What's Bothering You?

I'm pretty dead set on getting my second lobe piercing today but the more I think about it the more scared I feel 🥲 I had my first piercing done when I was 3 weeks old so I obv don't remember it. I can't go until my shift at work is over but the anticipation is absolutely killing me hdkfhsdglshs

edit: it wasn't that bad hehe 💜 I figured it wouldn't be but my anxiety sucks sometimes.
 
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I am really stressed out about work now, there was an incident yesterday and while I was not in the wrong and told that I did everything right I am still worried that somehow I am going to get in trouble for it somehow. I guess we will see what happens but I do feel like I was treated weird today at work even though I was not the wrong do-er in this situation. It is what it is!
 
i’m having a rlly hard time being patient w/ a close friend of mine lately >~> she’s rlly nice and stuff but she can also be rlly confusing and honestly a little frustrating sometimes

but im worried if i say smth like that itll cause more drama in our friend group + might make them hate me ._. i dont know what to dooo
 
the neptunia rebirth trilogy on switch got canceled. they say it's “not complying with the Nintendo Guidelines,” but that doesn't make since there is game that are worse (content wise)

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My mood was a little better today but even now, while I’m working on one of my entries, I feel like it’s getting bad again. I’m only thinking about my drawing so it’s probably just regular depression.

I’m also still anxious about some stuff; I hope everything ends up okay.

Please no dms here or discord, or replies or comments.
 
It was a pretty crazy day yesterday.
Work went fine, nothing problematic there, but I had planned to go to the library afterwards to meet with my friends mum to help her with something personal; they don't have laptops or such and I'm much quicker at typing.
At the library though, they were planning to host a small music thing near the computers where they were practising their intrustments? So that didn't help, plus their printers were not working, and the computer decided to clock out as we were doing an application so it was all lost.
I mentioned maybe we should go to the other library nearby, by bus, and we did. But their printers were also NOT working.
They suggested an internet cafe, but first I thought it'd be better to complete the application there, I luckily had my USB on me still, so once we have the confirmation, I can download it to my USB to print at the cafe.
The application didn't send to her email so she was calling someone to figure it out, and eventually it went to her emails; I really hated seeing her so emotionally distraught by this. Able to print it off at the cafe. (She was kind enough to treat me to lunch)

When I got home, I realised i had a splitting headache and tried to rest.
My mum returned, had a Christmas dinner at her work which was just awful, veg undercooked and all that. But what I was more worried about was that my mum has been having such a bad cold for a few days, she's asthmatic and said when walking home she could hardly breathe, so I called the doctor and to see if we can see someone as soon as possible.
Luckily, got one and rushed as slowly as possible to the doctors. Has a very bad chest infection and needed steriods and antibiotics.
Now, there's a pharmacy just across the road from the doctors, and we said it would save us all some time if it went there, which she agreed, but somehow she had sent it to the wrong one, which was too far, it was nearly 6PM here and that's when the pharmacy closed, so we tried to rush as quick as we could, I ran ahead when we got closer, and luckily they allowed me in to get the stuff for my mum.

All in all, a very crazy rollarcoaster ride of emotions.
Mum hopes I won't catch her cold, and hopefully I won't either.
Because of this, mum is worried about going out, so we won't be going to the shopping mall next week like we planned.
 
I had such a busy day yesterday (hospital, work, concert) and my body is protesting. I ache all over, brain fog, and have no energy do anything. All I've accomplished today is feeding my animals.

I took a 4hr nap on the couch this afternoon and feel worse for it.
 
How the **** do you drop off a food order at the wrong house when it's clearly stated which house it is on the app???? At least I got a refund for that, I would have been more upset if not.

Gotta love my laptop turning off again on its own as well.
 
My mom came back home all drunk and ****, and she just wouldn't leave me and my sister alone. She then started berating us about how disrespectful we are, and she wanted me to leave the household (basically telling me to gtfo of her house).

I'm used to dealing with **** like this because it's happened multiple times throughout the years. And before you ask, yes, my mom's been checked into rehab. Multiple times in fact. She's been sober for about a year, but lately, she's since relapsed and started drinking again.

I then proceeded to yell at her, cuss her out, and say some really hurtful things to her about how she's gonna die if she doesn't stop drinking and how I'd rather get covid-19 and die than have a drunk ass ***** like her for a mother in a last ditch effort to get her to leave me alone. Maybe I shouldn't have said hurtful things to her, but I felt like there was nothing else I could do, so yeah. Please don't @ me about it. I already know it was the wrong thing to do.

CPS has visited our house multiple times, and if anyone were to see my mom's drunk escapades, they'll probably end up calling CPS so they could take my sister away from her (and maybe even lock her up behind bars).
 
I can't sleep. Maybe because I took a 4hr nap yesterday afternoon, but I still feel tired.

Body somehow aches more than before I went to sleep. Stomach feels weird. Anytime I do doze off I have really weird dreams featuring people I haven't seen in years. So now it's 5am and I'm lying on the couch watching TV so as not to disturb my partner with the constant tossing and turning.
 
I was asked yesterday, if I could come in today and do three hours in the lunch time; but that means working close range with my boss. 12pm - 3pm, because two other people who normally work Sunday, can't make it.
I pray she leaves me be. I would pray I hope she stays upstairs but she likes gossip. (Was looking at their google reviews, and even one bad review stated that, crazy)
Then her ex messaged me saying this morning, since people go to Church on a sunday, up to me but if I would come at 11:15 instead and leave earlier then 3. I said i don't think I can do that.
If they said it last night, sure, but no. They know I don't work Sundays, they know people go to Church then, that shouldve been their first thing to think of. I swear they still think I live closer than I really do. Maddening.
Not looking forward to this at all. Plus will need to buy my own lunch since there's nothing there I wanna touch.
She also makes the food REALLY slow, and now I realise I am the one who's gotta deal with customers who of course will be angry with slow food.

Last night, I played Dead by daylight, they have the christmas theme going on, so played that.
Why each time, did I have really bad survivors, I was the only one doing generators DX
 
I realise why I never work here in the day its insane.
I have only just sat down. Had nothing to eat, unsure if I should ask to make a sandwich. Or just wait till I go shopping after work.

When my boss ain't cooking she's sitting down
Left the kitchen upstairs a complete mess and didn't tidy up so I did it, which I dint mind.
 
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