What's Bothering You?

Under the weather so just don't feel the best.
A bit worried about the measles outbreak since baby can't have her MMR vaccine till 12 months but I'm hoping they'll give it at 6 months early as it seems like some resources mention it's possible. Will have to wait till April to discuss with ped.
 
I've had stomach problems since last year, and I have an endoscopy tomorrow, so I have to go under anesthesia. I've only gone under anesthesia once before when I was a child, so I'm a bit nervous. Medical procedures in general make me anxious
Well, I survived. They didn't find any ulcers or anything though, so they think maybe it is because of my gallbladder and the gallstones after all, even though the pain is either on the left side or in the center of my abdomen when it happens. Apparently gallbladder pain is just felt on the left for some people though
 
I was trying to look things up to try and guess if I will be in a danger of tornadoes later tonight and I came across politics again. I'm hearing people got fired at NOAA and I am just so scared knowing the president is clueless about how weather and climate change work and will let things like this happen.
And a totally different topic but I know he also doesn't care/understand about the bird flu outbreak. I feel like everyone is in danger.
If I could I would move somewhere far away that has less of these problems but not only am I completely incapable of that, I don't actually know if such a place even exists. It feels like there's just major problems everywhere.
 
I don’t feel like I’m engaged with any community anymore. I kinda know this one I don’t wanna dip in more than I am right now, my old friend circle I’ve drifted away from being quite as active due to move on with some interests and a few small disagreements and otherwise I never seem to find my place in hanging out in communities. Trying to be part of any is terrifying.

Also, nightmares came back. In some ways I’m feeling worse than last year.
 
Isn't it weird for me, a teenager, to be talking about this stuff? Well I have to anyway... As I'm typing this, I can hear the TV my dad tuned to the presidential address to Congress. Just from hearing it, everything that's being said sounds pretty screwed up. And I'm not even watching it, I'm just trying to do my homework.
 
It just got extremely windy and I think something hit the roof. I am scared tonight.

Yeah, the wind has been absolutely terrible around where I live all day. I don't think I realized it either until I heard things slamming into other things outside, lol. Hopefully it dies down soon. Stay safe please. 🫂
 
I had one of the worst panic attacks ever last night. It was on and off for about an hour, and at one point I was hyperventilating for about two minutes before being able to breathe normally, and I completely drenched my pillow. I didn't fall asleep until about one in the morning.

As for what caused it? A lot of things. Our math/science substitute is making our lives a living hell, and I risk losing my good course recommendations for next year because she is so horrible at teaching. The girl I mentioned in my last post here is STILL going at it, and I am currently drafting an email to my director about the situation, but I don't know how to word it without either coming off as whiny or a horrible person. Some memories came back of my mom's (now ex) boyfriend as well. I'm not comfortable talking about him too much, but he is a terrible man. This all happened at around midnight, and I couldn't call anyone, so it didn't help matters.

There is so much more going on but I don't want to post it all publicly, but thanks for listening anyway I guess.
 
I hate severe weather. Just got a Tornado Warning alert on my phone and now I can't stop shaking.
Not only that, they're trying to get rid of NOAA. To the people who voted for this joke and his little rat friend (even though he was never running for anything. other than being the next biggest crook awards), I hope you continue to get the cold shoulder from everyone (yeah, I've seen people whining about this), because you asked for this.
 
so unfathomably upset right now. chased my adhd referral because for some reason it still hadn't been done after a month, and the useless damn gp surgery texts me like, "i'm so sorry. nobody did this and the doctor has since left. you should make another appointment, i really am sorry." this after MONTHS of jerking me around for this referral and THAT'S the best response you have? you couldn't even take initiative to a) make me the appointment or b) just get another doctor to review and send it off in the meantime ???

and the worst part is i don't think my gp has even left ??? since her name is still up on their website. i think they're talking about the doctor who started the referral but i only saw her a total of two times AND she wasn't solely responsible for it. my usual doctor is the one who booked me in for the needed tests AND saw me right after. if she's left, the above points still stand, and they should've communicated that with me, ESPECIALLY if it was going to stop/impact my referral, but if she hasn't then WHY did they not ask her about it ?? i'm actually so mad and complaining wouldn't even do anything because it's not going to shorten the wait list. these idiots have completely screwed me over.
 
Different referral but this happened to me!! I don’t even know how they manage it. I’m so sorry they’ve done that
it's so bad, i never would've even know if i hadn't chased the referral myself yesterday because i couldn't see anything on my patient record. the fact that they didn't notify me themselves or transfer the referral/request to another GP in the surgery is insane. will definitely be complaining regardless. i'm tempted to just go private at this point, but i'm paranoid i'll pay all that money just to be told i don't have adhd lol.
 
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