they're not even there. Ughhhhh
 
I haven't been feeling well mentally since January and it's only getting worse and worse and worse.
First I got sick again, then I found out I'm not graduating this year and won't be able to for two more years (if I pass all my classes) and was only able to take 2 of my program's classes this semester.
Then I got super antisocial toward everyone I love and I don't know why and haven't fully recovered from that. I just suddenly hated all of my friends and nothing gave me a reason why.
I'm not taking care of myself, I'm barely eating or taking my meds, I'm not keeping my room clean. I can barely even hold attention on games and stuff that I like, and if I do I'm so far gone its all I can think about to an unhealthy degree. I feel like I'm on the verge of tears constantly and I don't know why. I want to do art and yet perfectionism and RSD makes me so adverse to doing it that I just don't.
And yeah, the world sucks. Everything sucks. Things are strained with certain friends and with certain family and even in school there are issues. But the thing is that you'd think that'd be what's causing me to be upset and none of that is? Or maybe it is?? I've developed an apathy response to anything I deem too stressful and I don't think it's not that I'm not feeling anything its just all the feelings are in there and stay in there and are so heavily masked that I don't even know what's causing them.

Cause I don't know what's causing them, I really don't. There are reasons for me to be upset yet I don't feel upset about those things, unless my theory holds true. Instead I'm just dysphoric mentally and I just don't really see any point. And I'd do things to help myself if I had the energy to even get out of bed. Usually I wait for my bad moods to subside but this is been since January at least, and I can feel it getting worse, and I dunno what to do except keep barely existing because I have to, and that's not a pleasant way to live nor giving me much hope or helping my mood lmao.

It'd help if I had anyone to talk to especially abt my interests but I'm not friends with anyone who likes the same stuff as me anymore especially to the degree i like it so idfk I guess I will sit here in silence and just be because thats all I can do. And no amount of people telling me that's enough is gonna convince me that it is lmao

and yes I'm going to therapy
 
trying to build a following while sites demand you already have ~10k followers or whatever before they stop treating you like a spambot/actually show your content to people just feels like the internet equivalent of "be 18 with 18 years of job experience"

edit: just to clarify, this is in regards to "having a following is kinda vital for an online art career"
 
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