What's Bothering You?

[ShinyDungeoneer]

I feel old.
On another forum, we're discussing childhood shows, and people keep saying ones from when I was 4 (ex. Ni Hao Kai-Lan, Backyardigans). I hate being reminded of the passage of time.

 

[skarmoury]

ive calmed down

 

[mogyay]

I'm rly hungry

 

[azurill]

Yeah I’m wondering how much I even want to read that or keep trying to remain ignorant to issues / drama on this site (it honestly isn’t working anymore and I’m pretty sad to admit it but I’ve felt increasingly uncomfortable here for various reasons)

Yea I keep going back and forth with what I want to know and what I don’t. I do feel increasingly uneasy about posting and reacting to posts. Also uneasy about participating in events. Hopefully everyone can come to an agreement soon.

 

[. Rarity .]

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[Croconaw]

Spoiler: Another ramble…

This site is one that I like, as much as I don’t want to admit it. I have thoughts in the back of my mind telling me to leave. That people don’t like me here, and that my presence here doesn’t matter. That’s nobody’s fault but my own, but I wish I could interact on this site like a normal human being.

I wish I didn’t know that others on this site have me ignored. There are some things about this site that bother me I can’t fully express because some users will always have a certain opinion of me. I know I said things in the past considered controversial, and in no way am I trying to justify it, but I want to say that I wasn’t in the best place back then. I had pretty bad experiences outside of the forum, and I was letting people in my life influence my thoughts.

My grandma and my dad were telling me things like, “if person was white, that wouldn’t have happened,” and “this is what happens when you put people in positions of power that don’t deserve it.” I’m someone easily influenced by other people, or at least I was.

I knew that I wasn’t as ****ty as a person as I thought I was. I used to question why my grandma was the way she was when I was younger. She would shout (well, speak, but she has a loud natural voice) the most racist and bigoted things in public settings, like at grocery stores. I was always embarrassed to go out with her because of this. I didn’t want to be associated with her. I didn’t want to be like her.

But in reality, all I managed to become was one of the people I hated most. I like to think I’ve gotten better at not letting my emotions control me, but that doesn’t change what happened in the past. I hate that my words have made so many people uncomfortable on this site, and that I’m part of what’s tainted their views on this site.

I truly did not think about the things I was saying before posting and I’m sorry if my presence or words have made anyone uncomfortable. I’ve been in a few instances at my current job, where I’ve come across not-so-pleasant customers and I was able to bite my tongue… and not let my emotions control me. A little while ago, my mom told me that if she hadn’t believed I’d changed, she wouldn’t have gotten me this job with her. It gave me just a glimmer of hope that I wasn’t the ****ty person I thought I was.

 

[himekirako]

of course my last customer of my shift had three bags full of returns ( `−ㅿ−´)

when you're done at cash, you're expected to clear up your area which means censoring all your returns before putting them away, put away all your hangers, toss out any trash, and dump your censor bins if they're overflowing. so that's what i was doing !!!

naturally the line was growing so we called for backup since i was done and it was just one cash coordinator available as the other one had just gone on her break. i was clearly doing my returns as the lady that was next in line was glaring at me and when my coordinator called her over, she was loudly complaining how i was "too busy cleaning and not serving people" so she explained how i was done for the day but then the lady said "well then she should go away" ( ` ᴖ ´ )
(๑•̀ᗝ•́)૭ hello???? what do you think i'm trying to do !!!!!
so my coordinator was like "excuse me, you can't be rude to my associates. she's cleaning up and putting the returns away because that's what she'd told to do. i can cancel your transaction if you don't like it."

(ง•̀o•́)ง did she wake up on the wrong side of the bed or something??? jesus

 

[jiny]

why do some people feel the need to speak on things that don’t pertain to them… at all

 

[rrenaa]

just woke up with a sore throat, life sucks…

 

[bestfriendsally]

it's not TOO much of a bother, but....

i hate my 'lay's potato chips ''roasted chicked wing'' flaver...
they're spicy at the end of the flavor.... > <

i had no idea, when i chose them from tofucute for christmas last year ... i'm never getting them again



i'm alright, though... i drank water : 3

 

[Seastar]

Really annoyed because my mom still hasn't listened about not buying cat toys that can easily be swallowed. I have caught some of the cats trying to do things like this before in the past and she just doesn't get it no matter how many times I tell her. She just acts like this isn't a big deal. Plus, it's cheap garbage she likely ordered off of Temu, another thing she doesn't listen about. I am so tired of her.

 

[Mimi Cheems]

Aaauh. I think I sprained my ankle somehow, but.. unsure? I didn’t fall on it. I didn’t do anything recently that would make me think I’ve injured it. But it is really bothering me and just gets worse, lol. I have an aircast on it now, but. It’s very uncomfortable

 

[Chris]

Aniexty/stress has me so nauseous. Just cancelled on my PT and I feel so guilty for it. I've an hour and a half to get myself into a state I can actually go to work in. Ugh I hate this.

 

[Seastar]

I don't feel safe living here. I'm very scared of the future and tonight I can't distract myself and have been on edge for about an hour.

 

[Chris]

Aniexty/stress has me so nauseous. Just cancelled on my PT and I feel so guilty for it. I've an hour and a half to get myself into a state I can actually go to work in. Ugh I hate this.

Oh god. So right now I'm stood outside work shaky and nauseous as hell.

Spoiler

There was finally a witness to the way I'm being treated at work. She went off at me in front of my manager. He's now gone to see his boss and will be contacting hers. I feel so sick.

 

[skarmoury]

I wrote a whole thing but . Idk if it's pathetic to rant the whole thing. But anyway I have to ****ing get it together because no one is going to get my **** together for me. I need to stop crying every night. I need to stop letting the anxiety get to me. I need to move.

I can do it. I can do it. I can do it.
Nine days. I can do it.

Dear god this is so stressful.

 

[-Apples-]

Gex Trilogy Remastered doesn’t look “remastered” in the trailers. I hope that’s not the final product when it comes out this summer.

 

[Chris]

Spoiler: work vent

I don't want to face work today. But I'm refusing to make any moves that suggest incapability. Absence would risk redeployment, which is what my union rep and the two colleagues who are informed have already suggested I ask for. Yes, I'll just escape and subject my successor to this treatment both myself and my predecessor faced... no, there needs to be a change.

I've potentially put myself in the line of fire for this morning and if it results in backlash I'm just going to have say, "my manager said we should try it this way, it is how they do it at [his site]." Actually, a lot of his advice risks similar results. They're not going to like me setting boundaries but it needs to be done. And thankfully if they complain my manager said he will be quick to tell them, "I told Chris to do this, it is in line with how the rest of the service operates." Now he's seen the treatment firsthand he's mad and completely understands why I'm stressed and don't want to be here.

 

[xSuperMario64x]

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[Seastar]

I just woke up feeling sick and honestly I think it's a reaction to this unhealthy house because of what room I went into last night to go after a cat...

Spoiler: Weather and politics, sorry

I'm also not happy about Spring because every time I see thunderstorms predicted I have to worry if they're going to be dangerous and bring tornadoes.
And related to that I keep being anxious remembering the government is trying to get rid of the NOAA. There's already been cuts and layoffs and there might be more. It's really important that we have accurate information about blizzards, fires, tornadoes, and hurricanes. Could you imagine if nobody got any notifications or warnings or got less because the data wasn't accurate enough? I find it quite disturbing that most of the places known for hurricanes voted for this guy, as well as some places with bad history of tornadoes.
I wish I didn't have to worry so much about this, but I live somewhere known for tornadoes. I think I may have been traumatized by the 2011 outbreak.